Chapter 9
Gee’s p.o.v

“Your so beautiful.” I sigh, looking down at Frank from our spot on the bed. He grins up at me, love clear in his eyes.
“Nah, that's you Gerard. Beautiful, kind, talented, and mine. Mine, mine, mine.” Frank says, kissing up my neck every time he says mine. I grin and nod, kissing his head.
“Yep, all yours, my love.” I say, making him grin wider. He lays his head back on my chest sighing contently. I hold him tightly to my chest, allowing my eyes to slip shut.
Everybody falls asleep after sex.
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“Get the fuck up, you guys! Your kid is sitting in the living room and you two are naked!” I hear an angry, yet somehow I can sense some kind of laughter in his voice. Well.
I try to sit up, but am weighed down by something laying on top of me. I look down at Frank, smiling at his small, happy face. I slip him off my chest, trying my hardest not to wake him. He needs sleep, especially because of last night. I take the sheet with me, wrapping it around my waist because Mikey stands in the doorway, but leave the duvet for Frank. I send Mikey a look saying ‘get the fuck out unless you wanna see my cock,’ kinda look. He rolls his eyes but leaves, allowing me to drop the sheet. I grab a black t-shirt, boxers, and red sweats. I quickly dress and start to leave, but i look back at Frank first. His face is content and happy, his body curled on his side into a ball. I smile lovingly at his sleeping form, and quickly go to kiss his head gently. I then leave the room, seeing everyone in the living room, including Bob, Ray, Mikey, and Cherry. It creeps me out slightly, knowing I was just sleeping naked, 10 feet from them.
“Uh...Hey guys…” I say, walking into the living room and sitting next to Cherry on the couch. “Hey little love.” I say to Cherry. She beams up at me and hugs me tightly. I grin and hug her too, kissing the top of her head.
“To what do I owe this visit?” I chuckle, smiling at them.
“We thought you guys would enjoy the company. We can go if you want.” Mikey explains, smiling.
“No! Stay!” I respond eagerly. Mikeys grins and nods, then sits on Ray’s lap.
“You guys want beer?” I ask, standing up. Bob and Ray nod, but Mikey seems hesitant.
“Gee, are you okay around beer?” He asks, his eyes worried. I smile and nod, heading to the kitchen. I grab three beers from the fridge and go back to the living room. I hand each of them a beer, smiling as I do. I sit back down, and Cherry begins to climb in my lap. I smile at her as she does so.
“So, you want to stay for dinner? I’m sure Frankie won’t mind.” I ask, smiling at Mikey. It’s been such a long time since we’ve spent time together. I miss my baby brother.
“Yeah, course.” He says in a ‘duh’ tone. Before anyone else says anything, I notice Frank appear in the hall wall. He rubs his eyes before looking up at all up us, a confused expression settled on his face. He’s only wearing boxers, witch, noted are mine.
“Morning baby.” I say happily, grinning at him. He shoots me a tired smile before crossing the room and plopping down next to me, tiredly putting his head on my chest.
“You guys had sex!” Ray shouts suddenly making me gasp. I cover Cherry ears as Frank begins to laugh, but doesn't deny it.
“How’d you know?” Frank asks, making me gasp.
“Babe!” I shout, gesturing to Cherry as much as I could with my hands covering her ears.
“Waht? I gotta know, so next time we have sex we can hide it better.” He says seriously, grinning at me.
“Ew, ew, ew, I’m gonna fucking puke.” Mikey says suddenly. Frank just grins at him, winking a little. Ray laughs, ginning at Mikey.
“I could tell by your body language. And no body wakes up that happy unless they fucked before falling asleep.” Ray announces, smirking at us. I shrug and blush, looking at Frank.
“Stop talking about sex you guys, Cherry is literally right there.” Bob says, rolling his eyes.
I uncover Cherry ears then smiling innocently at her.
“Alright! What do we want for dinner? I’ll cook!” I say, smiling at everyone.
“You can’t cook for shit, Gee.” Mikey snorts, smirking a little. I frown.
“I...I can. Gabe taught me.” i say quietly, shrugging. It made me sad that I was so distant my brother didn’t even know I could cook. Mikey smiled sadly and nodded, his eyes seeming to be sympathetic. It frustrated me he forgave me so easy, because I didn’t deserve it.
Unsurprisingly, Frank didn’t seem to mind the mention of Gabe. It surprised me that he understood the whole Gabe thing, and that it didn’t bother him.
“Well, what can you cook babe?” Frank asks, smiling at me.
“Whatever you guys want.” I say shrugging, smiling back at him.
“So indecisive.” Mikey says, shaking his head a little.
“We should have a celebratory dinner, y’know, since Frank came back and...you guys are back together...i think.” Bob says awkwardly. Frank snorts.
“I hope so, I mean, we just had sex and he’s been practically living here, so…” Frank says trailing off. I grin and kiss his forehead, nodding.
“What's sex?” Cherry says suddenly. I gap at Frank, wanting to laugh. I had forgotten she was here.
“Nothing. Uh- don’t worry about it. Don’t do it till you're eighteen.” Frank rambles, his face red. Mikey stifles a laugh, as Cherry makes a confused face at us. She brushes it off and turns to the tv, ignoring us.
“Should we just order food? Cooking sounds kinda hard right now…” I say, pleading Frank with my eyes. He snorts and nods, grinning at me.
“Yeah, you lazy ass.” He says, laying his head back on my shoulder. I smile and wrap my arms around him.
“Your a dick Frankie.” I say lovingly. He laughs at my tone, and nudges me playfully.
“Yeah, but you are too!” He says, smiling up at me.
“Duh, you are what you eat.”
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Frank’s p.o.v, after dinner.

Cherry had gone to sleep already and the guys were now settled down on the couch, talking to each other. Mikey shot me a meaningful look, which I quite honestly didn’t understand.
Just before I manage to sit with the guys, he stands and grabs my arm, leading me into Gerard’s and I’s room.
“Mikey, what the hell are you doing?” I ask loudly, looking at him like he was nuts. He quickly covers my mouth, shushing me.
“Be quiet! They can’t hear us!” Mikey whispers. My eyes widen and he rolls his eyes, smirking a little. “Not like that, you idiot. I need to talk to you about Gee.” He clarifies.
“Good. You were scaring me for a second there, Mikes, thought you were trying to sleep with me.” I say, grinning a little, He rolls his eyes but smiles.
“As if. You're not really my type Frank.” He says in a rude tone. I smack his arm and laugh.
“What’s that supposed to mean, dick wod?” I ask playfully, laying back on the bed.
“You're too….punky. Though your tattoos are hot.” He says seriously, making me burst into laughter. I force myself to be serious, sitting up and looking expectantly at him. He composes himself to, sitting down on the bed next to me, his poker face perfectly intact. To say the least he was making me nervous. I chew on lip, waiting for him to speak.
“Gerard...had certain issues when you left,” He starts hesitantly, his poker face dissolving into a mix of pain and torment. “He fell into a horrible depression as you have guessed. He developed some drug issues.” He continues, making me gasp.
“Wh-what kind of drugs?” I demand, pain etched into my voice.
“Uh, anything he could get his hands on. Coke, heroin, Molly, ecstasy. This went on for about a year and half, until he quite literally went insane. He developed voices in his head because of the drugs, and he tried to kill himself because of it.” He states solemnly, bringing tears into my eyes. I wipe my eyes, waiting for him to continue.
“He was so depressed after that, he didn’t eat, he didn’t sleep, he didn’t fucking move. Then he meant Gabe.”
I flinch away from the name, upset by the fact he needed that fucker. I was thankful Gabe had helped Gee, but it hurt knowing I wasn’t the only one who could heal Gee.
“He started to get better, slowly, but he always had these nightmares. He’d wake up screaming. He told me that it was always of you and it wasn’t even a sad dream half the time. This one time he actually told me about it. He said you and him were in this place you used to hang out, but you were walking away. He could never catch up, and soon you were out of sight. That's when he panicked, when he realised you were leaving him. Anyway, he finally got to a point where he was stable, but he was always angry. He never opened up to anyone but Gabe, but now he talks to me, now he’s finally okay.Tanks to you.” Mikey finishes, with a small smile, staring at me. I take a deep breath, absorbing what he just said.
“I….Thanks for telling me.” I say slowly, my voice shaky. He nods and smile at me gently.
“Course. Gee didn’t want to, but he said I could tell you.” Mikey says. I nod and take another deep breath. I feel more tears well up in my eyes, blurring my vision.
“I...I fucked him up so bad.” I whisper, trying hard to keep in the tears that threaten to spill all over my face.
“Frank, I gotta admit I was really pissed at you when you left. Then I really begun to understand, I knew you thought you were helping. So I let it go, and you should to. It’s gonna be okay now.” He says, making me feel a little better.
Suddenly I wanted to hold Gee really, really bad. I shot up from the bed, making Mikey almost fall. I smile at him apologetically, but still rush from the room. He’s in the middle of laughing when I jump on him, which cause him to abruptly stop.
“I love you.” I say quickly, latching my hands around his neck. I wrap my legs around his waist, clutching onto him.
“I-I love you too, sugar. What's wrong, sugar?” He asks, his voice slightly stunned. I look up at him and shake me head, then kiss him. As soon as my lips touch his I feel better. All I needed was him, my personal drug, my true mother fucking love. We sson pull apart, making me sigh contently and rest my head in the crook of his neck.
“I guess you told him then.” Gerard says to, I assume, Mikey.
“Yeah.” Mikey responds. Gerard nods and lets out a sigh...he sounds relieved? I look up at him and stare at his perfect face for a minute.
He was so breathtakingly beautiful, it knocked the air out of me. I stared at him until he noticed, looking down at me.
“What? Do I say something on my face?” He asked, completely serious. I shook my head and smiled lovingly at him.
“You're just so beautiful. So, so beautiful.” I say, smiling at him. He blushed, looking a little shocked.
“Nah, baby, thats you. I can’t even believe you're mine. Some one’s gonna come around and steal you if I’m not careful.” He says playfully. I smirk and look over at Mikey.
“Good thing you're careful Gee, cause Mikey already tried.” I say smirking, causing Mikey to blush.
“I- I did not!” He says defensively. I laugh and shake me head, grinning over at him.
“He so tried to seduce me! You shoulda seen him Gee, he was all over me.” I say sarcastically, laughing.
“In your dreams Frank!” Mikey says, but there’s still a faint blush on his cheeks.
“Frank, we all know Mikey only wants me. I’m obviously the best looking one here.” Ray says scolding, but obviously sarcastically.
“Better make sure he knows that Ray.” I snort, staring at Mikey. He didn’t look embarrassed any more, just bored.
Soon we launch into a conversation about the band, discussing the details of it.
As they talked I began to fall asleep in Gee’s lap. My head lies in his lap, my body curled up against his side. He stroked my hair as I fell asleep, lulling me into the darkness.
Just as I let unconsciousness take me, I feel two strong arms wrap around me, carrying me little ways until I reach a soft surface.
“Good night, my love. I love you.” A soft voice whispers. I open my eyes slightly, finding a loving face in front of mine.
“I love you too, Gerard.” I whisper, my voice barely audible. He kisses my head softly just as the darkness takes over my body.
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When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Notes

Pissed at myself cause I'm talentless.
HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS, MY LOVES <3
xoxMay<3