Only One Way

We got in the car and after a few minutes of not talking Mikey turned the radio up. He looked like he needed some comfort so I grabbed his hand and stroked it with my thumb. "You're so good to me Frank." Mikey said as we pulled into the parking lot of the hospital. Guilt rushed into me, he was smiling in his trusting way and even more guilt stirred.

i have to tell him "Mikey I'm-" you can't tell him now idiot, wait for Gerard to get better, he shouldn't be put through more heartbreak. "Yeah?" Mikey asked "Mikey, I'm really sorry about Gerard" it wasn't a lie but the guilt was still sitting at the bottom of my stomach.

Mikey sighed "I know, but it's not your fault" god he's so wrong. "I know but, it's still really terrible, and I've gotten so close to him." Understatment I thought, why is the guilt so bad now? When we're going to see his brother, who almost succeeded in killing himself.
"I know, it is and I have no idea what triggered him. But what's important is he's still alive."

Mikey explained and moved to get out of the car,I did the same. We got inside and told a nurse that we were here to see Gerard, and she told us the room he was in. It didnt take very long to find it and soon Mikey was knocking on the door

"Come in" Gerard said in a hoarse voice, and I was surprised to see that there were no tubes or anything attached to him, he did have one of those monitors things that track your heartbeat though.

he was wearing one of those hospital gowns and you could see his stiches and bandages going up his arm. Mikey ran over to him and carefully Gave him a hug. But I was frozen in place.

He didn't look like his usual self, the confident,cocky, and strong person that I know. In this room, he looked pale and small. He looked weak and he didn't have that teasing glimmer in his eyes, it was replaced by an apologetic look.

He weakly smiled at me, "hey Frank" it took all of my will to not burst out sobbing right there. "H-hey Gerard" I replied shakily. It felt like I was gonna have a panic attack, god, i haven't had one of those in years.

I started taking deep breathes cause I couldn't let Gee see how much I was affected by this, it'd just cause even more problems. He might even try to hurt himself again. I smiled at him and shot him a loving look before I sat down in one of the chairs.

Mikey started talking to Gee and I even said a few things. At one point Mikey started crying and Gerard and I comforted him. After about forty-five minutes of us all just talking Mikey's phone started ringing and he said that he needed to take it then excused himself from the room.

I made my way to Gerard and gave him a tight hug, being careful to not hurt him. "god Gee I'm so sorry. I love you so much I didn't mean for this to happen." I sobbed into his chest. "Shh, it's okay I'm still here." Gerard cooed into my hair.

I sat up, "Gee, promise you'll never try they again. I know we're toxic, that we're not good for eachother but I can't live without you, you need to stay with me." "I promise, Frankie baby, I thought you'd be happier without me." He said and a confused look spread across my face. "No Gee, I need you, your the only thing keeping me going." "I promise I'll stay with you baby." He brought me in for another hug "forever and always?" I whispered "forever and always" he confirmed and we broke away. Just in time too because Mikey walked in a second later.

That was mom, she was wondering how you were doing. I shot Gerard a concerned look, from what he told me I figured he wasn't on good terms with his mom, he just shrugged.

"we should probably get going " Mikey said and went to give Mikey a hug. I did too i gave him the flower and note. When I was hugging him I whispered, "don't open it until I'm gone." Then I broke away. "Goodbye Gerard" Mikey said, and I waved half-heartedly then we left the hospital room.

Notes

I think this chapter is pretty good. You guys still liking this story?