I'll let you go

Chapter 1
Frank’s p.o.v


“Frankie! I’m tired of driving!” I heard an anxious, small voice call. I look in the rearview mirror at Cherry in her car seat.
“We’re almost there, just ten more minutes baby girl." I told her, smiling at her through the mirror. She sighed, throwing her head back against her car seat.
“You’ll love it there. The house I bought for us is nice and big, and you have your own play room and everything.” I tell her happily. She seems to brighten at that, but doesn’t talk.
I continue to drive among the familiar streets of Belleville. I pass my old high school and resist the urge to turn onto my old street.
I finally reach mine and Cherry’s new home, staring up at the big, blue empty house. It was quite beautiful.
As I got out of the car, I felt the usual tap against my chest from the necklace I always wear.
Gerard still has the other half. Or it could be in a dumpster.
I get Cherry out of her car seat, letting her run around our new yard while I get the bags we brought. The moving truck should be here in a hour.
I grab all our stuff, open the doors and grabbing our bags onto them. Cherry cheers and runs upstairs, while I look around. It looked slightly different from the last time I saw it but my guess was that they cleaned it a little more.
“Cherry, honey! C’mon, we're gonna go get some food before the movers get here!” I yell, my voice echoing off the walls. I hear her come back down the stairs, her footsteps fast and excited.
“I love it here!” She laughs, spinning a little. I chuckle at her, picking her up and balancing her on my side.
“I’m glad. We're gonna walk to a pizza place, okay? I used to go there all the time.” I tell her, smiling as I put her down so I could lock the door. She nods, a bright smile on her lips. I grab her hand and we begin walking down the street, her skipping a little as we do.
I hum to a song I had been listening to on the drive down here. I couldn’t quite remember the name of the song, but it was a nice catchy rock song.
“Hey,” Cherry says, poking me in my leg, “I love you.”
“Oh yeah? I love you too.” I say smiling down at her. Her red hair, that once was blonde, ruffles in the wind slightly and a grin on her face.
“Yeah, but I love you more.” She says simply. I laugh at her seriousness.
“Nope! My heart is bigger, so i love you more!” I tell her, my grin spreading further on my face.
“No! That's not fair!” She exclaims, throwing her arms up. I stifle laughter and grab her hand again.
“Oh yeah? Why not?” I ask, smiling at her.
“Because! I said so! I. Love. You. More!” She yells, stomping her feet with every word. I laugh, nodding.
“Okay! Okay, you win.” I say, smiling at her. She smiled smugly, gripping my hand harder. We reach the pizza place, finding there were only a couple of cars out.
I open the door for Cherry and myself, walking in the shop after her.
“Okay kiddo, what do you wanna get?” I ask her, setting her in a booth across from me.
“I want a pepperoni pizza with a juice.” She says, boredly looking out the window.
“What kind of juice?” I ask her, smiling a little.
“Lemonade.” She responds. I nod, getting up from the table.
“M’kay, stay here while I get it.” I say, getting up and winking at her. She nods, smiling at me.
I order the food, the total coming up to fifteen dollars, and sit back down with Cherry. I give her her food and watch her as she ate it.
She was really beautiful. She looked alot like my mother had when she was a child (I know cause of her photo albums I got when she died).
Suddenly I hear a huge gasp and look over to see a rather familiar man staring at me and Cherry.
“Holy fuck! Your so diffrent! And she’s gotten so much bigger!” He says, his voice coming out in a low gasp. I furrow my eyebrows, trying to figure out who this guy is.
“I’m sorry…..do I know you?” I ask, studying his facial features. He barks a laugh.
“You used to, really well actually.” He says, his face a mix of excitement and pain at the memory of me leaving.
“I don’t recognize you….” I say apologetically.
“I probably wouldn’t recognize me either.” He says, shrugging it off. Cherry stares between us confusedly, before brushing it off and looking out the window again.
“You still wear it.” He says simply, staring down at my neck. I look down to see what's he staring at, and realise he’s talking about Gerard’s necklace.
“Oh….yeah…” I say. “Wait, how did you know about that?”
“I told you, I used to know you really well.” He says, winking a little.
“Okay then, who the frick are you?” I ask, my annoyance getting the better of me.
“Bob.” He says simply, laughing a little. I snap my head back in surprise, staring at him now that I knew who he was.
“I have to get going-wait, you still play the guitar?” He asks, slight excitement in his voice.
“Uh, yeah-”
“Cool! Call me later!” He calls over his shoulder as he walks out. Okay…..
I didn’t even know how to feel.
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“Uh, hello?” Bob’s voice booms through the phone.
“Um, hey, it’s Frank.” I respond, my voice nervous. I hear chatter through the phone and a door close.
“Hey man! So how have you been all these years? We’ve fucking missed you!” He says, his voice pure joy.
“I mean, it’s been hard y’know, raises Cherry. But it’s been good.” I say, my voice coming out a little stronger.
“What about Linda? I though Cherry lived with her.” Bob asks.
“You..don’t know…?” I say, my voice coming out confused.
“Know what?” He asks, his voice coming out just as confused.
“LInda’s dead. That’s why I left, to raise Cherry. I explained this all ro Mikey in a note….I thought he would have at least told you.” I answer, my voice rather monotone.
“I’m so sorry dude! I didn’t know that! That sucks ass, man, I am really sorry.” He says, his apology coming out genuine.
“Thanks man.” I say simply, brushing it off.
“I gotta get going, but can you do me a favor?” He asks pleasingly.
“Sure, anything for you.” I say, shrugging a bit before I realise he can’t see me.
“Come to town hall tomorrow, with your guitar, and wait outside for me at the stadium. Y’know, where they have all the Christmas events.” He says, his voice excited.
“Uh, okay, but I have to bring Cherry.” I tell him, my voice bored.
“Alright, cool man, see you then.” He says, joy in his voice.
“See you tomorrow.” I respond, hanging up. I look over at Cherry, whose sound asleep on the couch. We had gotten our furniture in the house today, and we’d start unpacking tomorrow. Actually, I should start now.
I get up quietly, being sure not to wake Cherry. I walk to Cherry’s room, beginning to start unpacking her stuff. That was most important.
I fold her tiny toddler clothes, making sure to organize the draws. Most of her clothes weren’t all that girly, in fact she dressed a little like me. Me and Cherry shared a state of music, do I bought her band tee shirts. She liked to wear skirts with them, although most of them were grey or black.
Her room was girlier though, with butterfly stickers on the wall, a blue and purple rug, a pink and red bed set, and a white dresser with little roses on it. I set most of it up when we got home from pizza so she could play with her toys comfortably.
I finish the clothes, moving on to her other unpacked boxes that mainly consisted of pictures, wall decor, and more toys.
Just as I begin to hang more things on the wall, I hear a small whimper behind me. I turn around to see Cherry at the door, a pouty look on her face.
“Frankie,” She says, her voice small and sad. “I want you to tell me another story about Edward.” I sigh, turning to her, and scooping her up in my arms. I lie with her on the bed, her small form cradled in my arms.
“Hmm….” I say, as if to pretend I was thinking. I had told Cherry stories about Gerard as long as I could remember, knowing she’d forget about him.
“Okay….One morning I woke up and I as I was going to make coffee, I noticed you curled up In his arms. It was the cutest thing I had ever seen. Your body was lying on his chest, as he held you tightly, his lips pulled into a smiled as you guys slept. I absolutely adored the sight, knowing my two favorite people in the world loved each other as much as I loved them.” I pause a moment, looking at her eyes that had begun to drift shut.
“I stared at you guys a long time, so happy with the sight it literally made me squeal….I realised then, you two were all I needed.” I stop, realising she was asleep.
My throat burned from the story, making me realise I’ll never have that again.
I sigh, closing my eyes, trying to force myself to sleep.
Fuck, I miss Gee so much.
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Where are you, and I'm so sorry
I cannot dream, I cannot sleep tonight
I need some body and always
The sick strange darkness
Come creeping on so haunting every time.

Notes

So guys, I decided I'm going to do something new!
I'm gonna put song lyrics at the end pf every chapter that relates to it.
Love you beauties.
xoxMay<3