Never been better
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Trigger warning Self harm.
Gerard's POV
I just looked at the pregnancy test and saw two pink lines on it. I shook it to make sure it wasn't playing tricks on me but when I looked at it again I saw the two pink lines.
"Shit." I whispered to myself and I heard someone bang on the door.
"Daddy!" I heard Seth say and I got down from the side and unlocked the door and Seth was stood there looking at me.
"Can I help you?" I asked and Seth pushed me out the way.
"I'll leave you alone then." I said as I walked off giving Seth privacy.
I walked out to the sitting room and saw Rella on the floor with no sign of Frank.
"Babe where are you?" I said as I picked Rella up and she moved her head away my shoulder which made me smile and kiss the side of her head.
Frank didn't show up so I'm guessing he was at work.
"Would of been nice if papa let us know where he was." I said and looked at the time and saw I have to get Seth to playgroup.
I sighed and sniffed Rella nappy and luckily she didn't stink so I put her in her push chair and went looking for Seth.
He was just walking out the bathroom.
"Did you wash your hands?" I asked and Seth nodded.
"Someone telling me porkies? Come on I'll help." I said and I picked Seth up and went to the sink where Seth washed his hands.
"Go dry them then, but became because the towel rack might be.." I said.
"Hot!" Seth said happily and he dried his hands and I smiled at him.
"Shell we go to school?" I asked and Seth nodded and he caught hold of my hand and I got Rella's nappy back and we walked to where we needed to be.
"It would of been nice if you let me knew when you went to fucking work." I said to Frank since we was having a argument and me being in a huge grump was not helping matters.
"You was in the bloody bathroom for nearly half an hour. I know you don't take that long to take a fucking shit Gerard." Frank snapped.
"Maybe I was taking a half an hour shit. Christ where is the fucking crime in that!?" I said loudly.
"Really? Then how come I fucking found this then." Frank said and slammed the pregnancy test box into my chest which made me take a couple of steps back.
I looked down.
"Got nothing to say have you!" Frank shouted in my face which made me back off and think about what Seth's dad would shout at me.
"Don't shout at me." I whispered.
"So are you pregnant or not?" Frank asked coldly which made me look at him and I put my hand on my stomach.
"If you don't want to fucking be here then get the fuck out! I can manage on my own because you haven't fucking been here when I really needed you and you are not being there for me now!" I shouted and went to walk off but Frank caught hold of my hand and pulled me back.
"What you going to do if I'm not here? Hum? Slut yourself out, put yours and our children's life's at risk for no fucking reason! If you want our kids taken away from us then you just kick me out and fucking slut yourself out like the cheap whore that you are." Frank spat and I couldn't help it but I slapped him hard round the face.
"Get out! Get out of my fucking house and I don't want you back here!" I screamed at him and Frank let go of my hand and he just came back to his senses.
"Gee, don't throw me out." Frank said.
"Get the fuck out Frank." I said through gritted teeth.
"Baby think about this." Frank said since he knew I said things I didn't mean when I was pissed off.
"Get the fuck out now." I said in a low cold voice and Frank looked down and just walked out not bothering to say goodbye to Rella and Seth.
Once I heard the door shut and started to cry.
I was sat on mine and Frank's bed feeding Rella before she settled down for the night when Seth came in and climbed on the bed and cuddled into my side.
"Where's papa?" Seth asked and I felt my heart break and my eyes well up with tears.
"Papa has gone away for a few days." I said quietly secretly hoping Frank would come home.
"Why has papa gone?" Seth asked.
"Because me and papa got into a fight and I was stupid and told him to get out the house for a few days." I said and Seth looked down.
"I miss papa." Seth said sadly.
"So do I baby." I whispered and I looked at Rella and kissed her forehead.
"Do you want to go and get ready for bed for me and I'll come and read you a story?" I said and Seth nodded and he got of the bed and walked out the room to his room.
"Come on little miss, let's get you ready for bed and into bed." I said to Rella as I started to burp her as I walked to her room.
Once Rella was burped and ready for bed I put her in her cot.
"Night sweetheart, I love you." I whispered and kissed her forehead and walked out her room and I could hear her cooing to herself like she normally does when she falls asleep.
I walked into Seth's room and he was sat up in bed with the book he wanted me to read.
"Move over then little man." I said and Seth moved over so I could sit on the bed.
I sat on the bed and Seth cuddled into my side and I read him the story he wanted.
When I looked down Seth was asleep so I quietly got off his bed and pulled the covers over him and kissed his forehead.
"Night little man. I love you." I whispered just like what I did to Rella and I put his book on the side and walked out the room where I was just in a empty quiet house and it made me start crying again so I moved to the sitting room where I started to clean up the mess the kids had made and after I did that I went to mine and Frank's room and lead on frank's side of the bed and started to cry harder than before.
After a while I stopped crying but I still had this really heavy feeling in my heart so I got up and went to mine and Frank's bathroom and I took apart a razor and slid down the wall and looked at my arm which had faded scars on them from when I was with Seth's dad.
I brought the razor down onto my arm and dragged it along leaving a deep long cut across my arm.
I heard the front door open and shut but I didn't move.
"Gee? Babe where are you?" I heard Frank ask as he walked through the apartment and then he walked into our room.
"Baby are you in here?" Frank asked more worried this time round and he walked into the bathroom.
"Shit Gee, what have you done?" Frank said quickly as he grabbed a towel and he got down to my level and wrapped my arm in a towel.
"Baby talk to me please, what have you done to yourself?" Frank said and I looked down and away from his eye contact.
"Hey, Gee look at me and talk to me. What's the matter?" Frank said again and I shook my head.
"You don't have to tell me. But just know I'm here for you, I can't lose you or the kids Gee. You guys are my life and if anything was to happen to any of you I wouldn't be able to live with myself." Frank said and I looked at him.
I moved and sat on Frank's lap and held him tightly and I hid my face in his neck as I started to cry again.
"I'm sorry. Please forgive me." I sobbed into Frank's neck and I felt Frank wrap his arms round me.
"I forgive you." Frank said quietly.
We stay sat like this for a while and Frank pulled back and made me look at him and he wiped any tears which was still falling and he kissed the end of my nose.
"Let's sort your arm out." Frank said quietly and I nodded and moved of Frank and lent against the side and put my arm on my stomach.
"You feel okay babe?" Frank asked seriously and I nodded.
Frank sorted my arm out and he picked me up and put me in bed and he went to walk off but I caught hold of his hand and Frank looked at me.
"Stay with me." I whispered and Frank smiled and he climbed on the bed and he pulled close to him.
"I want to tell you something." I said quietly.
"Please don't leave me. " Frank whispered and I rolled over to face him and I saw a tear roll of his nose and I wiped his eyes gently with my thumb.
"I would never do that." I said quietly and Frank pushed me on to my back and he kissed me which I returned and I pulled back and looked at Frank.
"I'm pregnant again Frank." I said and Frank looked at me shocked but soon a smile broke out on his face which made me smile.
"You serious?" Frank asked and I shook my head.
"I'm 7 weeks." I said quietly and Frank kissed me hard which I returned and Frank pulled back.
"I don't know what to say." Frank said.
"Well first you have sex with me and then you need to buy condoms." I said and Frank chuckled and he kissed me and I felt for the bottom of his top and pulled it off him.
"I can do that." Frank said and I chuckled and got lost in kissing Frank and I was just hoping none of the kids woke up.
Gerard's POV
I just looked at the pregnancy test and saw two pink lines on it. I shook it to make sure it wasn't playing tricks on me but when I looked at it again I saw the two pink lines.
"Shit." I whispered to myself and I heard someone bang on the door.
"Daddy!" I heard Seth say and I got down from the side and unlocked the door and Seth was stood there looking at me.
"Can I help you?" I asked and Seth pushed me out the way.
"I'll leave you alone then." I said as I walked off giving Seth privacy.
I walked out to the sitting room and saw Rella on the floor with no sign of Frank.
"Babe where are you?" I said as I picked Rella up and she moved her head away my shoulder which made me smile and kiss the side of her head.
Frank didn't show up so I'm guessing he was at work.
"Would of been nice if papa let us know where he was." I said and looked at the time and saw I have to get Seth to playgroup.
I sighed and sniffed Rella nappy and luckily she didn't stink so I put her in her push chair and went looking for Seth.
He was just walking out the bathroom.
"Did you wash your hands?" I asked and Seth nodded.
"Someone telling me porkies? Come on I'll help." I said and I picked Seth up and went to the sink where Seth washed his hands.
"Go dry them then, but became because the towel rack might be.." I said.
"Hot!" Seth said happily and he dried his hands and I smiled at him.
"Shell we go to school?" I asked and Seth nodded and he caught hold of my hand and I got Rella's nappy back and we walked to where we needed to be.
"It would of been nice if you let me knew when you went to fucking work." I said to Frank since we was having a argument and me being in a huge grump was not helping matters.
"You was in the bloody bathroom for nearly half an hour. I know you don't take that long to take a fucking shit Gerard." Frank snapped.
"Maybe I was taking a half an hour shit. Christ where is the fucking crime in that!?" I said loudly.
"Really? Then how come I fucking found this then." Frank said and slammed the pregnancy test box into my chest which made me take a couple of steps back.
I looked down.
"Got nothing to say have you!" Frank shouted in my face which made me back off and think about what Seth's dad would shout at me.
"Don't shout at me." I whispered.
"So are you pregnant or not?" Frank asked coldly which made me look at him and I put my hand on my stomach.
"If you don't want to fucking be here then get the fuck out! I can manage on my own because you haven't fucking been here when I really needed you and you are not being there for me now!" I shouted and went to walk off but Frank caught hold of my hand and pulled me back.
"What you going to do if I'm not here? Hum? Slut yourself out, put yours and our children's life's at risk for no fucking reason! If you want our kids taken away from us then you just kick me out and fucking slut yourself out like the cheap whore that you are." Frank spat and I couldn't help it but I slapped him hard round the face.
"Get out! Get out of my fucking house and I don't want you back here!" I screamed at him and Frank let go of my hand and he just came back to his senses.
"Gee, don't throw me out." Frank said.
"Get the fuck out Frank." I said through gritted teeth.
"Baby think about this." Frank said since he knew I said things I didn't mean when I was pissed off.
"Get the fuck out now." I said in a low cold voice and Frank looked down and just walked out not bothering to say goodbye to Rella and Seth.
Once I heard the door shut and started to cry.
I was sat on mine and Frank's bed feeding Rella before she settled down for the night when Seth came in and climbed on the bed and cuddled into my side.
"Where's papa?" Seth asked and I felt my heart break and my eyes well up with tears.
"Papa has gone away for a few days." I said quietly secretly hoping Frank would come home.
"Why has papa gone?" Seth asked.
"Because me and papa got into a fight and I was stupid and told him to get out the house for a few days." I said and Seth looked down.
"I miss papa." Seth said sadly.
"So do I baby." I whispered and I looked at Rella and kissed her forehead.
"Do you want to go and get ready for bed for me and I'll come and read you a story?" I said and Seth nodded and he got of the bed and walked out the room to his room.
"Come on little miss, let's get you ready for bed and into bed." I said to Rella as I started to burp her as I walked to her room.
Once Rella was burped and ready for bed I put her in her cot.
"Night sweetheart, I love you." I whispered and kissed her forehead and walked out her room and I could hear her cooing to herself like she normally does when she falls asleep.
I walked into Seth's room and he was sat up in bed with the book he wanted me to read.
"Move over then little man." I said and Seth moved over so I could sit on the bed.
I sat on the bed and Seth cuddled into my side and I read him the story he wanted.
When I looked down Seth was asleep so I quietly got off his bed and pulled the covers over him and kissed his forehead.
"Night little man. I love you." I whispered just like what I did to Rella and I put his book on the side and walked out the room where I was just in a empty quiet house and it made me start crying again so I moved to the sitting room where I started to clean up the mess the kids had made and after I did that I went to mine and Frank's room and lead on frank's side of the bed and started to cry harder than before.
After a while I stopped crying but I still had this really heavy feeling in my heart so I got up and went to mine and Frank's bathroom and I took apart a razor and slid down the wall and looked at my arm which had faded scars on them from when I was with Seth's dad.
I brought the razor down onto my arm and dragged it along leaving a deep long cut across my arm.
I heard the front door open and shut but I didn't move.
"Gee? Babe where are you?" I heard Frank ask as he walked through the apartment and then he walked into our room.
"Baby are you in here?" Frank asked more worried this time round and he walked into the bathroom.
"Shit Gee, what have you done?" Frank said quickly as he grabbed a towel and he got down to my level and wrapped my arm in a towel.
"Baby talk to me please, what have you done to yourself?" Frank said and I looked down and away from his eye contact.
"Hey, Gee look at me and talk to me. What's the matter?" Frank said again and I shook my head.
"You don't have to tell me. But just know I'm here for you, I can't lose you or the kids Gee. You guys are my life and if anything was to happen to any of you I wouldn't be able to live with myself." Frank said and I looked at him.
I moved and sat on Frank's lap and held him tightly and I hid my face in his neck as I started to cry again.
"I'm sorry. Please forgive me." I sobbed into Frank's neck and I felt Frank wrap his arms round me.
"I forgive you." Frank said quietly.
We stay sat like this for a while and Frank pulled back and made me look at him and he wiped any tears which was still falling and he kissed the end of my nose.
"Let's sort your arm out." Frank said quietly and I nodded and moved of Frank and lent against the side and put my arm on my stomach.
"You feel okay babe?" Frank asked seriously and I nodded.
Frank sorted my arm out and he picked me up and put me in bed and he went to walk off but I caught hold of his hand and Frank looked at me.
"Stay with me." I whispered and Frank smiled and he climbed on the bed and he pulled close to him.
"I want to tell you something." I said quietly.
"Please don't leave me. " Frank whispered and I rolled over to face him and I saw a tear roll of his nose and I wiped his eyes gently with my thumb.
"I would never do that." I said quietly and Frank pushed me on to my back and he kissed me which I returned and I pulled back and looked at Frank.
"I'm pregnant again Frank." I said and Frank looked at me shocked but soon a smile broke out on his face which made me smile.
"You serious?" Frank asked and I shook my head.
"I'm 7 weeks." I said quietly and Frank kissed me hard which I returned and Frank pulled back.
"I don't know what to say." Frank said.
"Well first you have sex with me and then you need to buy condoms." I said and Frank chuckled and he kissed me and I felt for the bottom of his top and pulled it off him.
"I can do that." Frank said and I chuckled and got lost in kissing Frank and I was just hoping none of the kids woke up.
I love this story
6/1/17