Where's your heart?

I'm woken by a knock at the door and when I sit up and look over at the clock I see it's 3am and I sigh to myself as I climb out of bed, knowing exactly who's at the door and when I open it Frank is standing there staring at his feet, slowly lifting his head to look at me and I see the fear in his eyes. "Can I come in, please?" He asks, his voice a little uneven and I nod, stepping aside and letting him in and after I've locked the door again I turn to face him, both of us standing there facing each other in silence. "What's happening?" Frank asks after a moment, his eyes wide and his voice uneven and I swallow hard before saying "I don't know, I just wanted you around and you left and I don't know what's happening anymore, I don't know how to feel and...." "Please don't leave me" Frank pleads, his voice cracking and I frown as I say "You left and then went and danced half naked for other guys and didn't call, how am I meant to feel about that?" "Gee" Frank whines, his bottom lip quivering and I swallow hard before saying "Just tell me, if you don't want to move in just say no but why did you run away?" "I can't, Gee, please..." Frank starts, cutting himself off and I sigh softly before saying "Whatever it is, you can tell me anything." Frank looks down at his feet, his shoulders slumping slightly before he looks back up and the look of fear is still there in his eyes. "Frank" I say softly as I step forward and wrap my arms around him, pulling him into my chest and he clings to me, his body shaking a little and I start rubbing his back, shushing him softly and he slowly stops shaking, melting into me and once I feel he's fully calmed down I pull back a little and bring one hand up to cup Franks cheek. "It's alright" I tell him softly and he nods, sniffling softly before stepping back and grabbing my other hand, leading me down the hallway to my bedroom and once he's stripped down to his boxers we climb into bed together, his arms wrapping around me and I slide mine around him too as we huddle in the middle of the bed holding each other.

An hour passes and I lay with my eyes closed but I can't seem to fall asleep and Frank is silent but from his breathing I can tell he's still awake too. "Gee" he says softly, breaking the silence and I hum softly in acknowledgement. "I know I need to tell you, but I'm scared of what you'll think" he continues and I tighten my arm around him as I say "Whatever it is, I promise you it will be ok if you tell me." Frank remains silent, my hand starting to rub his back again and after a long pause he says "I've only ever lived with one other person, my boyfriend when I was 18 and it was all great in the beginning but after a while he started hurting me, he'd hit me when things weren't done the way he liked them to be done or if I went out and didn't tell him where I was going first. At first I just thought it was in the heat of the moment during an argument but it kept happening and over the most minor things and I kept thinking he'd change and stop and I had no where else to go but it took for him to hurt me in the worst way possible for me to realise I needed out and...." Frank trails off, a soft whine escaping him and I feel him shake as he starts to cry. "What happened?" I ask softly and Frank sniffles a few times before saying "I woke up one night and he was.....and it hurt and I begged him to stop but he wouldn't, he just kept going until he was done and then the next morning he wouldn't even look at me so I packed my things and left. So it's not that I don't want to move in, I want to be with you all the time it's just...." "You don't want to leave yourself open to that again" I interrupt him to say and he sniffles and nods, my arms pulling him even tighter against me until he's almost laying ontop of me and I bring one hand up to run through his hair. "I'm sorry that happened to you, I wish there was a way for me to make it better but all I can do is tell you that I've never raised a hand to anyone in my life and I don't plan to start now, especially not to you, you mean too much to me and I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you. I want you around always but I understand if you're not ready." We fall silent again after that, the tension that I felt before gone and I hold Frank close as he sniffles and whimpers, nuzzling my face in his hair and pressing soft kisses to the top of his head as I try to think of something to make him feel better until eventually he quietens down, going limp against my chest as he falls asleep and I close my eyes, slowly drifting off before I can think of anything.

A few days later Frank and I are back to how we were, a bag of his stuff at my place and we haven't discussed him moving in again but he's stayed every night so far and I smile to myself as I stand in the kitchen rinsing the dishes, putting them into the dishwasher as I listen to Frank in the living room with his guitar, the music stopping and starting as he pauses to write down what he's played, attempting to write a new song and once I've started the dishwasher I go back into the living room, pausing to lean against the doorframe as I watch Frank work, his forehead creased in concentration as he sits hunched over his guitar, his fingers working the strings. "Hey" he says softly, smiling wide when he looks up and sees me standing there and I smile too as I cross the room to sit beside him, Frank sitting his guitar aside before turning to face me. We stare into each other's eyes for a few seconds before Franks hands reach out to grip my hips, his upper body leaning forward until his lips are connected to mine and we start to kiss, starting out slow and soft before we both lean into it more and it gets more heated, Franks grip of my hips tightening before he stands, pulling me with him and we stumble towards the bedroom, collapsing on the bed together as we continue to make out. Things quickly turn frantic and Franks hands tug at my clothes as I tug at his and in what seems like seconds we are both naked, Frank climbing over me and grinding down against me as we kiss and I let my hands slide down to cup his ass, squeezing gently and feeling the plump flesh give way beneath my touch, Franks hips bucking down a little harder as I do and as I slip my fingers down between his cheeks, letting my fingertip brush over his hole his whole body shakes and he whines against my lips, pushing back into my touch and panting out "You're such a tease." "Oh yeah" I pant back, surging up and flipping us over and as Franks back hits the mattress I guide his legs apart, kneeling between them as I pull back and start kissing down his neck, my hands sliding up and down his sides as I kiss down his chest, my lips working down across his stomach and as I reach the trail of hair leading down to the base of his dick I close my eyes and breathe deeply, taking a moment to calm myself before I move down the last little inch and dart my tongue out, letting it touch the base of Franks dick before I trail up to the head, licking a wet stripe up the side of Franks dick and when I reach the head my tongue swipes across his slit and Frank gasps as his hips buck up, his hand coming down to touch the top of my head as he says "Are you sure?" I pull back and look up into Franks eyes, nodding slowly and he nods back before my head lowers again and I part my lips, letting the head of Franks dick slide between them and I keep going until I feel it hit the back of my throat, a strange but not entirely unpleasant taste invading my mouth and I breathe through my nose as I slide back up, Franks dick slipping from my mouth with a wet pop and Frank whines as I reach out to wrap my hand around the base of his dick, having gotten enough blowjobs to know basically what I'm doing and as I start to slide down his length again Frank groans and pants out "Will you fuck me?"

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