Tell Yourself it's Never Going to Happen Again

"Are you cheating on me!?" He screamed louder and slammed me into the wall. My head hit against it with a sickening crack.

'NO!" I shouted. "I would never cheat. I only love you!" I don't even know why he would care that I'm cheating on him. He cheats on me all the time. So what's the difference?

He narrowed his eyes and leaned close and hisses, "If I find out that you're lying then there will be hell to pay okay?" I nodded quickly and he shoved me away "Get out of my sight." I hurried off and into our room shutting and locking the door. I knew he would get drunk here, I had just restocked the beer. I didn't want him to do anything to me while drunk. I'll make him sleep on the couch. He deserves it.

I leaned against the door then slowly slid down it and pulled my legs to my chest. I hated this. I hated this life. And i hated HIM. I really should take Gerard's advice and just leave, but I couldn't. It's not that simple.

I heard the door open, but I didn't look up to see who it was. I knew who it was. He doesn't let anyone else in this house but him. He hardly will let me back in whenever I would forget my keys. I sighed and shrunk out of the way, so I wouldn't bother him. My phone was on the floor in between us, I saw my screen light up from a text. I looked at it and my eyes widened and then i looked over at Richard's feet and followed my eyes up his legs and into his face. He was looking down at my phone with a blank expression. He snapped his head forward and was staring at me, I opened my mouth to say something but he acted before I could say anything.

He yanked me up by my hair, I could feel it already affecting the headache he gave me when he slammed my head against the wall. I opened my mouth to let out a silent cry but he smacked me in the face and said calmly.

"Why is he texting you? Why is that DICK texting you!?"

I looked at him terrified and didn't respond.

"ANSWER ME YOU BITCH! WHY DID HE TEXT YOU!? You know what I've told you right? Remember?" He narrowed eyes at me and shook me and slammed my head back into the
wall. I could now feel blood on my head. "Tell me!"

"T-that you're the only one who loves me." I said in a small voice and not looking into his eyes. The floor was spinning and there was two of them. Was that normal? I didn't think it was.

He nodded and shoved me towards the bed. "Don't move. I'll be back." He walked out slamming the door and stepping on my phone and i heard a crack, i knew it could never work now.

I waited till he was gone, and curled up on the bed and buried my head in a pillow and started sobbing. This was awful. I didn't want to live this life. I didn't want to be here anymore. I didn't want to LIVE anymore. I wanted to jump off a cliff and get away from him.
The sobbing hurt my head, but I had to move. I knew what Richard was going to do when he came back and I didn't want to think about that. I slowly got up and went to my closet and grabbed my backpack. I looked around 'our' room and grabbed the things only i would need. It was just clothes, my broken phone, and an extra pair of shoes. I didn't care about a toothbrush or hairbrush. I just wanted out. I didn't care if I looked like shit.

I also looked at his nightstand and got an idea. I knew he kept emergency money in there for drugs, alcohol, and strippers. I knelled down and opened the bottom door and felt around and found the book. I opened it and saw that it was hallowed out. I shook my head, could this be more obvious. I took out the money and slowly counted it. There was around $500. That was enough I could spend the night in a decent hotel or motel. I got back up and stumbled to the door, i opened it and looked out hearing Richard on the phone on the other side of the house. He was yelling at someone, and i would bet money on that he was arguing with his drug dealer.

I slowly walked out and quietly shut the door heading to the front door and making sure that I didn't step on a floor board that would creak. I got the front door and very quickly and quietly opened it and walked out shutting it, I walked down the hallway and very slowly down the steps. My legs felt heavy and my head hurt like a bitch. I walked outside the apartment and into the cool night California air. I finally released a breath, I was out. I was actually doing this. I'm leaving Richard. This si for real. There is no going back.

I looked into a window and saw that it was 12:30, I didn't want to go to a hotel at this hour. I looked down at my feet then started sobbing. This was my life. Running away from my boyfriend, with no where to go. I started walking with tears down my cheeks and the ground was blurring but the tears that wanted to stay in my eyes. I wiped them and sniffed. I could only think of one place to go, and that was Gerard. I knew his neighborhood was close, so I headed that way.

I just hope he'll allow me to stay and he wasn't lying when he always said that i could.

Notes

I finally updated chapter 3 i'm so sorry i'm late. My first semester just got done and i was really busy and stressed out, so here i am. Hope you enjoy chapter 3. Please remember to comment and subscribe and rate <3

ps. the end of this chapter had nothing to do with the sneak peak. so just ignore that, and if you don't know what I'm talking about, good.