Where's your heart?

After a few minutes the lights come back on and the stage is empty, the DJ announcing that the bar is closing early and there is a dull rumbling of displeasure as everyone starts making their way towards the door. "Well that's a shame" I hear from behind me and I turn to see the bartender leaning against the counter, a bored expression on her face. "Looks like I won't get time for another drink" I say as I reach into my pocket for my wallet and the bartender smiles as she says "Don't sweat it sugar, maybe we'll see you around here again sometime." I smile, picking up my beer and draining the rest before sitting it back on the bar and standing, stretching a little before saying "Well thank you...." trailing off and the bartender smiles and says "Nicole." "Nicole" I repeat, smiling as I say "I'm Gerard." "See you around Gerard" she chirps, a strange look in her eye and as I turn to leave I see Frank approaching the bar, walking straight past me and I turn my head to watch him round the end of the bar and approach Nicole. "Nic, can I get a beer?" He asks and Nicole chuckles as she says "Can I see some ID?" "Oh fuck off" he replies, playfully pushing her and as Nicole starts to laugh I realise I'm standing there staring at them like a creep and I quickly turn, hurrying across the club to join the line of people filtering outside. Just as I go to walk through the door I hear my name being called and when I turn to look I see Nicole standing behind the bar holding up a jacket and it takes a second for me to realise it's mine, a sheepish smile spreading across my face as I make my way back over, my gaze drifting across to Frank who is now sitting on top of the bar with his legs crossed, a pile of bills sitting in front of him that he is counting and as I reach the bar he looks up and locks eyes with me, a cheeky smirk spreading across his lips as he winks at me and I temporarily forget how to move, feeling like I'm being sucked in by his stare. A few long seconds pass before I remember what's happening and I reach out and take my jacket from Nicole, smiling gratefully as I thank her before I turn to leave again, hearing a deep chuckle before a smooth voice says "Have a good night." I turn my head to look back at Frank, trying to figure out what to say back when I stumble into a nearby chair, almost tripping but catching myself on the table and I hear more chuckling as I straighten up and start walking faster, my face burning hot with humiliation as the sound of Nicole's laughter joins Franks.

A few days pass and I can't seem to get Frank out of my head, whenever my mind isn't preoccupied it focuses on the memory of his glistening upper body, his shiny parted lips under the stage lights and the deep depths of his eyes, my stomach tingling if I think about him for too long. It's a Tuesday night and Mikey and his boyfriend Pete have come over for our usual pizza and movie night and I am just finishing up telling them about stumbling into the gay strip club after the breakup, hoping to be able to laugh it off and move past it when the doorbell rings and I get up to answer, grabbing my wallet so I can pay for the pizza but when I open the door I freeze, those deep beautiful eyes that have been invading my thoughts and dreams staring right at me. "Uh" I choke out, recognition flickering in Franks eyes as he smiles and says "Hey, how you doin?" "Um" I stutter out, Franks smile growing wider after a few seconds as he says "So that'll be twenty nine seventy." I nod, breaking our staring match and digging through my wallet, handing him a fifty and telling him to keep the change. Franks eyes widen as he hands the boxes over and says "You sure?" "Uh yeah" I tell him, smiling awkwardly as I step back and start to close the door, Frank raising a hand to wave as he says "Well thanks," walking away from the door as I close it and once the door is closed I lean back against it, my eyes slipping closed as I breathe in through my nose, the scent of pizza and something else invading my senses and it takes me a moment to realise it's the scent of Frank and that it makes my stomach tingle all over again.

"So, what the hell was that?" Mikey laughs as I re enter the living room, both he and Pete smirking, clearly having listened to the exchange. "Nothing" I snap, sitting the boxes on the table as I turn and leave the room again, rushing down the hall towards the bathroom, needing a moment to collect myself before I rejoin Mikey and Pete in the living room. The rest of the night passes as usual, a terrible b grade horror movie and lots of laughter before Mikey and Pete head home, saying we should get together over the weekend before they leave. Once they're gone I tidy the living room before stripping down and climbing into bed, stretching out and letting my body relax, sleep coming easily tonight for a change.

I wake up a few hours later to a knocking on the door and when I glance over at the clock it's 1am, the knocking sounding again so I climb out of bed, pulling on a pair of sweat pants off the floor as I make my way out into the hallway, flicking on the light and as I open the front door I come face to face with Frank, a wide smile on his face as he says "Hey, you gonna invite me in?" A long second passes before I nod and step back, letting him in and as I close the door I turn to ask what he wants and as I turn his face is right there, his warm sweet breath washing over my face and all coherent thought leaves my brain. "What are..." I start to ask a few seconds later but I'm cut off by Franks lips colliding with mine, his tongue just swiping over my lip as I start to kiss back, my hands coming down to grip at his hips. "Been thinking about you for days" Frank gasps out as he pulls back for air and just as I lean in again, desperate for more a sharp piercing tone sounds out and my eyes snap open, my bedroom softly lit with early morning sunlight and I realise it was just a dream, my hand sliding up to touch my lips and my mind racing about what is going on with me, dreaming of a guy that way. I sigh as I throw back the sheets, rolling out of bed and stumbling across the hall to the bathroom, starting the water and letting the room get steamy before I step in, the water feeling amazing and helping my body relax but it does nothing to help my throbbing erection, refusing to go down so I slide my hand down, wrapping my fingers around the flesh as I stroke a few times, my toes curling a little at how good it feels and I slump back against the wall, my eyes slipping closed as I start a fast steady rhythm, sparks of pleasure shooting through me as I think about my ex and some of the wild things she liked to do and just as I start to feel close Frank kneeling on the stage sliding his hands all over his body, his cheeky smirk in place flashes through my mind and I cum so hard I almost double over, his name leaving my lips in a shaky gasp.

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