"Frankie your beautiful- you know that," Gerard say as he wrapped his arms around me snuggling in the crook in my neck.

I smiled running my fingers threw his hair, "thanks gee,". It's the first time we'd been in a bed without having sex. It's nice, and I find it enjoyable I wonder if he does.

He lays on his back letting go of me. I lay down in my side letting my head fall on his chest. I look up at him and he smiles with his eyes close.

Man this week has been the best week of my life, tomorrow's Friday and my mom comes back Saturday. I'm nervous on what's gonna happen between me and Gee when she returns. I know this is wrong, but I think I'm falling for him. This isn't no longer just sex. It's more, I shouldn't have let this happen. At least my mom goes on a lot of business trips.

Yet I can't think that this week has made me feel something for him, I'm falling for him ever so slowly. I'm falling for my first love. It should feel wrong and it does but tonight- tonight just makes me think positive thoughts. God I'm happy.

"Wanna skip school tomorrow hun," Gerard say all of a sudden.

"Mm yeah," I answer. He laughs lightly, he uses his left arm to fall behind my back, man this is gonna be hard to ever let go of.

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I woke up alone in bed. This is odd...I'm usually up before him. I get out of bed rubbing my eyes. The doors closed to my room, which never happens.

What's happening?

I open the door walking down the stairs, the sounds of laughter and the smell of coffee, and then I see my mother.

"M-mom," I stutter.

All the feelings I had before, shattered I'm a stupid teen in love, this isn't love it's sex and dinner. But- it's a relationship I just to say. I do like Gerard but I can't do this- I shouldn't do this. It's 50 shades of wrong. The positive thoughts are gone, reality is setting back in.

She turns around seeing me and smiles, "Frank," she runs up to me giving me and hug. I see Gerard leaning on the other side of the counter he mouthed 'I'm sorry'. I flip him off then hugging my mom back,

"You came back early," I said finally speaking in full sentences. She unwrapped her arms from around me, "I was worried about you staying with Gerard but when I came back- he was in your room and he told me you had a nightmare and how you too have grown close,".

Not in the way you want.

"Yeah we have," I said walking over to the coffee pot getting a mug and pouring some coffee.

"Well later today I wanna throw a dinner today. And Frank needs new nice jeans- Gerard can you take him since he's already missed half of school. So he's just gonna play hooky," he mother smiled.

I sighed, I don't wanna go to the store with Gerard. I am going to have to end this and I'm gonna do it today on the ride there. I mean I have no choice. I just wanna have a normal relationship with him but with my mom being here we can't. I don't even wanna try anymore.

I smile, "okay mom,". I took of sip of my coffee shooting Gerard a glare.

She claps her hands, "wonderful! Frankie you get ready,".

I huffed walking out of the kitchen with my coffee.

It's so hard to smile when you have no reason to smile, when your with someone you don't wanna end something that's good. Could we even have been anything? He's my stepdad, and what we're doing is probably highly illegal- wait

is this illegal?

I practically started running up the stairs to my room, I tripped trying to open the door spilling the coffee all over my myself, "shit," I yell.

"Frank your language," my mother yells from downstairs.

I roll my eyes, setting the mug on my book shelf.

I run over to phone, picking it up in my hands, googling what's the age of consent in New Jersey?

Sixteen, okay it's sixteen.

I sigh in relief laying on my bed. I notice I'm still in my coffee stained clothes, God this is gross.

I throw my shirt across the room and my over sized Pajama pants. I go to my dresser pulling out some jeans and blue shirt, throwing a sweatshirt over it.

I walk into the bathroom brushing my hair a bit. I sighed, I looked disgusting.

I make it down downstairs, Gerard's ready to go. I sigh, "ready to go," he says. I nod.

We make our way to the car, he's silent as we make it out of out street. I take its my turn to talk so I open my mouth with words I know Gerard fucking Way will not wanna here, "this needs to end," I look at him, "were over Gerard,".

Notes

My mom had her baby.
this story is very much an outlet for me. I mean it's not my favorite but whatever.

this paragraph will be on all my fics) Alirghty well I'm not doing too well mentally and physically. I'm not depressed I'd say- I just say I'm in a sad funk. I think my boyfriend and I are breaking up soon- and I don't wanna bother you with that. But if I'm. On here less I'm sorry, I'll be posting some new fics to wattpad (I don't wanna post too many on here [username- happy_gerard]) and I'll be still, writing a lot I just don't have the energy to post or sometimes even write. All my energy is going towards work and my mother. I just have a lot a problems right now. You can message (please) me I'm a lonely human.

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