The world is ugly

Jadie-

"Suspended?!" Gerard asked. as if he expected to just get let off freely "The both of you" The principal confirmed handing us two slips of paper "Sign these then you can get your things from the hallway and go home. Now since you're under 18, Jadie. I've called home" My blood ran cold.... and Gerard smirked at me.

I briskly walk out into the hall and gather my things. Making a quick exit. Ignoring whoever it was that was calling my name.

I held my breath as I entered the house. Thankfully no one was home... I saw the light on the message machine flashing, and I quickly deleted it. I saw a note on the counter from my brother reading that Moms out... No surprise. And that he won't be back for a while.

I left my suspension slip on the island in the middle of our kitchen and dropped my bag off. Grabbing my box with my blade in it I exited the house again before wondering around the small town looking for a forest...

I eventually found one and sighed. What a fucked up day... I wandered aimlessly around, feeling the tears fall down my face... I had stupidly forgotten my jacket so now I'm near frozen.

I sighed to myself and I crouched under a big tree and rolling my sleeve up. I let out a small quiet sob as I took out my blade "You deserve this..." I sniffled as I started creating small crimson lines. I could have made at least fifty easy with the way I was feeling. The only reason I stopped was because I heard something... More like someone. Hit something.

I yanked my sleeve down and held it tightly as I heard feet approaching and then a small gasp. I slowly peaked up and instantly wish I hadn't... For standing right in front of me was Gerard fucking Way.

"Come to attack me again," I asked bitterly, Pulling my sleeves further down. He frowned at me then plopped down in the snow opposite of me "I don't want you sitting near me. I don't ever want to fucking see you again." My voice was low, I saw a tear slip from his eyes and instantly regretted my words "I'm sorry..." I shook my head "No fuck you" I looked away "You don't get to be fucking sorry. You get to sit there and let the fucking guilt eat you" He scoffed "We're not talking about this here" He stood up, Offering his hand. I reluctantly took it, letting him help me up.

I let him drag me through the forest, and up to a small shack.

It was roomy, I'll give him that... Clean too. Didn't suit Gerard at all "This is where I come to think" He whispered "Okay?" My voice cold. Like the air outside, Bitter like the wind that howled, making this otherwise cute shack eery and spooky "I..." He sighed "You what?" I snapped "You're an ass who doesn't know how to control himself, You're a self-righteous arrogant dick who thinks he can say and do whatever the fuck he wants. You're a fuck tard who doesn't care what his actions may do to people. I'm sorry but I don't wanna hear it." I spat viciously.

I go to turn around but his hand grasps my wrist... "Ahh, Fuck. Gerard! OW!" I screamed, pulling my arm away. He looks at me in shock then back down to my arm "Gerard don't you dare" I warn, but he was already rolling my sleeve up. His eyes widen and he looks from me to my arm. I let out a silent sob as I sink to my knees. He follows my actions but I push him away. Bolting up and heading for the door.

It wasn't until I was fully out of the house that I hear him call "I have them too." I spin around. Fury in my eyes "Sure you do" I sob before running off.
Bad idea....

I looked at my phone, for the tenth time since I left the small shack. It was now well past eight, Frank has left countless voice messages. Along with Mikey, Melanie, and Brendon...

I have now lost feeling in my legs and arms. Due to the stupid decision of me running out of the house with no coat.

So here I was. Middle of January in a thin Bring me the horizon pull over and thin leggings. Freezing my ass off. Time starts to blur together as the minute's pass and I decide it'd probably be best to inform my brother that I love him... Because even if I wanted to I couldn't get home...

I weakly pull out my phone and click on his contact...

"Jadie, What the fuck where are you. Gerard said you left two hours ago. Please tell me you're okay..." I heard talking in the background "Who.... Are you.... With?" I whispered "Mikey and Gerard. Fuck. Jadie where the hell are you!" I heard the worry in his voice "Lost..." I trailed off as I curled myself further into a snow bank, praying for it to stop snowing... 'Frank....Still....Forest....Find her' I heard someone in the background "Are you still in the forest?" I could tell he was trying not to cry "Mmmhmm" I hummed, now too weak to speak 'Yeah, She is...' His voice sounded far away. I heard feet break out into a run "Okay" I guess my brother was running to, judging by the vibration in his voice. "We're on our way" Then the line went dead...

The snow still fell silently around me, Coating my body like a white fluffy sheet. It would have been a beautiful thing to see. If it weren't for me laying here freezing to death.

I swear I hear someone call my name... But I wasn't sure. I was too busy trying to warm up to care. I started to get some feeling back in my legs... but by then I had no energy at all to even keep my eyes open all the way. But I kept them open a crack, Enough to see Mikey come into view "Jesus christ..." His breath caught in his throat "G-Guys!" He shouted while running over to me.

He slid on his knees and brought my head into his lap "Jadie?" He asked, brushing the snow and leaves out of my face and hair "Mikey, Hi" I smiled, but then frowned "I'm really cold..." He laughed bitterly "No shit" He shrugged off his jacket and wrapped it around me, zipping it up "Frank, Gerard! Help!" He shouted once again "I'm fine..." I whispered.

I heard feet approach and then simultaneously they both gasped "Fuck." Gerard choked out. By now I had let my eyes slip close. I'm not sure who lifted me, or who's car I was placed into. Or whose bed I was placed on... All I know is one of them took me, One of them took my shirt off... One of them knows how the scars litter my body, and I know. One of them is going to sit there and tell other people about how much of a psycho I really am.

I don't really remember when I passed out. But I do remember waking up and having my head resting in someone's lap. I didn't dare open my eyes though...

"...How sorry I really am." I heard, Gerard I think, speak "It wasn't just you... She started the fight" I hear my brother mumble. "But he also provoked it" Mikey sounded the closest. I'm pretty sure my head was on his lap... "Mikey, stay out of this" Gerard snapped, this earned a sigh from him "Tell her to text me when she wakes up. I'm going to help mom with supper." Mikey mumbled. I felt myself get repositioned and then a hand landed in my hair.

"I didn't mean it" Gerard choked... This time he sounded close. He sniffled a bit "I know... She didn't either." My brother whispered. His voice cracking. "Fuck I need a smoke" He whispered... I heard him stand up and leave. and now it was only Gerard and I...

I debated on opening my eyes but fought against it. That is until he spoke.

"I know you're awake" He mumbled. I sighed and sat up "How much did you hear?" He asked. not looking at me, I shrugged and he sighed again "How long did you get" My voice cut the silence. He gave me a look "The suspension." I clarified "Oh... A week. You?" I shrugged "I didn't care enough to look. Not like I'm going to be here by next year anyway" I said very matter of factly "What do you mean?" I locked eyes with him and read his worried expression "Mom, Frankie and I never stay one place too long. We're just passing through. So don't worry. You only have to deal with me for 5 more months. Hell, Maybe not even that long. Who knows I could get hit by a car tomorrow" I shrug. Moving myself to sit criss cross on my bed.

"Oh good! You're up!" Frank smiled once he walked in "Yeah... Hi" he then turned his attention towards Gerard "Oh. OH, Yeah Okay I gotta get going." He mumbled before rushing out of my dimly lit room, almost tripping on a box that hadn't been unpacked yet.

Franks expression turned serious after he had left "So. One week eh?" I looked up at him "I guess so. It's bull shit, he pushed first." I snapped to which Frank laughed "It's really not funny, Frank" "It really is though, Jadie. You were little miss perfect and you choose now to become a bad ass?" I shrug at his question. But his smile soon turned serious again when I asked "Who... Who changed me" He looked down and swallowed thickly "I did..." My stomach turned "Why didn't you ever tell me?" He looked into my eyes, tears threatening to spill from his... I could feel my heart pound in my chest as I looked for a good answer. But alas came up with nothing "Next time, Talk to me. Please.... I don't wanna lose my only sister!" He pleaded "I... I can't promise I won't do it again" I whispered "I never asked you to promise me that... I asked you to at least try and talk to me" He came to sit beside me and pulled me into a hug.....

Today has been a crazy shit storm... Jesus.

Notes

Ouuuuu were getting closer to the romance!