Safe me from myself.
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+ Trigger warning self harm+
Frank's POV
It was the middle of the night and I was really hungry so I got out of bed and went looking for the kitchen in the dark.
Which was a lot harder than what you think.
When I got their I turned the light on and saw the black haired boy jump a d look at me.
He had tears rolling down his face and blood running down his arm.
"Well don't you look rough." I said and walked over to a towel and picked it up and walked over to the boy who back away from me.
"Hey, I'm not going to hurt you. I want to help." I said softly and the boy just looked at me.
"I know you know I'm Frank. Which one are you?" I asked and the boy looked down.
"The failure." He said quietly.
"Hey there the failure its nice too meet you." I said and I saw a small smile on his face.
"In all seriousness, what's you name." I said again.
"Gerard, my name is Gerard." He whispered.
"Well Gerard, we need to sort your arm out." I said and Gerard looked down and shook his head.
"Can't just leave you to bleed out, everyone would think that I've killed you or something." I said and Gerard looked at me again.
"I know how it feels and trust me when I say its better to let people help you. People who can trust." I said.
"They know, but they think I'm getting better." He said quietly.
"You need to tell them that your not getting better. They can give you more support." I said.
"They wouldn't give a shit, especially now your here causing trouble. In their eyes your more important than me." He spat his eyes hardening as he glared at me.
"I'm just as worthless as you feel. But you need to talk to your dad. You need to get yourself sorted." I said and Gerard's eyes softened.
" Will you change if I talk to my dad about this." Gerard said.
"I can't change. I've been this way for so long I know no other way of behaving." I said.
Gerard sighed and looked down.
"Let me sort your arm out." I said and walked towards him and Gerard didn't back away this time.
"You have loads of tattoos." Gerard said quietly and studied the scorpion tattoo on my neck.
"Still had loads to add." I said and I looked at Gerard who smiled.
"How are you even old enough to have tattoos?" He asked.
"I have mates who are tattoo artists, so I asked them to tattoo me and they did. That's where they came from." I said.
"You have your tounge pierced?" He asked completely lost with my tattoos and piercings.
" Excellent for giving blow jobs." I said and winked at Gerard who looked down and blushed.
"Did it hurt?" He asked.
"I couldn't eat McDonald's for 2 weeks and had to live of soup for those two weeks but I didn't really feel anything. Did the next day but its worth it." I said and Gerard smiled.
"Now my lip was a different matter." I said and Gerard chuckled.
I moved the towel away and his cuts had stopped bleeding so I started to clean the dry blood away before I could bandage it.
"Feels like you've done this before." Gerard said quietly.
"I had friends who self harmed. I also self harmed but I haven't done so for 2 years now. So your in safe hands." I said and looked at Gerard who had a sad smile at me.
"I'm sorry if I've triggered you." He said quietly.
" Don't worry about it. I'm a tough cookie, I know how far I can push myself." I said and Gerard smiled again.
"Your not as much as an asshole as I thought you would be." He said and I chuckled.
"Get to know me better as you'll realise a whole lot more about me." I said quietly and started to bandage Gerard's arm.
"I'd like that." Gerard said and I looked at him confused.
"I'd like to get to know you better." Gerard said and I smiled at him.
'Dont let him close. He'll rip you to shreds like everyone else.'
I sighed and looked down with my smile dropping.
"What's wrong?" Gerard asked.
"I'm no good Gerard. Your just better to stay away from me." I said quietly.
"I believe people can change, I'm guessing you want to change but something is stopping you." Gerard said quietly.
I just smiled at him and put his arm on his lap.
"I'll see you in the morning." I said and turned round and went to walk off.
"Frank?" Gerard said and I stopped and looked at him.
"Thanks for this, but don't tell anyone please." He said.
"Its safe with me." I said and went back to my room and fell asleep.
Frank's POV
It was the middle of the night and I was really hungry so I got out of bed and went looking for the kitchen in the dark.
Which was a lot harder than what you think.
When I got their I turned the light on and saw the black haired boy jump a d look at me.
He had tears rolling down his face and blood running down his arm.
"Well don't you look rough." I said and walked over to a towel and picked it up and walked over to the boy who back away from me.
"Hey, I'm not going to hurt you. I want to help." I said softly and the boy just looked at me.
"I know you know I'm Frank. Which one are you?" I asked and the boy looked down.
"The failure." He said quietly.
"Hey there the failure its nice too meet you." I said and I saw a small smile on his face.
"In all seriousness, what's you name." I said again.
"Gerard, my name is Gerard." He whispered.
"Well Gerard, we need to sort your arm out." I said and Gerard looked down and shook his head.
"Can't just leave you to bleed out, everyone would think that I've killed you or something." I said and Gerard looked at me again.
"I know how it feels and trust me when I say its better to let people help you. People who can trust." I said.
"They know, but they think I'm getting better." He said quietly.
"You need to tell them that your not getting better. They can give you more support." I said.
"They wouldn't give a shit, especially now your here causing trouble. In their eyes your more important than me." He spat his eyes hardening as he glared at me.
"I'm just as worthless as you feel. But you need to talk to your dad. You need to get yourself sorted." I said and Gerard's eyes softened.
" Will you change if I talk to my dad about this." Gerard said.
"I can't change. I've been this way for so long I know no other way of behaving." I said.
Gerard sighed and looked down.
"Let me sort your arm out." I said and walked towards him and Gerard didn't back away this time.
"You have loads of tattoos." Gerard said quietly and studied the scorpion tattoo on my neck.
"Still had loads to add." I said and I looked at Gerard who smiled.
"How are you even old enough to have tattoos?" He asked.
"I have mates who are tattoo artists, so I asked them to tattoo me and they did. That's where they came from." I said.
"You have your tounge pierced?" He asked completely lost with my tattoos and piercings.
" Excellent for giving blow jobs." I said and winked at Gerard who looked down and blushed.
"Did it hurt?" He asked.
"I couldn't eat McDonald's for 2 weeks and had to live of soup for those two weeks but I didn't really feel anything. Did the next day but its worth it." I said and Gerard smiled.
"Now my lip was a different matter." I said and Gerard chuckled.
I moved the towel away and his cuts had stopped bleeding so I started to clean the dry blood away before I could bandage it.
"Feels like you've done this before." Gerard said quietly.
"I had friends who self harmed. I also self harmed but I haven't done so for 2 years now. So your in safe hands." I said and looked at Gerard who had a sad smile at me.
"I'm sorry if I've triggered you." He said quietly.
" Don't worry about it. I'm a tough cookie, I know how far I can push myself." I said and Gerard smiled again.
"Your not as much as an asshole as I thought you would be." He said and I chuckled.
"Get to know me better as you'll realise a whole lot more about me." I said quietly and started to bandage Gerard's arm.
"I'd like that." Gerard said and I looked at him confused.
"I'd like to get to know you better." Gerard said and I smiled at him.
'Dont let him close. He'll rip you to shreds like everyone else.'
I sighed and looked down with my smile dropping.
"What's wrong?" Gerard asked.
"I'm no good Gerard. Your just better to stay away from me." I said quietly.
"I believe people can change, I'm guessing you want to change but something is stopping you." Gerard said quietly.
I just smiled at him and put his arm on his lap.
"I'll see you in the morning." I said and turned round and went to walk off.
"Frank?" Gerard said and I stopped and looked at him.
"Thanks for this, but don't tell anyone please." He said.
"Its safe with me." I said and went back to my room and fell asleep.
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1/29/17