Oh Baby Let Me In

Gerard's P.O.V. Frank never left my side. I don't see why he's still here. He won't leave. But I don't have the motivation to care anymore. I haven't eaten much since Grandma Elena died. But Frank keeps insisting or he won't stop talking to me. If I'm honest, I like him more than I'll admit out loud. But I won't let him get his own way. I won't let him see how I feel about him. I can't. He's only doing all this to help Brendon. He's trying to find out how to get to Jezza. But I won't give in. I won't let him hurt my friends. I won't let him hurt my family. I can't let him. I stood up and paced the room, frowning and watching the floor. I tangled my fingers in my hair as I paced from the window to my bathroom door and back. I started muttering things, quietly. "I can't do this." I muttered. "I can't let him in." I meant Frank of course. "I have to protect them." I meant my family and friends. I kept repeating those three sentences, over and over again. I didn't stop even when Frank came down the stairs and called my name. I didn't even pause when Mum and Dad appeared. I didn't flinch when Jezza tried to stop me. I carried on and on. "Gee, STOP." I stopped walking but kept my eyes fixed to the floor and my fingers tangled in my hair. "What did you mean?" Mikey asked, bending to look in my eyes. "'I can't do this.' 'I can't let him in.' 'I have to protect them.' What can't you do? Let who in? Protect who?" I spoke quietly so Frank couldn't hear. "Brendon sent Frank to find out Jezza's weak spot." I told him. "I can't let him know." Mikey frowned. "Did he tell you that?" I shook my head. "Then how do you know that?" I frowned as I looked at him. "Why else would he be here?" I asked. "Because he likes you, Gee." Mikey said. I shook my head. "No he doesn't." Mikey sighed. "Yes he does." I pushed him away as I looked at him angrily. "STOP IT." I shouted. "No-one likes me. I'm a fucking freak. Didn't you get the memo? Brendon's been saying it for four years now. It should have sunk in by now. I've finally got it. The only person that really liked me is dead. Grandma Elena was the only one that ever truly loved me. Now she's gone. I'll never see her again. And ya know what? I wish I could die too. I hate my life and you would all be happier without me. So why don't you all just leave me to die in peace?" "Not gonna happen." Frank said, walking to stand infront of me. "I won't let you give in. I.....we won't lose you. Yes your Grandma Elena loved you. But so do your family and friends. That's why their here now. They're worried about you. Your Mum and Dad have done everything they can to keep you happy and healthy. Mikey stood up to Brendon a few times, risking a beating for you. Jeremy moved away from his family to protect you. And I'm not here because of Brendon. I'm here because I really do like you. I always have. To be honest, I'm as scared of Brendon as you are. He's a homophobic prick." He looked at Mum and Dad. "Sorry." He turned back to look at me. "Bob only puts up with him because he doesn't like fighting." He looks at Jezza. "Bob has a thing for you, by the way." He turned back to me as Jezza's jaw dropped open. "I don't know why Ray puts up with him." He looked at Mikey. "Ray's in love with you." He looked back at me as Mikey smiled. "But I'll stay away from Brendon if you.....let me take you on a......date." I frowned at him. "What?" I said, confused. "So you can trap me for Brendon again?" He sighed. "I didn't want to trap you for him." He said as everyone left the room. "I kissed you because I wanted to. I still want to kiss you." I shook my head, looking at the floor. "Don't let him get to you." I mumbled as I closed my eyes. "He's just trying to trick you." "I mean it, Gerard." Frank said. "I can prove it." I put my hands over my ears. "He's just trying to trick you." I mumbled. "Just trying to trick you." Suddenly Frank grabbed my head and smashed his lips onto mine. For a few seconds, I was shocked, not moving away. It was nice. I really liked it. Then my eyes flew open as his tongue ran across my lips. I pushed him away and glared at him as he panted and stared at me, confused. "DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME." I screamed. The bedroom door flew open and Jezza walked in. "Red?" He said as he stopped at the bottom step. Frank held a hand up to him and one to me. "I kissed him." He admitted, not taking his eyes off of me. "Please, Gee." He pleaded. "Let me take you to dinner and a walk in the park. Jeremy can be there to protect you." Jezza looked at me, smiling. "I will, Red." He said, softly. "And if he tries anything or Brendon turns up, I'll rip both their heads off." I looked from Frank to Jezza. "Why?" I asked, shaking my head and frowning. "Why would you help him?" Jezza walked closer as Frank put his hands down. "I believe him, Red." He admitted, stopping beside me. "I'm your best friend, Red. I'm practically family. I would never betray you. I love you, bro. You know I do, deep down. I would rather rip my own heart out than do anything to hurt you. If you go on the date with Frank, I'll be right there with you. I promise. No one is ever going to hurt you again. For as long as I breathe." I looked back down at the floor. "You'll be with me?" I said, quietly. "Cross my heart." "You'll protect me?" "Always." "I...I guess I...if your there...." I gave in. "So you'll go on a date with me?" Frank asked, excitedly. I nodded agreement. I just hope I don't end up regretting it.

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