Longing

Gerard’s POV

I heard the door open and someone walking over and the bed dipping.
“Gee wake up.” I heard Patrick say quietly.
“Fuck off.” I mumbled and rolled over and cuddled into Frank’s back since he moved from me at some point of the night.
“Gee there’s someone at the door wanting help.” Patrick said and I huffed loudly and rolled over and flung the covers off me and Frank which made Frank sigh loudly and pat round for the covers and when he found them he pulled them right over his head.
“The fuck is even the time?” I asked as I looked at Patrick.
“It’s 4 am.” Patrick said carefully.
“The cunt.” I said and stood up and found a oversized jumper and I followed Patrick down stairs.

There was a boy stood by the front door looking scared.
“So you are the asshole which has woken me up.” I said sounding really grumpy and the boy looked at me and then looked me up and down.
“He’s taken so eyes off.” Patrick growled and I looked at him.
“Why the fuck are you knocking on my front door at 4 in the morning?” I asked.
“I seek shelter.” The boy said and he looked up the stairs and I followed his eye and saw Frank stood at the top of the stairs wrapped in the duvet.
I looked back at the boy and I couldn’t have him in the house, not with Frank around.
“Gee come back to bed.” Frank said sleepily.
“I will do after I sorted him out, go back to bed.” I said and Frank nodded and he went back to bed.
“You have to find somewhere else for shelter.” I said seriously.
“But it’s cold out there, it’s killing me on how cold it is out there.” The boy said.
“I don’t trust you to be in this house.” I said and the boy looked at me.
“Is it because of the human? Please I’ll stay away from him. I just want somewhere warm to sleep for the night and I’ll be gone.” The boy said.
“I don’t want you in my house. You reek of trouble and I will not have trouble in this house. I will give you a flask of a hot drink of your choice and I will give you food and blood to keep you going for a few days.” I said.
“But..” The boy said but Patrick stepped in.
“You better take is offer as he will not move from his choice and considering I had to wake him up he is not in the best of moods so I’ll take what you are being offered.” Patrick said and the boy looked at him.
“Please, it’ll only be for one night.” The boy beg and I moved and stood in front of him.
“You will take what you are given and you will leave.” I growled and at last the boy took the hint that he wasn’t welcomed.
“What hot drink would you like?” I asked softly.
“Hot chocolate. Please.” The boy said gingerly.
“Do you have any dietary needs I need to know about.” I said and the boy shook his head.
“No, but no tomatoes. I don’t like tomatoes.” The boy said and I nodded.
“Stay with him.” I said quietly to Patrick and he nodded and I walked to the kitchen and sorted the boys food and drink up and gave him some blood and I walked back out and handed the boy the bag.
“There’s a flask of hot chocolate along with some left over Chinese and some other goodies and I put a couple bags of blood in there to keep you going before you hunt again.” I said and the boy smiled.
“I also managed to find a old blanket that nobody uses and put it in there so hopefully it will keep you warm.” I said and the boy smiled.
“Thank you so much.” The boy said.
“It’s fine, take it easy.” I said and turned round and went upstairs and just collapsed onto the bed and I felt Frank pull the covers over me and he cuddled into my side and I looked just to make sure he was okay, which he was and then I allowed myself to fall asleep.

I woke up to Frank messing with my hair and him watching me sleep.
“That’s fucking horrible when I wake up and see you watching me sleep.” I said sleepily and Frank chuckled.
“Love watching you sleep, you look so peaceful.” Frank said and kissed the end of my nose which made me smile.
“Who was the boy?” Frank asked.
“A vampire seeking shelter but I couldn’t take him in as he was too much of a risk to everyone and mostly too You. But I gave him food, a flask of hot chocolate and blood and a blanket so he should be okay.” I said and Frank moved so he was cuddled into my side and I wrapped my arm round him.
“I barely know you.” Frank said quietly as he sat up and looked at me.
“What do you want to know?” I asked and Frank smiled as he crossed his legs and I sat up as Frank pulled the covers round him.
“Where you from, originally?” Frank asked.
“I’m originally from New Jersey.” I said and Frank smiled.
“How old are you? I don’t mean the age you are frozen at, the age you really are.” Frank said.
“I was 22 when I was turned into a vampire and I am 180 years old.” I said and looked at Frank who smiled at me.
“You’re really old then.” Frank said quietly.
“But I don’t look it.” I said and winked at Frank who looked down with a slight blush on his cheeks which made me chuckle.
“Your actually the nicest looking person I’ve ever seen. Love how pale your skin is and how everything looks so good with your skin.” Frank said quietly.
“You have a thing for the color of my skin?” I chuckled.
“Not a thing, I’ve just haven’t seen someone so pale as you. You’re just beautiful.” Frank said as he looked down and I made him look at me.
I didn’t say anything so I lent in and kissed Frank softly which Frank returned.
“Think I’m falling for you.” Frank whispered and I looked at him and smiled and kissed him again.
“Think I’m falling for you too.” I said quietly and looked at Frank and he had a shy smile on his face.
“But before I ask you to be my boyfriend I believe it’s a human thing to take someone out on a date.” I said and Frank chuckled.
“I’ve never been on a date before, or if I have it always ended up with me having sex and not speaking to that person again.” Frank said and I smiled and kissed his forehead.
“Well I will make sure you’ll have a date to remember and it won’t end up with us having sex.” I said and Frank chuckled quietly.
“Said that in the past and it always happens.” Frank said and I smiled.
“It’ll be different this time.” I said quietly and I pulled the covers off me and I sat up and got out of bed.
“Where you going?” Frank asked as I headed towards the bathroom.
“To have a shower.” I said and Frank was thinking about asking me something but he stopped himself as he just flopped on the bed and got my phone and played this game he was addicted to.

I was sat on the stairs thinking when someone sat next to me and I looked at the pair of knees and saw it was Mikey.
“Your glowing.” Mikey said and I frowned and looked at him properly.
“What?” I asked confused on what he was on about.
“Your glowing, like you do when something big has happened and it happened when you was with Jack.” Mikey said and I looked down.
“I like him Mikes.” I said quietly and Mikey pulled me into his side.
“I know you do and Frank likes you too. You both just have to have that little push.” Mikey said and I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder.
“I’m scared Mikes.” I whispered.
“Let’s go to my room.” Mikey said and I nodded and we both stood up and went to his room.
When we got to his room Ray was lead in the bed watching tv.
“Ray can you give us some space please.” Mikey said and Ray frowned at Mikey.
“Now Ray.” Mikey said seriously and Ray got up and left me and Mikey alone.
“Talk to me Gee.” Mikey said as we sat on his bed.
“I’m scared that the same thing is going to happen to Frank.” I said quietly.
“It’s not going to happen.” Mikey said.
“How do you know Mikes?” I asked as I looked at him.
“Because for starters Jack was one of those people who couldn’t be helped no matter how hard you tried to help him. Frank is the complete opposite to Jack.” Mikey said and I sighed.
“Yeah Jack had that glow around him when he was around you but he didn’t glow as much as Frank is glowing.” Mikey said.
“If I get hurt again I don’t know if I can pull myself back from rock bottom like I did when Jack died.” I said and Mikey pulled me to his side and he kissed the top of my head and just held me.
“I know Gee.” Mikey whispered.
“You should just go for it. I mean you like the kid and the kid likes you. In fact everyone in the house likes the kid.” Mikey said and I looked at him and smiled.
“I’m glad about that.” I said quietly.
“And if the kid ever needs protecting then we all know you’ll protect him, but everyone in the house will also protect him so you don’t need to worry.” Mikey said and I chuckled slightly as I moved away from him.
“You don’t need to be scared of loving him Gee, Nothing is going to happen to him like what it did with Jack. Frank is going to be safe.” Mikey said and I looked down and nodded.
“You’ve got this.” Mikey whispered in my ear and he got up and I looked at him as I frowned.
“Okay, So I’m done giving you the brother Talk now you need to get your ass into gear and grow a pair of balls and ask Frank out.” Mikey said and I rolled my eyes at him as I stood up.
“I have a pair of balls thanks, care to take a look?” I said and Mikey covered his eyes as he laughed.
“No, keep you balls to yourself and for Frank.” Mikey said and I shook my head as I headed towards the door.
“Don’t fuck up Gee.” Mikey said and I nodded as I walked out of his room and I could hear that Frank was down in the kitchen.

I walked into the kitchen and Frank was talking to Eden and Patrick.
“I knew a girl who used to love her hair being in a plate and she would always ask me to plate it for her.” Frank said as I watched him plate Eden hair with Patrick keeping a close eye on Frank.
I walked over and stood next to Patrick.
“You don’t have to worry about him, his mind is on someone else.” I said quietly.
“Also he’s gay as well. So he could be eyeing you up for all we know.” I said and Patrick chuckled and looked at me.
“My ass is not getting probed by nobody.” Patrick said and I chuckled and looked at Frank and Eden.
“It’s not that bad once you get used to it.” Frank said and he looked up and looked at Patrick.
“It’s just like a bee sting.” Frank said.
“But up the bum.” I said and Frank smiled as he chuckled.
“Okay I cannot imagine a bee stinging my asshole so I will leave that pleasure to you gays.” Patrick said and Frank had gotten up and walked over to us where he lent his back against me and I automatically wrapped a arm round him which made Eden and Patrick look at each other.
“There something you want to say Gee?” Eden asked.
“Nope, not that it’s any of of business.” I said and Patrick glared at me But I glared at him back and he soon stopped.
Frank moved and he went looking through the fridge as I guess he was hungry.
Frank pulled out this cheese cake and put it on the side and he moaned loudly as he opened the box.
“Does anyone want any of this as I will eat it all.” Frank said and Eden moved and helped herself to some of the cake but you could see how unsure she was to be around Frank.
Frank helped himself to a huge slice and bit into it and moaned loudly again.
“This is better than sex.” Frank said with a mouthful of cake.
“Looks like you have to be better than cake Gee.” Patrick said quietly in my ear.
“Please, he’ll be screaming so loud everyone can hear him.” I whispered and Frank looked at me.
“Want some?” Frank asked and I shook my head as I walked over to him.
“Nope, you can have it.” I said quietly and I kissed the top of his head and walked outside and sat in the top step and smoked a cigarette as I thought about stuff and watched the world go by.

I heard the door open and shut and somebody sitting next to me and I felt a arm wrap round mine and the cigarette was being taken out my mouth and I looked at them and saw it was Frank.
“Smoking kills.” Frank said as he blew a loud of smoke out.
“And yet here we are.” I said and Frank looked at me and smiled.
“You enjoyed the cake?” I asked and Frank chuckled and nodded.
“One of my favorites, my nan used to make it.” Frank said quietly and he looked down and I pulled him to my side.
“Well you can have as much cheese cake as you want if you would like.” I said and Frank shook his head.
“No, it reminds me off her before hell happened.” Frank said quietly and flicked the cigarette away as he looked down.
“Okay.” I whispered.
“I miss her Gee.” Frank whispered.
“I know you do, but you got us now and we can be your family.” I said and Frank sniffed as he nodded and looked at me.
“I know, I’m glad I’ve found you guys now. Wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.” Frank said quietly and I lifted my hand up and rested it against his cheek.
“Why don’t you go and have a shower and make yourself look pretty and I’ll take us out somewhere nice to eat.” I said and Frank smiled and turned his head and kissed my hand and he got up.
“You coming with?” Frank asked and I smiled as I stood up.
“I’ll come inside but I’ll leave you to go upstairs and get yourself sorted.” I said and Frank nodded as he walked over and kissed me which I returned and Frank turned round and walked off and I followed behind him.

“Never heard the kids thoughts or heart beating so loud before.” Ryan said as he stood next to me.
“I’m sorry Ry, Where’s Elliot?” I asked as it was those two I was the most worried about at the moment.
“El is with Ray and Mikey and I think their hunting or something.” Ryan said and he looked like he could lose his cool at any moment.
“Hey Ryan look at me.” I said as Ryan looked at me and it was almost as if Frank actions was hurting Ryan even though Frank couldn’t help it.
“Frank has been with us for nearly 3 months now and in those 3 months he has self harmed which you and everyone else ignored and I have never been so proud of all of you. I know right now you want to kill him right now but something is stopping you from doing so.” I said and Ryan smiled as he chuckled.
“You are pretty much stopping everyone from killing the kid, if it wasn’t for you I think the kid would be dead.” Ryan said.
“See, you can do it and you are doing such a good job Ry.” I said and put my hand on his shoulder and gave it a squeeze and Eden walked out to the kitchen.
“Can’t escape the kids heart beating. It’s so fucking loud.” Eden said as she head butted Ryan’s shoulder.
“He’s just nervous.” I said as Patrick walked in the kitchen.
“Why is he nervous?” Eden asked.
“Gee is taking him on a date.” Patrick said and I looked at him.
“What the kids thoughts are really loud.” Patrick said as he shrugged his shoulders.
“Oh where you taking him?” Ryan asked.
“I’m not telling, anyway I need to get changed so please move out the way.” I said and Patrick moved from the door and I went to get changed and I waited for Frank to get ready.

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