When you go

Chapter 17
Franks p.o.v
It always been kind of weird to me how people who aren’t couples could be so affectionate towards each other. I hadn’t realised me and Gerard were like that of course, otherwise i would have said it was the most natural thing in the world.
That's the only word to describe this moment, Gerard was curled around me as he sleeps. His arms are wrapped loosely around my waist, his even breath tickling my skin. I lie there all night, running my hands over his warm skin. All too soon, the sun begins to shine through the curtains and i know i have to wake him up soon. I slowly turn towards him, trying not to wake him just yet. His mouth is hanging slightly open and his face is peaceful.
The sight makes me grin uncontrollably. I press soft kisses against his face and neck, hoping that would wake him up.
“Mmm...Frankie, baby, what are you doing?” He asked groggily. I giggled.
“I’m waking you up.” I said smiling. He smiled back at me sleepily.
“Ten more minutes?” He asked closing his eyes. I sat up and straddled him, bouncing on his lap.
“Nope! You gotta get up now, love!” I said giggling at him. He set his hands on my knees to steady me, and grinned up at me. Before i know what he’s doing, he quickly wraps in in his arms and pins me to the bed.
“I’ll get up if you can!” He says giddily. Him pinning me to the bed actually caused me a lot of physical pain, considering all the bruises and wounds i have.
“Gee…” I gasp out, my face twisted in pain. He looks and me and quickly retracts his hands, horror etched on his face.
“Oh, baby, I’m sorry!” He told me, sitting up. I lay there a minute, waiting for the pain to stop. When it does, i sit up and smile reassuringly at him.
“I’m sorry baby. I’m so sorry.” he says regretfully. I just shake my head, letting him know it’s okay.
“C’mon honey, i’ll make you some breakfast.” He says gently. Before i can move, he picks me up bridal style, kissing my forehead gently.
“Y’know Gee, you can kiss me lips too.” I say playfully, but completely serious. I like it when we kiss. I feel warm and fuzzy.
He blushes a deep red, but smiles and nods. Once we get to the kitchen he sets me on the counter, moving around the kitchen for food. I swing my legs, feeling like a small child. I replay yesterday in my head, grinning as i do so. I got away from that motherfucker. Haha.
Suddenly i remember the letter, and it's like a fucking train hitting me in the stomach. It actually hurts me physically, and i scrabble off the counter to find it. I put it on Gee’s desk. I quickly go to his room, searching for it. I find it quickly, my heart pounding in my chest so hard that i’d pop out of my chest. I go back to the kitchen, slowly this time, and find Gee standing nervously.
“What was that Frank? You scared me.” He asked, talking about me leaving so quickly.
“I...I need you to listen to this letter, okay?” i ask, my voice uneven and shaky. He nods, a nervous look on his face. I take the letter out, unfolding it carefully.
“It’s addressed to my father...from my mother.” i say slowly, as if trying to somprefend it myself. He nods slowly, and i clear my throat.
“‘Dear Frank, why haven't you respond to all my letters? I’ve written many, yet you never respond. I’ve decided this is the last one i will write.’” i start my voice uneven. I flicker my eyes up to his face, which has many different emotions on it.
“‘How is our son? His birthday is in just a few short weeks, i suppose. Sometimes wonder why i keep track of these things.’” My voice has an edge of pain in it, slicing up the rest of my speech. I feel a huge weight on my chest, as if a hundred pound weight has been dropped on it.
“‘I have some news. I’m pregnant with a baby girl. I hope to be a good mother to her, as i have never been to my baby boy.’” My voice cracks and i know tears are filling my eyes, ready to spill on my cheeks.
“‘I hope to raise her and cherish her, as i was never able to with Frank Jr. I’m moving in a week, so my new address will be at the end of this letter. Yours truly, Linda. 9/26/16. Oakland Ave, #708 Trenton new Jersey.’” I finish reading, keeping my eyes down as Gerard processes the letter. He makes a noise of pain as my tear finally spill over.
“Wow,” I hear a voice behind me. “That was shitty.”
I turn to see Mikey and Ray standing in the doorway of the kitchen, holding hands. Sadness with a little bit of horror is etched on their expressions. I just nod, leaning on the counter so i didn’t fsl over. I feel Gerards arms go around my waist and i feel a little better.
“M’Sorry baby. I’m really, really sorry.” He says softly. I turn around to face him, and nuzzle my face into his neck. I feel a hand on my back, rubbing it softly. I assumed it was Ray or Mikey trying to comfort me
“We have to go get ready for school.” I announced, my voice still shaky. Gerard nods, taking a step back and tugging on my hand.
We get ready in a comfortable silence. I catch sight of him in the mirror as i’m doing my eyeliner and i feel my heart stop. The sunlight was hitting him perfectly, illuminating his eyes. Hs shirt was off as he searched for another one, and his face had a peaceful look about it.
I made me realise how fucking in love i am with him.
And that was the beginning and the end of everything.

Notes

Was it okay? *hides under table*
Short chapter, sorry loves.
-May <3