"Haha no we're not," Gerard said turning the car out of our drive way. I look at him in shock. Complete and utter shock.

"I'm sorry Gerard, but when have you been the dictator in our relationship," I say turning towards him in my seat. He bit his lip, turning up the radio continuing to drive.

"Answer me," I yell over the music, he glares at me turning it up. "Fucking cunt," I mumble getting my phone from my pocket going threw tumblr.

I find one of favorite accounts- relationshipadviceforqueers and I type in my question anonymously, hoping they'd answer mine publicly. Hi my boyfriend once to keep our relationship a secret and I tried to break things off and he won't let me. What do I do?

"We're using the 'b' word now aren't we," Gerard yells over the music. I look up at him smirking looking at my phone. I turn down the music turning to my side, "shut the fuck up and do some grown up shit,". His smirk disappears and his eyes return to the road, turning up the God damn radio up even louder.

He goes to his phone typing up a stupid Goddamn text ignoring me. I huff, looking out the window.

He's being an asshole. He doesn't love me, he wants me for sex. I'm his personal household boy toy. I can't fucking leave because I'm like five, and he's thirty. I'm stuck here until I graduate. I'll visit on holidays, get a boyfriend who's way hotter than Gerard. I make him jealous and still get sex in the process. Because I'm not good enough for him. I'll never be. I'm not enough, I'm never enough.

"we're here," he says pulling into a parking lot. He stops the car, and we get out. I speed walk to the door just to avoid any awkward situations between us.

I make it into the mall. I stood there for a bit feeling a hand on my back. I roll my eyes and turned behind me. It's Pete.

"uh- hi Pete,". I turn so I'm facing towards him. "Hey Frank...look here isn't the best place to talk- come on," he grabs me by my forearm dragging me to the restroom. "Pete what the-,". He opens the door. Gerard's standing there, roses all over. Candles. Mikey's helping him with a tie, which he can't seem to get. I smile, shaking out of Petes grip and going over to them. I lightly push Mikey out of the way and tie his tie.

"I used to go to Catholic school. I know how to tie a tie," he smiles,as I finish. He wraps his arms around my waist, pulling into him closely. I wrap my arms around his neck looking up at him smiling. We sway back and forth lightly.

"um we'll leave you to alone," Mikey says with a smirk. He puts a 'out of order' sign on the bathroom entrance door.

We we stay like this for a bit, then he connected our lips together. We slowly stop dancing and he makes our way to the ground. He pins me down to the ground not even bothering to stop kissing me. He starts kissing down my jawline, making his way to my neck, kissing my neck lightly (so won't leave any hickeys for my mother to see[because there married]). Then he stops looking up at me.

"Frank- I just don't wanna have 'sex' this time. I want to make love," he say getting close to my face. I smile, kissing him. I guess he does care.

I use my hand to go to his belt, unbuckling it. I pulled down his pants and boxers letting out his erection. I let my fingers touch it lightly as he let out a shaky moan. He undid my jeans, while sucking on my collar bone- because fuck it.

He pulls down my pants and my boxers. I kick them off leaving me in a shirt and shoes. He takes his hand, grabbing lube from his pants pocket. "I'm gonna put some lube on my dick and I'm just stick it in," I nod my head waiting for this to happen. He puts it on letting out a moan as he puts it on. I wrap my legs around his waist. He finishes putting his hands my thighs, before he puts his cock into my entrance.

Then he starts putting himself in, God this hurts. "G-Gerard," I say feeling a tear slipping down slowly.

"I'm- so sorry your so tight," he says sliding himself fully inside of me. He starts moving himself slowly, and speeds up. Then- like before its start feeling amazing like always, "G-Gerard," I say panting, as he moves a bit faster. He leans down kissing my neck and moving a bit faster, inside of me. "Gee right there," I say a bit loudly. He smiles against my skin hitting that spot again moving a bit faster. I moan loudly.

My legs begin to feel weak and drop, before they hit the ground he picks them up throw his legs over his shoulders. "Frank I love you," he say closely to my ear. With that I met my climax, cumming all over my shirt. Then I feel, hot liquid fill my insides. He pants pulling out of me, having my legs in his hands, putting them down, gently.

He pants, moving to my side, snuggling close to me. "This is why we can't separate from each other. I need you Frank. Your like a drug to me, I need you touch. I need your kisses. I need you. Your the best thing that happen to me in awhile. The first time we met I knew I had to make you mine. Because- I fell for you as soon as I saw your eyes for the first time," he says. I kiss his head,mumbling "I love you too" in his hair. God this is right. This was amazing this was the best I've ever been. I want him. He's gonna be mine. Fuck my mom, he's mine.

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"Frank get the door," my mother yells from the kitchen. I roll my eyes, fixing the dress clothes Pete and Mikey picked for me while Gerard illegal made love in a public restroom. I look at myself mumbling, "thanks Pete,".

I run down the stairs, getting the door.

"D-dad,". He smiles looking at me, "hi son. Your mother invited me," I gulp. Gerard walks up behind me putting his arm on my shoulder. "Frank! Come on in," he says with a smile letting him in. His wife and I'm guessing step children follow. I feel an awkward feeling sink in my stomach.

"What's wrong Frankie," Gerard say concerned, pulling me up the stairs.
"My- dad I haven't seen him since I was three...and my mom has talked to him," he bit his lip.

"For eight months now,".

My feet felt weak, I fell to the ground. "You're being over dramatic ya know," Gerard said falling next me. Tears fell from my eyes, and stared at me in shock. "I- um...come here," he said opening his arms out for me to crawl in. I did crawling in letting him awkwardly hold me. "I love you Frankie," he said kissing my cheek.

After a few minutes, I stopped crying and he moved. We talked for about four minutes before my mom called him down. He left apologizing I shrugged it off looking around my room for my phone. I saw it light up on my dresser and I went up to it. Going to tumblr seeing what I wanted to see.

relationshipadviceforqueers- dump his ass. I'm sorry kid, but he's a punk and your a gem. You deserve to shine

Notes

Sorry if the smut sucked. I haven wrote smut sense I was like eleven honestly. Well I have chores to do. So bye bye