The Light Behind His Eyes (Frerard)

No, Frank! Don’t even go there! Seriously, who the fuck do you think you are?
No. I can’t do that. I can’t take advantage of Gerard like that, knowing how fragile he is. Sure, he may be a lot less like that than he was on day one when we first met, but that really isn’t saying much. He’s still so badly broken. I still don’t know everything he’s been through, and god forbid I ever make Gerard lose himself again, being reminded of one of those dark and haunting memories. What we did in the bathtub that one time doesn’t even come close to what I so badly wanna do to him right now. I feel so dirty for even thinking of doing such a thing to Gerard. What kind of person does that make me? A very shallow, disgusting person that thinks with his own dick instead of his mind, wherever the fuck it may be right now.
“Baby,” Gerard whined, catching me off guard all caught up in my conflicting thoughts. “Sugar, what’s wrong?”
“Oh, nothing,” I shook my head. “Sorry, kinda spaced off,”
“I call bullshit on that, Frankie. I know something’s bugging you,” Gerard smirked, throwing his head back and laughing a little. It’s a little unsettling, for some reason. “I may be a little fucking crazy, sure...but I’m not a bumbling idiot,”
“No, Gerard. I’m serious,” I lied, begging him in my mind to just drop it already. “Really, I’m okay,”
“Are you sure about that?” Gerard said almost condescendingly, the snide grin still on his face. “Something tells me you’re lying,”
“No, I’m not,” I fibbed again. “Seriously, Gerard. I’m fine,”
From the unconvinced look on Gerard’s face, I could easily tell he’s just not buying into what I’m telling him. He shrugged his shoulders, giving the matter a big old “fuck it”, deciding to not press on about it. At least, that’s what I think he’s doing…
“Alright then, Frankie. Whatever you say,’ Gerard pulled me closer to him, our lips meeting each other’s yet again. I closed my eyes, kissing him back, already feeling the lusty urges inside of me grow stronger, much to my ironic dismay. I can’t let this happen. I need to hold myself back and just keep my horny self on a leash already. I just can’t-
“Frankie…” Gerard moaned, his lips constantly being smothered against mine as we kissed again and again. “Baby...I can’t take it anymore…”
“What?” I asked. “What do you-”
Gerard sat himself up and right on top of me, pinning me to his bed (something he seems to like doing a lot. I guess it gives him a sense of dominance in a way, despite how vulnerable he is deep down). He then threw off his t-shirt, the sight of his bare torso making me just wanna fucking-
“Here, sugar,” Gerard reached for my shirt and peeled it right off of me, tossing it to the floor. He smiled, leaning back over me with his face just inches above mine, his black tousles of hair veiling above me. “There, that’s better, isn’t it? It was just getting really hot and stuffy in here…y’know? I know what you want, baby...and I wanna give it to you. I can tell you want it so bad. Like I said, I’m not a bumbling idiot. I know things, sugar pop...”
Holy fuck, Gerard...is this for real? Now you’ve really done it. I just can’t hold back any longer now. No fucking way.
I cupped my hands around Gerard’s warm face and pulled him up to mine, closing my eyes as we continued to kiss deeply, our breaths growing heavier as each minute went by. I ran my hands up and through Gerard’s smooth hair, clutching at it and hearing him moan through his kissing lips.
“Mmmm…oh, baby,” he whispered, his hands clawing at the skin my sides, down my chest and to the pelvis, stinging in that same way I love so fucking much, like he’s always done ever since that night in the bathtub. I breathed in deeply, letting out a moan under my breath, feeling the ecstasy of the erotic hurt he’s inflicting upon me.
“Yes, honey, yes…” I said. “Just like that, Gee. That feels so...ahh!” I flinched, feeling a biting pain at the side of my neck, just below my ear. Gerard is still on top of me, his face buried into my shoulder, his teeth nibbling and kissing the place he just bit me as he continued to dig his nails into my body. I breathed out deeply, loving every second of it. He caught me off guard, and that’s what makes it feel even better.
“Frankie, baby...you taste so good,” he muttered, licking his lips that are still close to my neck. He took another bite, his hands running up and down my torso. I pulled harder at his hair, my whole body trying to contain itself. I can’t stop moaning and panting. I am sweating so much. I swear I am shaking a little, too. I can feel the blood in my veins rushing so fast. I can barely take it.
Gerard’s hand snaked down from my chest to my hips, then further down to in between my legs, stroking at the crotch of my pants as his mouth continued to go to town on my neck. He unfastened my jeans and pulled down my underpants, wrapping his hand around my semi-hard cock and caressing it gently. That was when I just could not hold back any longer.
“Yes, Gee…” I moaned, throwing my head back with my eyes tightly shut. “Oh, fuck. That’s it, Gee. Keep going, hun,”
“With pleasure,” Gerard inched his face back up to mine, moving back to my lips, one hand around my hardening cock, and the other stroking the back of my head. His strokes are so rhythmic, starting off nice and slow, pre-cum leaking from me more and more as the jerking grew faster, just like our kissing. I don’t know how long this went on, because time seemed to either slow down or come to a complete stop. I don’t care, though. I can never put into good enough words how fucking amazing this feels. I can’t even remember the last time I’ve felt this way, but it’s clear how much I missed it. This goes way beyond what we did during Gerard’s bubble bath that one night so long ago. I can feel myself on edge right now. I know I’m gonna come soon. I can so fucking feel it right now.
“Oh, honey,” I breathed, our lips still close and kissing. “Gerard, oh my god…”
“What is it, baby?”
“Holy fuck, Gerard...I’m gonna...ohhhh!” An orgasmic cry escaped from my lips as I ejaculated, the cum splattering all over my bare chest. I breathed in and out with my eyes closed, smiling and feeling so relieved. I had to let it all out, and that’s just what Gerard helped me do.
“Did you have fun, sugar pop?” Gerard grinned, his face parting from mine and making it’s way down to my chest, his tongue licking up the mess I made on it just moments ago...or rather, the mess we made together.
“I sure fucking did, honey. That was amazing!” I think even saying that would be an understatement. It was so much more than that. It was just that good. Too good, in fact. Something tells me this isn’t Gerard’s first time doing this. There’s no way in hell he can be this good if this is his first time (at least, his first time on someone else). Whether or not it really is, it doesn’t matter. I’m not through just yet. I’ve tasted blood, and I want more. My whole body just craves it. It’s my turn, now...and I know exactly what I wanna do, but that’s only if Gerard will let me. “Hey, honey,”
“Yes, baby?” Gerard sat up next to me, licking his lips clean from the cum he just slurped up off of me.
“What about you? Did you enjoy all that?” I leaned in closer to Gerard, my hand stroking his hot and blushing cheek.
“Of course, Frankie. I loved it. Why do you ask?”
“Because…,” I whispered, kissing his lips softly. “I’m still hungry. I think there’s enough room for dessert,”
I think I almost burst out into laughter seeing the flustered look on Gerard’s face. His cheeks are as red as tomatoes, his eyes wide and mouth slightly ajar. I don’t think it ever dawned on him that I’d come this strong on to him, but he knows that it’s my turn now. I’m ready for round two. I’m gonna blow him away...literally.
“Holy fuck, Frankie…” Gerard laughed a little, shakily easing himself down on the bed and gazing up at me in awe, my body towering over him. “You’re just...oh my god, you’re fucking-”
“Shh,” I hushed him, putting my finger over his lips. “Just sit back and relax, honey…” I slid myself outta my jeans and laid myself down on top of Gerard, wrapping my arms around his body and adorning his lips with mine. Not even a minute into us kissing and he’s already moaning and whimpering, his hands grasping and wanting my body, as much as I want his right now. I slowly kissed my way down his face to his neck, then to his chest, to his tummy, and finally down to his hips. I groped at the bulge in between his legs hiding under the fabric of his boxers, massaging it. He’s already getting hard, and I’ve barely even started. I pulled out his dick from under his underwear, starting to stroke and jerk it gently. With his schlong in one hand, I laid back down next to Gerard, our lips meeting each other’s yet again.
“Oh...oh god, baby...yes,” Gerard muttered under his breath, his head planted down on a pillow, looking so relaxed and peaceful as I kissed him and stroked his hard and throbbing cock. “Don’t stop, Frankie,”
“Of course I won’t. We’ve only just begun, after all...” I inched my way back to Gerard’s dick, now moist from the pre-cum leaking out of it. I swirled my tongue around it, licking some of it off the shaft, then went in for the kill, wrapping my lips around it, sucking on it just like a popsicle on a hot summer day. I kept on jerking it, making sure to stay in rhythm as my hand stroked faster, the huffs and moans escaping from Gerard growing louder and deeper.
“Ohhh….ahhh, baby!” he cried out, his hand clutching at my hair. “Keep going, sugar pop--ahhh!”
I sucked harder and harder, slowly deep-throating his schlong down my throat, making sure to not gag, which is not that easy. Did I forget to mention that it’s at an impressively large size, and that it’s also nice and thick? I may not have had a lot of action like this with other guys, but I can honestly say that he’s got one of the nicest cocks I’ve ever seen. He’s shaking and sweating so much right now, his breaths growing fast and frantic. I know he’s so close to coming right now. I can feel it coming, too. At any second now, he’s gonna explode…
“Oh, Frankie!” Gerard nearly screamed. “Holy fuck, Frankie. I’m gonna cum, baby...oh, god...fuuuck!”
And, at that moment, that’s exactly what happened. I tasted the warm, salty cum ejaculating from his cock in my mouth, colliding with my tongue. I gulped it right up, swirling my tongue around him one last time before I released my mouth from him. My whole body crashed right down and back next to him, clinging on to his semi-naked and fatigued body. He seriously looks so worn out after all that fun he just had, just like me. I’m fucking exhausted, but my god, is my body now satisfied.
“Oh god, Frankie,” Gerard smiled, despite the tiredness clear in all of him. “That was...amazing! You’re amazing, baby!”
“Just like you, Gee,” I sang, snuggling up next to him, both our bodies hot and sweaty from the action we just had together. “That was so much fun, seriously. Did you have fun?”
“Yeah, of course I did. It’s just that…” the smile faded from Gerard’s lips, turning into a frown of utter doubt.
“What’s wrong, hun?” I asked, wanting to turn that frown upside down, as cheesy as that sounds. “Just what?”
“Oh, nothing, baby,” Gerard shook his head. “I was just gonna say that...I never thought I would ever be with someone like you, Frankie. I never thought I’d ever be able to have times like this with someone like you. Of course, that’s not the only reason I have so many feelings for you, but you know what I’m saying. Before I met you, I thought I was just gonna live my life all alone with nobody to love and be with, and die a lonely man. But here I am, with you,” He took my face and cupped his hand in my cheek, his thumb stroking it gently. “Seriously, I still don’t know how in the hell I even deserve to have someone precious like you. If my younger self knew that one day in the future I was gonna be with you, Frankie, I probably woulda been a much happier person, I think. I thought I was gonna live my whole life forever alone in this basement, but I guess I’m wrong now, aren’t I?”
“Oh my god, Gee,” I laughed, my face probably so piping hot and red from how much I must be blushing right now. I swear, Gerard never fails to make me feel so flattered and warm inside. “Of course you are! You deserve to be with someone you love. No one deserves to be alone, especially you, honey,”
“I guess you’re right, Frankie,” Gerard shrugged. Before I could fight with him about the matter and tell him that I know for a fact I’m right, I felt a yawn emerge from within me, as well as my eyes grow heavy. I’m really getting tired...for real, this time. I need to sleep. That’s what my body is screaming at me right now. I laid my head down on Gerard’s bare chest, the sound of his heartbeat loud and clear. It’s so fast. His body still hasn’t fully settled down from what we just did together. I’ll be damned if I’m wrong.
“Hold up, baby,” Gerard sat up, gently pushing me off as he got up outta bed. I groaned, begging him to just come back to me so I could cuddle with him. I need to be close to him. I wanna fall asleep next to him.
”But Gee!” I whined. “Come back, honey. I’m getting cold. I wanna sleep with you,”
”I know, sugar. I know. I wanna sing you to sleep, Frankie. I’ve been wanting to sing this little song to you for quite a while, now...and I think now is a good time,” Gerard pulled out one of his vinyls and placed it on the player, turning it on. As the song “Superstar” by The Carpenters began to play, he came right back to bed, and I clung right on to him before he could have the chance to get under the covers. He smiled, wrapping my body in his arms and pulling me close to his, cradling me so delicately as his hand stroked at my cheek.
”Sing to me, hun,” I whispered, curling my finger in a lock of his smooth midnight black hair.
”Long ago, and oh so far away,” he started, his voice not shy of being so goddamn beautiful and breathtaking, just like himself. “I fell in love with you, before the second show. Your guitar, it sounds so sweet and clear. But you’re not really here. It's just the radio…”
With my ears once again being blessed with his phenomenal voice, I shut my eyes, letting it lull me to sleep, until Gerard suddenly took my chin in his hand, lifting my head up to face him, his eyes seeming to shimmer in the dark as he continued to sing to me.
“Don’t you remember you told me you loved me, baby? Said you’d be coming back this way again, baby. Baby, baby, baby, baby, oh baby. I love you…” he paused, leaning his face closer into mine, his lips just inches away from mine. “I really do…,” he whispered, before his lips closed the gap in between us.
“Oh, Gerard,” I whispered as our lips continued to kiss each other’s over and over again. “I love you too-”
“Guys?” another voice emerged, followed by the door opening. It’s Mikey.
Oh, no...oh, fuck! Oh god, please, no-
“We ordered some pizza, if you guys wanna come upstairs and-”
“Mikey, wait!” I exclaimed, my whole body jolting upwards as I hid my naked self under the covers of the bed, just milliseconds before Mikey’s eyes came into contact with us. The look on his face was absolutely priceless, as if he...well, just walked in on me and Gerard naked in bed together, of course.
“Hey, ever heard of knocking?” Gerard exclaimed, his face flushed red with embarrassment as he held the covers up and over his bare body.
“Oh my god, no!” Mikey cried out, covering his eyes and running right back outta the basement. “Gerard, what the fuck? My eyes! My eyes!”
I turned back around to look at Gerard, who was no longer blushing now, but instead kicking and screaming with hysterical laughter, which only started to make me laugh just as much. I fell right back down next to Gerard, unable to wipe away the tears from my reddening face.
Despite the incident that had unfolded just moments ago, I slept like a baby that night, close to the man that showed to me what love truly does feel like.

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