Safe me from myself.

Gerard's POV

I woke up and I was still cuddled into Franks chest like how I fell asleep earlier.
I moved and put my leg over Franks legs which made Frank sigh loudly but he stayed asleep and he rolled on his side.
I went to move my leg but Frank put his hand on top of my leg and I looked at him and Frank was just waking up.
"You can keep your leg there." He said sleepily.
"I don't have to if you don't want me too." I said and Frank smiled and pushed me onto my back and sat on me.
"Well I guess its changed round now." Frank said and I smiled as I met Frank half way to kiss him.
"You still going to talk to me about you ex." Frank said and i looked away from him.
Frank moved down my legs and he kissed the scar on my stomach.
"Don't look at it, its disgusting." I said quietly.
"Its not disgusting. I have a big scar on my leg which I got at a foster home when some kid went crazy and cut my leg really deep. Then you have my self harm scars but you cant really see them as I have a tattoo covering them." Frank said and I smiled a little.
Frank kissed the scar again and got off me and lent against the wall and I moved and lent against him.

"So tell me about this asshole of the ex." Frank said.
I sighed and looked down and messed with my hands.
"His name was Elliott and he was in the year above me. I knew I was gay when I was 13 but I kept it hidden and came out a few months ago in my 17th birthday." I said and looked at Frank and I was surprised that he was actually listening to me.
"Go on, I'm listening." He said and I smiled and looked back down again.
"At first he was really nice, he was charming and handsome and I did fall hard for him. I was 15 when I had sex with him and at first he was nice and was gentle and made sure I was okay." I said and took a deep breath.
"Then he changed. He started to be really controlling and he got jealous even if I talked to Mikey or Nate which he knew they was my brothers. But if I was to talk to another person he would slap me. H..H..He even raped me." I said and looked down feeling some tears fall.
"Gee.." Frank said quietly.
"I..I..I was at school when Elliott came over and punched me to the ground and until I black out. H..H..He handcuffed me to a bed where, where." I was all I could say and just broke down crying.
Frank quickly pulled me to his chest and I held onto him for dear life as I cried my eyes out and Frank kissed the top of my head and rubbed my back.
"Shush, its okay. Everything is going to be okay." Frank said quietly.
I pulled back and looked at him.
Frank wiped the tears away from my eyes which made me smile.
"You can carry on if you want to." Frank said and I moved and sat on his lap.
"Elliott handcuffed me to the bed where him and some other people raped me. They all threw punches and Elliott decided to teach me a lesson and he got a kitchen knife and stabbed me." I said and looked at the scar but I felt Frank place a finger under my chin and made me look at him.
"Don't look down." Frank whispered and I smiled.
"Luckily for some reason dad was tracking my phone and he came with loads of other police people and arrested Elliott and the others. I don't know what happened after that as I passed out." I said and I look at Frank.
"I developed PTSD because of it. For a while I couldn't sleep, I couldn't leave the house without having a panic attack. I always had to have someone with me because I thought Elliott and the others was going to get me. After a month my dad had no choice but to send me to the nut house. I had only been back 2 days when you came here." I said and looked down.
"How long was you in the hospital for?" Frank asked and ran his hands down my arms.
"3 months." I whispered and felt tears in my eyes.
"The main thing is that you are out of there. You are with me, I can keep you safe." Frank said and I looked at him and smiled.
" So this Elliott bastard goes to your school?" Frank asked.
"Yeah, it gets too much for me to be at school. I can't cope with Elliott being there and the school knows but they would rather I threw my education away than kick Elliott out. They know seeing him triggers everything off really badly and it takes me a while to calm back down or I might even get sent back to hospital." I said quietly.
"Now can I fuck him up?" Frank asked seriously.
I shook my head and smiled at him.
"No you can not fuck him up." I said and Frank pouted at me.
"No fun." Frank said and I kissed him which Frank returned.
"That's because I can't lose you, I feel safe when I'm with you." I said and Frank smiled.
I lead down and Frank followed my lead and pulled me to his chest and we spent the day.

"So are you two even together?" Nate asked since dad was talking to Frank.
"No." I said and looked down.
"Aw, Gee has a crush on Frank." Riley said.
I looked down and blushed.
"Just ask him out Gee." Nate said and sat back on his bed as me and Riley was sat in Nates room as Mikey has gone to fuck his boyfriend.
"It never seems like the right time." I said and messed with my hands.
"As long as you don't do what I did when I asked Holly out you'll be fine." Nate said and Riley chuckled.
" What happened? I was in hospital for 3 months." I said.
"Nate pretty much got drunk and went to her house and shouted her to go out with him." Riley laughed.
"Not smooth Nate." I chuckled.
"Hey, at least I had the balls to ask. Even if I don't remember but I still got the fittest girl in my year and I get her all to myself." Nate said proudly.
"Seriously Gee, the way you too look at each other and how you are around each other. You two should get with each other. He'll make you forget about that bastard." Nate said.
"Yeah Gee, ask me out." Frank said as he walked over and sat on my lap.
I looked at him.
"Would say get a room but your in one and it happens to be mine." Nate said.
Me and Frank looked at him and Frank got off me and got hold of my hand and helped me up and we walked to my room.
"Make good choices!" Riley said after us.

We got to my room and Frank shut the door and pushed me up against it.
"Is there something you want to ask me?" Frank asked as he put my hands above my head.
I blushed and looked down and Frank used his other hand to make me look at him.
"Ask me a question." Frank said quietly.
"Be my boyfriend?" I asked quickly and looked down again.
Frank made me look at me again.
"Course I will." He said quietly against my lies and kissed me and let go off my hands and they went round Franks waist while Frank stood on his tip toes and wrapped his arms round my neck and deepened the kiss.
Frank pulled back and looked at me.
I smiled and kissed him again.

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