Ying and Yang

Gerard's POV

I haven't seen Frank around school for nearly a week now and I was really getting worried.
I walked over to the stoner tree and saw the Chris was there and he had the same worried look on his face as what I did on the inside.
"Chris, I need to talk to you." I said and Chris nodded and everyone walked off leaving me and Chris alone.
"What's up Gerard?" Chris asked and looked down which wasn't like Chris.
"Okay, I know your probably going to wonder why I'm here when Frank clearly isn't." I said and Chris looked at me and something wasn't right.
"Out of everyone who has asked about him I feel like you are the only one who actually care about him and wants to be his friend, please say you want to be his a friend Gee." Chris said.
"Course I want to be his friend. I do somewhat care about him but I don't know him that well." I said and Chris chuckled.
"Frank is very good at hiding how he feels. It's was only until 2 years ago when i though he had no emotions. But he's actually a sensitive petal." Chris said and I chuckled quietly.
"Where is he? I'm worried about him." I said.
"Frank's grandmother passed not that looked no ago and Frank hasn't coped with it very well." Chris said and he looked down and took a deep breath.
I put my hand on top of his knee.
"Frank tried to kill himself last week. He's at the hospital and he's completely shut down. It was bad enough when his parents died but losing his grandmother has literally destroyed him." Chris said and looked down.
I looked down as well shocked that Frank could actually do this.
"I've tried talking to him but he's gone mute and is shutting down, he's giving up Gee and I can't let that happen to him. His parents and his grandmother wouldn't want him to do that." Chris said.
"I'll try and talk to him." I said and Chris smiled.
"Cheers Gee." Chris said and I smiled back and got up and went to the hospital.

I got to the hospital and I managed to find Frank.
"Hey Frank. It's me, Gerard." I said softly and walked over to the bed and sat down on the bed where Frank had his back to me.
"Leave me alone." Frank said quietly but he voice sounding flat and defeated.
"I came to make sure you are okay." I said softly and Frank rolled over and looked at me.
He had a bandage round his neck and on his arms.
"Frank what happened?" I whispered and Frank rolled back over so his back was to me completely shutting me out.
"Frank talk to me please. I want to be a friend here." I said and Frank sat up and looked at me hard.
"Like I'm going to believe that. Your just here so you can see the fucking freak who tried to kill himself but fucking failed and then you are going to go to the school and tell everyone! I want to fucking die why can't they just let me die." Frank shout at first but then began to sob.
I moved and pulled Frank to my side.
"I'm not going to tell anyone. I don't see you as a freak when I was in the same place as you 9 months ago. I want you to trust me and see me as a friend." I said softly.
Frank looked at me as if I should share my story.
"I'm only sharing if you share as well. Swings both ways." I said and Frank smiled a little.
"I can't." Frank whispered.
"It's okay. It takes time." I said and put my hand on top of Frank's.

Frank looked down and I knew he could see my scars.
"It's never worth turning to a razor. It might not feel like it at the time." I said quietly and Frank picked my arm up and gently rolled my sleeve up and gently ran his finger up and down my arm feeling the scars on my arm.
"These ones are recent." Frank whispered and circled his finger round 3 pinkish scars.
"Yeah." I muttered and looked down.
"Why hurt yourself? Why did you scar your beautiful skin?" Frank asked and looked at me.
"I..I..I was with someone and my relationship with them was abusive." I said quietly and Frank stayed quiet like he has been throughout me being here.
"They called me fat, ugly and all sorts. So I stopped eating and if I did eat I would purge. Within a year I had lost loads of weight. I was still being called fat and ugly so I refused to eat more and everything I had I would purge it. It wasn't until I collapsed and woke up I was in hospital with a tube up my nose and a feeding tube that was when I realised that I had to change and get better." I said and Frank sighed.
"Well that person was a asshole because your not fat nor are you ugly." Frank said quietly.
"I know that now, but sometimes I feel disgusting and it gets too much and I have to hurt myself. Hurt myself like how he hurt me." I whispered and sniffed.
"He was a asshole. No one should be told those things and you don't need to hurt yourself. The asshole has done enough damage to you." Frank said and I smiled a little.
Frank yawned and I chuckled.
"Want me to leave you?" I asked quietly and Frank shook his head.
"No stay, I don't want to be alone right now." Frank whispered as he lead down and I got off the bed.
"You can stay on the bed if you want." Frank muttered as he battled to keep his eyes open.
"Move over then." I whispered and Frank moved over and I quietly climbed on the bed where Frank rolled over so he was facing me and he just fell asleep.
i smiled and just watched Frank sleep.

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