Bulletproof Heart

Frank’s POV

”I hate Monday’s.” I said as I helped mam get everyone sorted for school.
”Well just think that it’s only 5 more days until it’s the weekend again.” Mama said which made me sigh loudly again as I helped Victor to the table.
”That’s 5 days too long.” I said and Noah came in.
”Frank is friends with a gorger.” Noah said as he sat down at the table.
”And you’re a little shit but you don’t hear me complaining.” I said and man slapped me round the back of my head which made me rub the spot she slapped and looked at her.
”Don’t talk to your brother like that.” Mam said.
”What it’s true though, out of all of us he is going to be the one getting into trouble with the pigs and sending everyone a bad name. He even gobbed off to my gorger friend who doesn’t actually hate our type of people.” I said and mam looked at me.
”This gorger friend, they some love interest of yours if so you need to keep the noise down because I don’t want to be hearing you having sex all the time.” Mam said.
”Okay, you heard me and that person because I thought you and pa had gone to bed and I didn’t know you two had gone out. I dunno if he’s a love interest or not, he seems different from all the others.” I said and looked at mam who smiled at me.
”I’m sure he’s a lovely boy.” Mama said and I frowned at her.
”You never say that about a gorger.” I said and mam chuckled.
”Some gorger aren’t that bad, I’m guessing this one is one of the understanding ones. You don’t want to lose him.” Mam said.
”I know, kinda hoping I don’t fuck this up.” I said quietly.
”I’m sure you won’t. But I hope he doesn’t mind those tattoos and lip piercing of yours.” Mam said and I couldn’t help but chuckle.
”Please, the tattoos and lip piercing turn people on.” I said and mam rolled her eyes.
”Right, get your sister and brother and get your asses to school.” Mam said and I groaned as I grabbed my bag and called for Esme and Freddie and we dragged ourselves to school.

I was bored in art when I noticed Gerard sat on his own so I decided to go and keep him company.
”So I noticed you are sat here like a loner so I decided to come over here and keep you company.” I said and Gerard smiled slightly as he looked at me through his hair.
”Hey you okay?” I asked and Gerard rested his head on his hand and nodded his head without his face coming out from under his hair.
”If your okay then why won’t you show me your face.” I said quietly and Gerard sighed and looked at me and I just stared at his busted lip and the I noticed a cut on cheek and then his black eye.
”Gee what happened?” I asked and Gerard shook his head and looked down again.
”It’s nothing.” Gerard said quietly as he started to draw again.
”Gee it is something as your lip is busted and you have a cut on you cheek and you got a black eye.” I said and Gerard looked at me.
”You think I don’t know that!” Gerard spat which made him look down.
”I’m sorry.” Gerard said and he got up and walked towards the teacher where he asked him something and the teacher must of agreed as Gerard walked out the room.
I sighed and decided to look through Gerard’s art book.
”Fuck he’s good.” I mumbled to myself as I noticed a boy with glasses that Gerard had drew.
”You realize it’s rude to look at other people’s stuff without their permission.” I heard Gerard say and I looked at him like a deer in the headlights.
”I..I, um, these are really good.” I said and Gerard pulled his book towards him and shut it and held it close to him.
”You don’t look through my art work. It’s fucking personal.” Gerard said and he turned round and walked out the room.
”Shit, way to go Frank you fucked that up.” I said quietly to myself and I noticed that Gerard had left his iPod behind so I picked it up and snuck out of class and went looking for Gerard.

I found Gerard sat outside smoking and his head in his art book.
”Hey Gee.” I said and Gerard looked up and he was crying.
”Why you crying? Don’t cry, I’m useless at comforting people.” I said and Gerard looked down and sniffed.
”Oh shit, um do you want me to sit with you?” I asked really not sure on what to do.
”Just fuck off and leave me alone.” Gerard sniffed.
”Well since you kindly asked I’ll stay.” I said and sat down.
”What’s wrong?” I asked and Gerard just glared at me which was strange as the last few times I’ve spoke to Gerard he was always happy.
”The fuck do you even care. You know what just fuck off and leave me alone because you are only going to use me like you have done with everyone else.” Gerard spat and looked at me.
”Who said I was going to use you?” I asked.
”Everyone, I might not of been here for long but I have heard people talk about you, saying how you use people to have sex with and then just dumping them. If that is what you want then you can fuck right off because I seriously don’t need that right now.” Gerard said.
I looked down and felt hurt for some reason as I knew everyone talked about me and my family but hearing it come out of Gerard’s mouth hurt a lot more than what it should of done.
”I wouldn’t use you Gee.” I said and Gerard scoffed.
”Yeah my ex said that and I ended up nearly killing myself to get away from him.” Gerard said and I looked at him and Gerard as looking down.
”I don’t know what your ex was like, but I would never dream of using or hurting you.” I said and Gerard looked at me but looked away from from me shaking his head.
”Skip school with me.” I said amd Gerard looked at me again.
”I can’t, my mum will kill me.” Gerard said quietly.
”Then you tell your mum that you couldn’t cope and that someone beat you, which we still need to talk about, and you needed to take time out of school.” I said and Gerard sighed.
“Fine, I’ll skip school with you.” Gerard whispered and I smiled.
“Come on then, I know somewhere really nice we can go.” I said and got up and offered Gerard my hand which he took and I helped him up where Gerard winced a little.
”You okay?” I asked and Gerard nodded.
”I’m fine.” Gerard said and he felt round in his pockets.
”Shit, where is it? I can’t lose it, it’s all I got of Mike’s.” Gerard said getting himself into state.
”What you looking for?” I asked.
”My iPod, my brother gave it to me before everything happened.” Gerard said and I caught hold of his hand and pulled his iPod and put it in his hand.
”Where was it?” Gerard asked as he looked over the iPod to make sure everything was okay.
”You left it in art, I picked it up and I kept hold of it so no other fucker will pick it up.” I said and Gerard looked at me and smiled.
”Thank you so much.” Gerard said and I smiled at him.
”Shell we get going?” I asked and Gerard nodded and he followed me.

We got to the lake which was my safe place when I just wanted to escape for a while.
”How did you find this place, it’s gorgeous here.” Gerard said as he looked at me.
”I was in a grump with everyone at home so I went for a walk and I found this place. I never show anyone this place before.” I said and looked at Gerard.
”Why have you shown me it then?” Gerard asked and I shrugged my shoulder and looked back out in to the lake.
”Dunno, you seem different from everyone else. You don’t see me as a gypsy but you see me as a normal person. And your really cute as well helps a bit.” I said and Gerard chuckled a little.
”Here let me look at your face.” I said and Gerard turned to look at me.
”You know, I don’t think you can hide that from your mam.” I said as I looked at the cut on his cheek.
”It won’t be the first time I go home with cuts and brusies on me. At least I won’t have to lie about these ones.” Gerard said and I looked at him.
“Hey can you check to see if I have any bruises on my ribs?” Gerard asked and I nodded.
”Sure, just lift your top up and I’ll have a look.” I said and Gerard stood up and pulled his top up and I was shocked when I saw his chest and stomach covered in burn marks and scars.
I went to reach out to touch one but Gerard moved away from my touch.
”Do I have any bruises?” Gerard asked sounding like he could cry.
”No you have no bruises, but what happened?” I said and looked at Gerard who pulled his top down.
”It doesn’t matter. I’m scarred and broken so why should my story matter.” Gerard said and he sat down and looked out to the lake and I just looked at him.
”Scarred yeah you look pretty beaten up and you look like you’ve been through some tough shit. Broken, everybody is a little bit broken Gee, some people are just that broken that their broken parts can’t be fixed. Everything about you matters, you just need to see that for yourself.” I said and Gerard sniffed.
“You don’t understand. I lost everything because of that cunt, I dunno I’m just being stupid.” Gerard said.
”Was he the reason why you ended up here and not stay with your brother and your dad?” I asked.
”Pretty much.” Gerard whispered and I was going to push Gerard anymore.
”Wanna know what I do to help with the negative thoughts?” I said and sat down where Gerard looked at me and nodded.
”I pick up a stone and throw it as hard as I can out into the lake and with each throw I like to think of the negative thoughts and just throw them away. They sink to the bottom of the lake just like the stone.” I said and Gerard smiled as he looked down again.
”Think my negative thoughts need something a bit more than that. But I’ll keep it in mind.” Gerard said quietly as he looked out to the lake.
”Well if you ever need some one to talk to then I’m here for you to talk to. I understand if you don’t trust me, but just so you know that I’m here.” I said and Gerard looked at me and smiled.
”Thanks Frank.” Gerard said quietly as he moved closer to me and he rested his head on my shoulder which made me smile and we spent the rest of the time talk about stupid stuff and watch the sun set.
When I next looked Gerard had fallen asleep on my shoulder and I moved but Gerard didn’t wake up so I decided to take him home with me.
I moved his phone and iPod into my pockets so if his mam called I could get to his phone and I didn’t want to lose his iPod and once I had them in my pockets I picked up and walked home.

I got home and it was late and mam was outside smoking her evening cigarette before bed like she has done for the last 18 years.
”Jesus Frank your not meant to drug them to get them into your bed.” Mam said.
”Ha ha. I didn’t drug him thanks. We skipped school since he was having a bad time today and we went to the lake where he fell asleep on me. Couldn’t risk taking him back to his so I brought him here.” I said and mama rolled her eyes.
”I hope his mam knows he’s with you, don’t want the pigs on our doorstep saying you kidnapped him.” Mama said and flicked her cigarette away.
”She knows, she phoned Gerard as we was walking back and I answered it explaining what had happened and she said as long as I kept an eye on him and made sure he was safe then she doesn’t mind him staying in the caravan.” I said and mam nodded.
”He’s your responsibility Franklin.” Mam said.
”I know. See you in the morning.” I said and went inside the caravan where I put Gerard in the bed and I shut the door and locked it behind me and went back to my room again.
“Gee, Gee wake up for me a second.” I said and messed with Gerard’s hair.
Gerard eyes fluttered opened but they didn’t stay open for long.
”Gee you in my caravan and your going to spend the night here, your mum knows and she’s said she was fine with it.” I said as I moved my hand to touch his arm but Gerard pushed my hand away.
”Don’t touch.” Gerard mumbled.
”Okay, I won’t touch. Do you want to get into something more comfortable? I have joggers or shorts you can put on instead of wearing skinny jeans.” I said softly and Gerard nodded.
”Shorts please.” Gerard mumbled which made me smile.
”Alright, give me a second and I’ll get you a pair.” I said and moved off the bed and found a pair of what I hoped was a clean pair of shorts.
”Gee, I have a pair of shorts for you to wear. Im not sure if their clean or not so I’m sorry if they smell.” I said and Gerard smiled slightly as he thought to open his eyes which he managed and he sat up but you could see there wasn’t much energy left inside of him.
”Did you want your top off?” I asked as I stood up and stood in front of Gerard.
”Yeah.” Gerard said sleepily which made me smile.
”Lifts your arms up then.” I said softly and Gerard lifted his arms up and I pulled the top over his head.
”Take your jeans off for me.” I said and Gerard just stood up a d pulled them down almost pulling his boxers down in the progress.
”Don’t think we’re at the stage of seeing each other’s dicks yet Gee.” I said with a soft chuckle.
”Shouldn’t be looking then.” Gerard muttered as he pulled my shorts up and climbed into my bed.
”Well it was hard not to when you pull your jeans down and your boxers decided to go down with them.” I said and Gerard sighed loudly.
”At least you have something to remember.” Gerard murmured and I smiled as I pulled the covers over his body and resisting the urge to touch him.
”Can I share the bed with you or not?” I asked.
”Can share.” Gerard said and it sounded like he was putting a lot of effort to stay awake.
”Okay, just don’t freak out in the morning.” I said and I think Gerard lost his fight to stay awake as he did t reply so I quickly pulled a top and shorts on after getting undressed and quietly climbed into bed and it didn’t take much for me to fall asleep.

Notes

Don’t really like this chapter, but being back at work means I might not be updating as much but I will try and update everyday but it all depends on what my shifts are and how long my days are..