When you go

Chapter 29
Frank’s p.o.v


The next day I’m at home, doing the laundry as Cherry sleeps. My phone starts to right, so I rush to answer it, finding an unknown caller as the I.d.
“Hello?” I say into the phone.
“Is this Frank Iero?” An extremely professional voice asks me, scaring me a bit.
“Y-yes. Is something wrong? Who is this?” I ask quickly.
“This is St. Paul's hospital. Sir, I’m sorry but your mother's been in an accident. I feel my heart skip a beat, and I begin to sweat nervously.
“W-what? Is she okay?” I ask, my voice wavering.
“I’m sorry sir, but she’s...dead.” The voice says sympathetically.
“No. No, your lying, no I just saw her yesterday. No.” I deny, feeling my heart beat faster.
“I’m sorry sir….”
“No, God dammit! No!” I yell, chucking my phone across the room.
“I just got her back! No, fucking no!” I yell, tears beginning to leak out of my eyes. My legs collapse underneath me and I fall to the floor, sobbing.
“She can’t be dead! She can’t leave me again!” I yell. Obviously I’m not yelling at anyone in particular, just to do it.
“What the fuck am I going to do with Cherry?!” I yell again, feeling my heart snap in two. Oh God. Fuck.
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Later on, I’ve managed to calm down and process thing through my head,
Linda is dead.
I am now Cherry’s legal guardian.
I will have to raise this little girl.
And last but not least, Gee will fucking leave me because of this.
I can’t tell him, I refuse to. I’ll have to lie. I can’t fucking lose him.
Were currently sitting around the dinner table, hamburgers and turkey burgers laid out before us. I try to act as normal as possible, but it’s fcuking hard when you hurt this bad.
“Are you okay baby?” Gee asks sweetly. I force a fake smile onto my lips, trying hard to look happy.
“Course babe.” I say, my voice coming out happy. Happy and fucking fake.
“Good. So when will Linda pick the baby up?” He asks. I swear it feels like I’m dying when he asks that, but I keep my fake smile in place, and force my voice to come out strong when I speak.
“Oh, yeah! She called today asking if we could keep her until the day after Christmas. She has to work and the babysitter quit.” I say, trying to remain completely natural. Gee looked surprised, but pleased. If only you knew Gee.
“Cool!” He says happily. Oh, Gee. I stare at Cherry a moment, feeling horrible for her. She would never grow up with either of her parents, she’d just have me. I’d be there for her though, I will raise her and cherish her. I will never, ever leave her side.
I finish my dinner, cleaning off my plate and going to the bathroom. I allow myself a tiny break down, letting the tears stream down my face.
Then, as if nothing happened, I wipe my tears from my face and leave the bathroom, another big, fake smile on my lips.
That night I ask Mikey and Ray if Cherry could sleep in their room. They agreed, because they loved Cherry half to death.
When Gee comes down stairs I don’t talk, I just talk his hand and lead him to the bed. I kiss him softly, and he starts to rush to take off his clothes.
“Baby, slow down.” I whisper against his lips.
“Sorry, babe. I just...want you.” He whispers back. I smile, a sad, sad smile, but continue. I lay him softly on the bed, slowly taking his shirt off. Once it’s off, I kiss every inch of his neck and torso, leaving small hickeys occasionally. He moans underneath me, gripping my hips tightly.
I start to undo his pants, sliding them off gently. I take my own clothes off, realising I’ve mostly just been focusing on his.
I love our boxers on for a minute, just savoring touching him and kissing him.
I needed to savor this, this could be the last time we make love, because I had made up my mind.
I was going to leave.

Notes

I'm sorry.
Holy fuck I didn't mean to make this happen. Wowzeezes.
xoxMay<3