Mikey stands above Gerard and me. His eyes narrowed, a slight frown set on his face. He is obviously uncomfortable with how close his brother and I are. In truth I don’t understand why. Gerard has gotten over what happened and so what if he turns out to be gay. Shouldn’t Mikey just be happy that his brother is happy?

Amber leans over and whispers something in Mikey’s ear. I feel a twang of jealousy in my stomach but do my best to ignore it, continuing to laugh with Gee.

Mikey takes a step towards us. We are rolling around on the floor acting like two immature children. In my eyes there is nothing wrong with that. Mikey thinks differently.

"Get it together, men!" Mikey instruct, beginning to tickle Gerard on the stomach.

"Oof," Gee coughs, sitting up, cross legged, looking up at him, his eyes watery from all the laughing he’d just been doing; I don’t like how Mikey is acting.

"Mikey...he just fell on top of me again!"

"I know bro," Mikey responds with an eye roll before looking back over at Amber who is smiling. He frowns at her, obviously not please that she isn't taking his side on this issue.

He’s not amused. Holding out his hands for both of us to grab, we end up pulling him on the floor between us. Although Gerard and I laugh, Mikey seems frustrated.

"What the fuck?" he grumbles, rolling over onto his back. "You guys really need to fucking calm down, all right?"

He’s still not laughing though both Gee and I are. Mikey sits up, crossing his arms across his chest, a look of pure anger in his eyes. Amber drops to her knees behind him, massaging the base of his neck. His face contorts, pleasure washing over him. I know how he feels. Amber’s massages are amazing.

"Come on, bro, loosen up!" Gerard says, looking at me.

"Aaaah, I see what you did there...." I smile at my friend enjoying the pun. Gerard smiles back.

Mikey doesn’t say anything. Instead his eyes are closed. It looks like he’s going to have an orgasm or something.

"Mikey, seriously dude, calm down," Gerard says, much more serious. "What's wrong, bro?"

"You want me to calm down,” Mikey question, shrugging off Amber’s hands, looking at his older, with a disappointed look.

The redhead comes to sit next to me and my hand goes directly to her knee. It’s bare, her pants ripped out to expose her knee and a little of her thigh. I’ve never wanted to jump someone’s bones more in my life. She wears a slight frown, a look of worry gracing her eyes. She's obviously concerned about Mikey.

"Yeah."

"Me, calm down?" Mikey's words coming out in a short of growl at the end.

"Yeah, bro....”

Mikey roll my eyes, shaking his head as Amber reaches her arm over his shoulder, trying to take his hand. He bats it away, eye still focused on his older brother. I don't like the way Mikey is treating Amber right now. She hasn't done anything wrong. All she's trying to do is help him calm down and fee better about the situation. I pull her into a side hug as Mikey begins to talk about, "How am I supposed to calm down, when my own mother thinks that I am, in fact, now gay? How would you feel about that, huh?"

Both Gerard and I just blink at him, wordless. I look at the floor, feeling slightly ashamed. I never meant for his mom to walk in. I should have gotten off when we heard the door. Instead, I didn’t. I staid sitting on top of him, letting his mom walk in on the questionable scene. I'm such an idiot. Gerard just frowns at his brother. Amber does nothing, allowing me to continue to drag my fingers up and down her arm.

"That's what I thought...." he says, standing up. He holds his hand out to Amber who quickly takes it, standing next to the younger Way. Together, Amber and Mikey begin to walk across the room. I can’t have him be mad at me. I don’t want to loose a friend over something like this.

“Mikey, wait,” I say, standing up and walking over to him.

I put my hand on his shoulder, looking him straight in the eyes, “Look, I didn't mean to have it look like that...but admit it, your mom just came in at the worst possible moment. Shit happens."

Mikey just takes a breath and shrugs, holding Amber closer to him as if to say she’s mine, you can’t have her; as if he’s purposely rubbing it in my face, “Look, I just don’t want to be that kid that’s made fun of because of that shit. I get picked on enough already.”

Gerard stands up and joins us in our circle, patting Mikey’s back, trying to calm him down.

"Look, Mikes," he says. "No one's gonna know, okay? Frank and I aren't going to say anything...neither would Amber –” Gee pauses – "I don't know about mom. If I were you I'd go up and try and talk some sense into her, yeah?"

Mikey nod, glancing over at Amber who looks mildly upset by the whole thing; I’ll have to ask her about it later.

"And as for people calling you gay... I get it at least six times a day, bro. Just look at me,” Gerard steps back so we can get the full picture. He points to the areas he is talking about as he goes on. "My hair, my face, my body...it's all feminine, okay. And look at you...you're a stick, straight as an arrow, Mikey, plus you’ve got a girlfriend. No one's ever going to think that you're gay, alright?"

Mikey nod as Gerard steps back into our circle and we all combine into one massive group hug.

"Anyway, I was on top...you'd think you’re mom would think I was the gay one, not you..." I whisper in Mikey’s ear as we hug, hoping that will make him feel somewhat batter.

We let go of each other, and Gerard put his hands on his hips, "So, it's Saturday afternoon...what are we gonna do?"

The rage and love, the story of my life

Mikey and I shrug as Amber glances at her phone, biting at her cherry red, bottom lip. Something is bothering her today. I just wish I knew what. Usually she’s not on edge like this.

"That's helpful..." Gerard says.

"Well, my dad told me to do chores today, but it's a shitload...so if you guys want to come over and help, I mean..." I trail off.

It is silent for a few minutes.

"Fuck it, let's go." Mikey says, finally, shrugging.

"Awesome, man, thank you so much!"

I hug Mikey and he smiles slightly, looking at Gerard, who shrugs. I’m so thankful for them offering to help. There is no way I’d get it done all by myself and dad always gets angry if it’s not done the way he likes it.

As we all head upstairs I hide behind Gerard just in case his mom decides to show up out of the blue again. The last thing I want to face is an angry Ms. Way.

Notes

Sorry it's taken me so long to update guys, I've been dealing with some stuff. I should be updating at least once every few days to make up for it though.
Song: Are We the Waiting by Green Day