Obsessed with you

Gerard's pov


I woke up with a really bad headache, I felt really dizzy and stoned still, and my ass hurt like hell. "Fuck." I groaned roling over, Frank was laying there next to me asleep, wait why is he in bed with me, why the fuck am I naked. I sat up in bed causing Frank to wake up, why the fuck was he in my bed. "Good morning babe." Frank yawned sitting up, wait did we do stuff. "Uh w...why are you in be bed? And why does my ass hurt so fucking much?" I said wincing in pain when I say up all the way, Frank laughed. "You wanted me to fuck you so I did." He laughed trailing a hand down my back, my heart stopped, what the actually fuck. "What?! No, no, no that couldn't have happened. I took a hand full of my sleeping pills and then blacked out. You...you took advantage of me." I said shaking, fuck I was having a panic attack, I couldn't breath, and I felt really dizzy. Frank looked at me concerned and scooted closer to me. "Are you okay Frankie?" He asked wrapping an arm around me, I shook my head weakly, I felt like throwing up. "Let's get you to the bathroom, a shower will help." Frank sounded distant as he helped me to the bathroom, Frank turned the shower on, I got in without taking my boxers off. I sat down and wrapped my arms around my self and started to cry. Frank rubbed my back but it made me cry even more, he took advantage of me when I was out of my mind. I wanted someone with me and he was the best I was gonna get, he didn't comfort me, he made me feel worse. "Can y...you get Mi...Mikey?" I studdered, he nodded and got up, I rocked back and forth trying to calm down but failed. Mikey walked in, he lokked at me and gave me a sad smile, I held my arms out and he walked over and gave me a hug. "Hey little dude." Mikey said ruffling my hair, he always know how to make me smile. I stood up and got out of the shower, I looked in the mirror, I looked like shit like always. My sides were had fresh and old cuts, so did my arms, I was extremely pale, my lips were cracked and dry, and I have dark lines under my eyes, at least my eyes weren't red from crying. I tried off and went back into my bedroom, Mikey turned around so I could take my soaked boxers off, I put new pair on and some sweat pants on. I laid down in bed and pasted out right away.
I woke up, it was completely dark outside, Mikey was asleep next to me holding my hand, he was so good to me and I didn't deserve it. Frank wasn't in there but I could hear someone upstairs in the kitchen. I sighed and looked at Mikey, I loved him so much, I wouldn't let anyone hurt you Mikey. It was midnight, I wasn't tired so I sat there and and ran a hand through Mikey's hair, he mumbled something in his sleep. I smiled down at him and got up, I slid my pants off and put my onesie on. I walked upstairs and into the kitchen, Frank was there making a sandwich. "Oh hey, do you want one?" He asked handing me one, I shook my head and pointed at the coffee that smelled freshly made. He laughed and gave me a full mug, I took a couple of sips not making eye contact with him. "So do you feel any better?" He asked concerned, I shrugged and took another sip, he sighed and started to eat his sandwich. Mikey came in a few minutes later yawning. "I woke up and you weren't there anymore. You okay Gee?" Mikey asked taking my coffee from me and taking a sip. "I would be better if you didn't steal my coffee all the time." I laughed taking my coffee back, Frank handed him a full mug. We sat there in silence for a while just drinking our coffee, Frank broke the silence by getting up and yawning. "I'm gonna go back to bed, night guys." He said waving at us and walking to Mikey's room. Me and Mikey sat at the table, I downed three mugs of coffee before getting up and giving Mikey a hug. "I can stay with you tonight if you want." Mikey said hugging me back tightly. "I'm okay Mikey, don't worry about me, I'm just gonna go back to bed." I said waking back to my room and shutting the door, I laid in bed putting my headphones in and turned the music up all the way. I laid there for about an hour trying to fall back asleep, I sat up frustrated and took my headphones out. I walked over to my dresser and looked through all of the pill bottles that were there. I finally found my sleeping pills, I thought about taking more than I should but took two instead. I laid in bed again not putting the covers on and closed my eyes, I could feel the pills kicking in. I heard the door open and then shut, I was to tired to open my eyes. I felt really dizzy, it felt like the room was spinning. I felt someone lay down next to me and wrap an arm around my waist. I literally couldn't even move if I wanted to, the pills were definitely kicking in. I feel asleep to that person petting my hair.
I woke up to the sound of someone humming, wait why was someone in my bed. I slowly opened my eyes, Frank was smiling at me, I yelped and fell off the bed. "Fuck my ass." I groaned sitting up slowly, my ass hurt like hell. "Sorry for scaring you Gee." Frank said leaning over the bed, I scooted away from him and got up, he was staring at me biting his lip. "What?" I asked a little nervous wondering why he was in my bed. "You look really cute in that." He said pointing down at my onesie, I blushed and turned to walk out. Frank was behind me in seconds pushing me against the door and spun my around. I whined and tried to push him off but he didn't move, for how short he was he was really strong. "Come on babe, I know you liked what we did last time." He said kissing my neck, I cringed from his touch. "N...no I didn't, you took advantage of me when I was stoned." I said trying to push him away again, he shook his head. "You loved it, you actually begged me to fuck you and you loved every second of it." He smirked pressing my harder against the door holding both of my arms down. He forced me over to the bed and pushed me on it. He took his hand cuffs out again, I felt tears roling down my face. "Please don't." I sobbed bearing my face into my hands, Frank took one and handcuffed it to the head board and then the other one. My onesie was only covering my lower half, I was terrified, he was going to rape me again and I couldn't do anything about it. "Please Frank, stop...I don't want to do this." I said trying to get him to let me go, he just kissed my head. "You do want this babe, your gonna feel so good." He whispered tugging my onesie off and then my boxes, I want turned on at all and he looked down at me a little angry. "I can fix that." He said taking the lube from my nightstand out, how did you know where that was. He put some on his hand and grabed my dick, I flinched and shut my eyes tightly. Okay Gerard just don't react to it, please just stop, this is all my fault, I'm to messed up to protect my self from him. I could feel the pleasure with every stoke, I bit my tongue to stop my self from moaning. "Come on babe I know you like it." He sad pumping faster, I shook my head, a whimper slipped out and Frank pumped even faster. I felt my stomach muscles tense up, fuck I was gonna come. "Frank please stop." I said, he didn't listen to me, I gasped in surprised when I felt his hot, wet mouth around me. Fuck no, no, no, Gerard your fucked up, you shouldn't feel pleasure from this, he's raping you. "Frank..." I cried trying to get him to stop, his tongue ran over my tip and I let out a moan, fuck no. I came in his mouth trying not to moan and panting heavily, he slid his mouth off of me after sucking every drop of my cum. He leaned over and kissed me, I almost gagged because I could taste myself. I limply laid under him as he kissed me, I felt dazed and distant. I honestly didn't know what was happening anymore, he took the handcuffs off and told me to do something. I looked up at him blankly, I could see his lips moving but I couldn't hear what he was saying. He pushed me over so I was on my arms and legs, he grabbed my waist and I felt him thrust in. The pain was numbing as he thrusted into me. I didn't feel like I was in my body anymore, it felt like I was gone, everything was numb and silent. I could feel warmth running down my thighs and legs, then a gentle rubbing and the warmth was gone. I laid down on the bed almost dreamlike, and closed my eyes, I feel into the darkness.
This happened all the time now, Frank would come over, cuff me to the bed and rape me. I didn't try to stop him anymore, I didn't feel anything anymore. I didn't come out of my room days at a time, I tried to overdose almost every day, or cut my wrists. I couldn't even die property, I deserved everything that he did to me, I'm messed up, it's all my fault. I didn't care what I looked like, I wanted to die, Mikey helped me a lot, he made me feel better even when the darkness took me. "Mikey I love you, you know that right?" I asked Mikey as we laid in bed, he nodded and ruffled my hair. "Yeah I know Gee you tell me all the time, I love you too little dude." Mikey said sqeezing my hand, he was always there for me.

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