Where's your heart?

"What's it like?" I ask a few long minutes later, Frank and I laying in silence as we finally catch our breath again. "What's what like babe?" Frank asks, his head rolling to face me and I swallow hard, bringing my eyes up to meet his as I say "Sex, having something inside you. Does it hurt?" Frank smiles wide as he shakes his head before he says " No, well I mean the first time yeah maybe it might hurt a little if you're not stretched enough but the more you do it the more you get used to it and actually it feels pretty fucking amazing, especially what you did before with the twisting, I've never felt something like that before, that was fucking incredible. But mostly it's gonna feel weird the first few times but if you stretch yourself enough and use enough lube and relax it will feel great." I nod, taking in everything Frank has just said and I let my eyes slip closed for a moment as I entertain the idea of Frank between my open legs, pushing his way inside and I swallow hard before I open them again and Frank frowns slightly as he says "You know you don't have to bottom right? Most gay couples are either a top or a bottom and they don't really need to switch it up, whatever works for them is just fine so if you're more comfortable being a top that's fine, there's no pressure." I nod, feeling slight relief spread through me, my smile returning as I say "Thank you," making Frank shake his head again as he rolls onto his side and slides closer to me, his arm sliding across my stomach to wrap around my waist. "Babe don't ever think you have to do anything at all that you're not comfortable with. I'm not some asshole who will hold it against you and...." Frank starts and I frown as I realise he's got the wrong idea. "No Frankie I know, I wasn't saying....I mean I was just asking because I kinda want to....you make it look like it feels so good and I want to but I'm kinda scared too." I roll onto my side to face Frank and when I meet his eyes again he smiles softly and says "We can do whatever you want Gee. If you feel like you want to try just let me know and I promise I'll make you feel so good babe." "Thanks Frankie" I tell him, leaning in to press my lips to his and after a minute we pull back and Frank rolls back onto his back as he says "I'm exhausted." "Me too" I tell him as I let out a soft yawn and we both move off the bed, reaching for our underwear and as I leave the room, going across to the bathroom to brush my teeth and wash my face Frank grabs the dildo and lube and makes his way over to the box in the corner before coming and joining me in the bathroom.

The next afternoon when I get home from work I wander through the house looking for Frank but he's not there and as I wander back into the living room I see a note on the table telling me he has a band practice before work and that he'll see me tonight. I spend the rest of the afternoon tidying up before I settle on the couch with the tv playing low and I grab my sketch pad, turning to a new blank page and as I start to move the pencil I let my mind wander, me pushing into Franks tight heat replaying in my mind, his back arching and a desperate little whine escaping his mouth and as my pencil moves rapidly across the paper I feel my dick start to stir and when I finally stop drawing I look and realise that I've just drawn that exact image only I'm on the bottom, my mouth open as my face is twisted in pleasure and Frank is pushing inside me, his head thrown back and I feel my cheeks burn, snapping the sketch book closed as my dick throbs again and I decide to just get it over with, dropping the book on the coffee table and making my way into the bedroom, my clothes leaving a trail across the bedroom floor as I make my way to the bed and once I've settled on the mattress I reach out and grab my lube from the drawer. I play with the bottle for a few seconds before I drop it beside me and I let my hands wander down, one stopping to play with my erect dick while the other goes a little lower and I reach in and trail my finger around my hole, just touching and feeling it out and the sensation makes me shiver a little, the feeling weird but not unpleasant. A few seconds later I pull my hands back and I grab the lube, slicking up my fingers before I trail them back down, using the lube to slick up the skin before I apply more and I take my index finger and press the tip of it against my muscles, pushing forward slightly and increasing the pressure more and more until it slips past the first ring of tight muscles, the sensation feeling strange and I'm not sure if I want to continue but the memory of Frank writhing beneath me as I buried my fingers deep inside him pushes me on and I decide to keep going, sliding my finger further inside myself until it's halfway and I move it around a little, bending it upwards but it doesn't feel good, just more and more strange and I sigh as I slide it back out, feeling a little disappointed and my dick starts to soften as I sigh to myself and let my eyes slip closed, wondering what it is that's wrong with me.

A few hours later I've showered and eaten and I'm just climbing into bed, curling up with my laptop and I'm trying to pick a movie to watch when Frank comes home and when he sees me in bed he frowns and says "Are you ok?" "Yeah I'm fine" I tell him, offering him a reassuring smile and Frank smiles back before climbing onto the bed to settle beside me, holding his arm out as I slide across to cuddle into his side, my head resting on his chest. "How was your day?" I ask, listening as Frank tells me about band practice and work and when he's done I inhale deeply before saying "You smell like pizza." Frank laughs softly and says "Yeah, I need a shower" but before he can move I sit up and move over to straddle his waist, leaning down over him to press my lips to his and when we pull apart again I trail my nose down his neck, breathing him in and beneath the smell of grease and pizza I smell him, the scent making my insides tingle a little and I keep sniffing as I say "But you smell so good right now." Frank chuckles as his hand slides up to cup my chin, guiding my face back up until our lips are sealed together again and as we kiss heatedly he grabs my hips and rolls us over, pressing me back into the mattress as he deepens the kiss and we start to full on make out, my hands coming up between us to work on unbuttoning his work shirt and once it's open I push it off his shoulders as much as I can, running my hands back down his bare chest and stomach and I feel the muscles of his stomach tense and twitch beneath my touch as I slide down lower and start working on his belt.

Things turn a little more frantic after I get Franks pants open, both of us working together to get them down and off him as we continue to kiss heatedly and once he's naked he works on removing my sweatpants and shirt, leaving me naked beneath him too and as he settles back over me he shifts around and gently guides my legs apart, kneeling between them as he sits back and I watch as he slides his hands down my stomach and around to rub at my inner thighs, slowly working them inwards to gently ease my cheeks apart a little more as he leans down and starts softly mouthing at my dick, his fingers gently rubbing over my hole and I tense up for a second before relaxing again. As Frank leans back over me, his lips sealing to mine again I hear a rustling beside the bed and when I break the kiss to look I see him reaching for the lube, my head turning to look back up at him and he smiles softly at me, one eyebrow raising and I decide to go with it, figuring maybe I was doing something wrong before and as Frank sits back between my legs again I bend them up, planting my feet against the mattress and giving him better access and as I hear the cap on the lube pop open I let my eyes slip closed, trying to remain calm but a few seconds later I feel a cold wetness at my entrance and my eyes fly open again as my whole body tenses and shifts slightly, instinct telling me to get away. "Hey" Frank says softly, his warm hand coming to rest against my lower stomach and I look down at him, seeing concern in his eyes. "Do you want to stop?" He asks, his forehead creasing into a frown and I swallow hard before saying "I don't....I tried earlier and it didn't feel..." "It always feels different when you do it yourself, the angle just isn't the same but it's ok" Frank says as he removes his hand from my ass and I swallow hard again before saying "I want to try but I'm nervous." Frank starts gently rubbing his hand back and forth across my lower stomach as he says "There's no need to be nervous babe, if you like it you like it and if not we can stop and that's ok. Whatever happens it'll be alright." "Ok" I say as I nod my head, Franks face pulling back into a smile as he brings his hand back down and I feel him press his finger against my hole.

Notes

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