From past to present and hopefully future

Gerard's POV:

"W-why are you helping me? Would me being dead make you feel more safe? If so I can go." He says slightly crying. The person that had tormented me for four years straight is now sitting in front of me. He scared, shaking, crying and his breaths are shallow. I am angry at him but I need to be the good person here and do what's right.

"Because Frank a good person helps out those in need. I don't wish self harm on anyone including the people who have hurt me and abused me. Don't kill yourself, yes I don't like you and you make me fear for my life but it's wrong to make anyone want or try to kill themselves. Don't think we are friends now because you hurt me a lot and I fear that all you have said to me are lies so that you can torture me more. I'd like to start over with you as soon as I can trust you and know that you won't hurt me." I say confidently. It's almost like I have the upper hand in this conversation.

"Thank you Gerard. I wish there was an easy way to prove myself so that you can trust me. With what all I did to you as a kid, if I were you I would want me dead and I wouldn't give myself a second chance. I wish I never did those horrible things to you when we were kids. I wish we could have been friends, fuck I wish we could have been boyfriends. You know that though with all the times I gushed about you to you online. I wish that I don't make you fear for your life. I wish I could be a shoulder to cry on and I could be someone who can comfort you. I wish we could just start over completely. I want you to be able to trust me and I really want us to be friends. I'm so sorry with everything I have ever done to you. It would be easier to die to make you feel safe. I don't want you to feel scared, or in danger, or fear when you are around me but with all that I used to do I know that won't be easy. It would be easier if I died." He starts crying really hard, to the point of where he can barely breath. He hugs me and I tense up. I can't move because the coma I was in made all my muscles weak. He backs away. "S-sorry about that. I-I should have asked." He says shakily.

"It's okay. I mean you could have killed me. I can't move at all. Stupid fucking coma." I mumble. He tenses up and starts to cry harder at my comment of him killing me. I guess it really has effected him. "Come here Frank. Don't cry, it was a joke. Me being here really effects you hey?" I ask quietly but enough that he can hear me over his sobs.

"I'm already here Gerard. Yes, seeing you trying to kill yourself really effects me. Once I noticed what was happening in the bathroom I felt sick to my stomach that I was the reason you were doing that. I don't care that you don't believe me when I say this but I really do love you. I love you so much Gerard." He says quietly as if any of his words could actually kill me. He seems a lot different from last time we saw each other.

"No Frank, I mean come here, I'm trying to move to give you a hug to comfort you. I can't move very well. I am just starting to believe you Frank. You were a good person online and I hope that you are closer to your online persona then to back in high school. I want you to tell me the truth Frank. Even if it's harsh, I want to know who the real Frank is." I say as he slowly moves to hug me. He backs away with a look of fear on his face.

"D-d-did I-I h-hurt y-y-you?" He whispers. His eyes wide. He is staring at his hands like he has broken me. I let out a light laugh.

"No Frank. You didn't. You don't trust yourself enough to even touch me do you?" He looks up to me with sad and scared eyes. He really doesn't trust himself..

"N-no. After what I did to you I don't trust myself with anyone. Not even my own mother and daughter." He says still shaking. I push myself up with everything I have and put my hand over Frank's.

"Frank. I still don't trust you fully but you need to lighten up a bit. You are gay right? If you don't mind me asking, how do you have a daughter?" I say in a reassuring voice. He frowned.

"After you left Jersey I couldn't get my mind off of you. I missed you and I wanted to apologize. I got frustrated with myself that I couldn't tell you my real feelings because my real parents would have killed me. I got really drunk and high, I started bringing girls home and having sex. This girl named Jamia and I were getting really close and we were having unprotected sex a lot. One day she told me she was pregnant. She had our daughter and the next day she left me. I was with a girl that I never loved because I couldn't be with a boy, who didn't love me back. We were just another fuck to each other. She was nice but she always abandoned things. Like me, her daughter, her family. I'm sorry I'm telling you about my life story. My trust in people continually decreased. There were only a few people left I could trust. You being the main one, I mean Party Poison the only friend I've ever had." He said as he looked at his feet. There was a look on his face, a look that I normally give myself. It's a look of disgrace, he is disgusted with himself.

"I'm sorry that happened to you Frank. Do you need help with your daughter, why did you stay here with me when you could have been with her?" I ask with a calm and helpful tone. He just gives a small smile.

"My adoptive mother wanted to take her on a daughter, grandma trip to Disneyland. They wanted about a month and a half together and I didn't object because I've been trying to trust myself with people and plus I wanted to talk to you because I herd you were in town and I wanted to say I am sorry." He said. I move towards him and give him a small hug.

"You sure are brave, you know that right? Let me help Frank, I forgive you. Just please don't make me regret I said that." I say and he looks at me and smiles.

"Thank you Gerard. You don't have to help if you don't want to. I won't make you regret anything. If anything bad happens I give you full permission to do anything to me. You mean so much to me that I will do anything to save you. I'm not the brave one here, you are. You survived fifteen times for a reason Gerard." He tells me. Is this really the same Frank from high school?

"I will help out Frank. You are too un-trusting of yourself. I finished collage so I won't be leaving anytime soon. I just have to get out of this damn hospital, too many needles around." I say and shiver. I let out a small laugh at the end. Frank blushes and smiles at me.

"I can help you walk if you need, I know needles make you nervous. I made sure that they only used them if you needed them. Let's try and get you out of here. We should probably let Mikey back in at first though." He says and lets out a small laugh.

"Thanks Frank, that would be great. Plug your ears, I'm calling Mikey. MICHAEL WAY GET IN HERE!" I shout and Frank takes his fingers out of his ears and laughs.

"Wow, so you can be loud if you want." Frank exclaims as Mikey enters the door. Mikey stares at us confused as we sit on the bed laughing.

"Come sit Mikes." I say and Mikey sits on the bed. "Frank and I learned a lot about each other and I decided to forgive him and help him with his daughter. Now! Let's get out of this damn hell hole!" I exclaim as I do a sassy hair flip. We all burst out laughing. Frank helps me up and holds me up as we leave the door.

"If I didn't know any better I would have guessed you aren't gay." Frank whispers the joke into my ear.

"If I didn't know any better I would have guessed you aren't flirting" I joke back and he lets out a gasp. "Oh, is big ol'Frankie flirting with little ol' me?" I continue the joke.

"If I didn't know any better I would think you'd be flirting back Way. Don't make me kiss you." He says. I smirk as I nudge him. Well I do admit I have had a small crush on him.

Notes

Hope everyone is enjoying the story! I'm thinking of doing a colab sooner or later, so if anyone wants to do a colab with me then just shoot me a message!