Okay, so maybe staying friends with your ex is more complicated than it seems? It’s definitely awkward, that’s for damn sure. I mean, i’m not that upset about it being difficult, but I just wish there was a pass to be able to get away with things. For example, Gerard will just look so good and all I want to do is maybe...I don’t know… attack him with sloppy kisses? Or just being able to go on a date from time to time would be nice. And I get that friends go and hang out all the time, but like I said, it would just be awkward. It’s awkward knowing that in the back of each other’s mind, you wouldn’t mind to just fuck right on the spot, but you can’t. Wow, the friend zone really does suck.
Other than that, I’m feeling much better. Mentally and physically. My stomach bug went away and I guess I’ve been pretty happy. Knowing where Gerard and I stand and what’s ahead for us in the future has really helped with my anxiety and depression. Even the guys have noticed a difference in my attitude and they’re all happy for me, so that keeps me confident also. Gerard always asks if i’m doing okay or if I ever just need to vent about something, so i’m grateful for that too.
We finally have a few days off after doing shows every night. Don’t get me wrong, I fucking love performing, but with amount of energy I put into every show and for how little I am, it can wear a person out. Plus, every person deserves a break after a while, right? Today we plan on going to the beach. I’m not a big beach person myself, but I think a tan will do me some good considering I still look like a ghost and it’s the middle of summer. I refuse to go swimming, though. There is only less than five percent of the ocean that is explored, and if the Megalodon really is still alive, i’m not taking any chances. It would be a cool way to die though.
Also, the beach means really hot men. A really hot Gerard Way to be specific. He may not have a six pack or very noticeable muscles, but he is still really beautiful. Plus, i’m not into buffy men anyway. Dear God, I really hope I don’t pop a boner while we are there. It’s so noticeable in swim trunks and like I said, i’m not going into the ocean even if my life depended on it.
I already have my swim trunks on and a regular white shirt just so i’m not exposed. I decide to wait outside and have a cigarette while everyone else gets ready. Man, it’s really hot out today. The sun blazed down on me and I felt like I was already tan enough to be in a 90’s boyband. I couldn’t lean against the bus either because it’s metal and the sun had been shining down on it all day. Hopefully the sand won’t be too hot.
I hear the bus door open and everyone walk towards me. “You ready to go, Frank?” Ray asked.
“Yep.” Is all I said before I picked up my beach bag and started walking.
I really hope today is going to turn out well. Whenever we go out and try to have fun, something seems to always go wrong. What’s the worst that could happen at a beach though? Well, the Megalodon could come to shore and eat Bob or something.
I snap out of my thoughts and realize that i’m far behind from everyone. I sigh, not even attempting to catch up with them and just enjoy what’s around me. I don’t think I’ve ever been to this part of California before. It’s fucking beautiful. There are palm trees swaying in the warm wind, little shops and restaurants up and down the streets. I think this is definitely a rich part of California. I wouldn’t mind living here if you want the truth. But nothing is going to take me away from New Jersey.
New Jersey to me is so much better. Yes, there are a lot of downsides to New Jersey like how it isn’t necessarily the safest or the wealthiest. But, I like the fact that the weather is always unpredictable and how everybody knows everybody. It’s the little things that I like about New Jersey.
Once we finally arrive at the beach, we set our towels down and everyone except for Gerard and I go running towards the water. I swear, we are still all a bunch of children. “You’re not gonna join them?” Gerard asks.
“Nope. This body is too beautiful to be turned into shark shit, thank you very much.” I sassily answer him.
He looks over at me and chuckles. “I’m glad we can agree on that.” He winks at me.
Was that meant to be flirting or did he mean that he feels the same way about himself? Either way I look away and blush, already knowing this is going to be a long day. Do normal friends joke around like that? I think not.
I suddenly feel a tap on my now bare shoulder and i’m guessing Gerard does too because we both turn around and see two teenagers- a guy and a girl. I’m guessing they are fans.
“Hi…” The girl begins, already stammering. Yep, definitely a fan. “My boyfriend and I are huge fans of you so we were wondering if we could maybe get a few pictures?” She rushes out almost so quickly that I couldn’t understand.
“Sure, darling.” Gerard says, giving her a soft smile. That’s what I love about Gerard. He’s always so fucking nice to everybody, especially the fans. If that were me and Gerard called me Darling, I would’ve actually melted.
She first takes a picture of just Gee and I smiling. Then her and her boyfriend take individual selfies with us, the last one being all of us together. “Sorry the rest of the guys aren’t here. They went out swimming.” I say, feeling bad that they couldn’t meet Bob, Mikey, or Ray.
“It’s okay. I’m just lucky enough I got to meet you two. You guys really helped me get better and if it weren’t for you, my boyfriend and I would never have met. So thank you, but we now have to go before my mom gets mad.” She says, smiling at us like we are Gods or something.
“Okay, you two have a good day.” Gerard says.
They wave goodbye, walking away in the other direction. I look at Gerard and smile, thankful that we could help people so much. We then both lay down on our towels that are right next to each other and let the sun do it’s glorious job.

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Gerard and I decided to take a walk around seeing that we both are now bored and the guys won’t be coming out of the water anytime soon. We are in kind of a secluded area now because it’s all rocky and generally dangerous. We’re both in sandals so that doesn’t help much either. We spotted what we think is a cave and of course it’s like we are going through the game Undertale ourselves just to get there. My legs are too short for these big ass rocks.
“Gerard, I can’t get up there. I’ll fall.” I say out of breath.
He puts his hands out and I take ahold of them, trusting him to help me get up this boulder. “Come on Sweetie, you got it.” He says, helping me jump up and climb on top of the rock.
Once I finally get up there, we continue our way until we finally reach the cave. It’s small, but beautiful. There is water coming in from a little entrance with one big, flat rock sticking up from the middle of it.
“Wanna go in? I’m pretty sure there is no way a shark could get in.” Gerard says, knowing that I have a fear of big sea creatures.
I nod, slipping my sandals and shirt off. He does the same and we both go in. The water is calm and at the perfect temperature. “Wow, this is amazing.” I comment, my voice echoing throughout the cave.
“I know.” Is all Gerard says.
We both just kind of float in the water, no words being said from us. I don’t think I’ve ever seen something so pretty, except for Gerard of course.
“You wanna have a cheat day?” Gerard eventually says, looking in my direction.
“What does that mean?” I question.
“Like… This is really kind of romantic and with that rock being convenient, I think we should just say fuck it and I don’t know… Make out or something?” He looks down in embarrassment.
I swim over to him and instantly connect our lips together. I’m glad he had the balls to say that because I was thinking the same thing. He kisses me back with passion, immediately taking a light hold of my healing hips. I run my fingers through his hair, yanking at it a little causing him to moan lightly. Gerard licks my bottom lip, asking for permission to tongue kiss me. I open my mouth, feeling his tongue enter and roam around.
He then starts kissing my neck and I let out an embarrassingly high pitched moan. Neck kisses always turn me on. I get the courage and grind on him, feeling that he has a boner too. He pulls my hips back towards him and we start grinding on each other, letting out breathy moans.
We both pull away and swim over to the rock without telling each other to do so. We climb on top and he orders me to lay down on it. Once I do, Gerard starts to kiss up and down my chest and belly. I reach down to touch my achingly hard dick, but he grabs my hands and restraints me.
“No touching yourself.” He says in a low growl.
I whimper in response. While he continues to give me kisses, I start to squirm my waist around, trying to get friction with my swim trunks. “Gee… Please.” I moan out.
“Please what, baby?” He asks, trying to tease with me.
“T-touch me… do anything. It’s starting to hurt.” I beg, out of breath.
Gerard then pulls down my swim trunks. He takes a hold of my length and starts to pump it agonizingly slow. “Faster!” I demand.
I then feel his lips wrap around my cock and I let out a surprised moan. His tongue plays with the tip and I know that if he keeps doing that, I wouldn’t last long at all. “Yes, Gee… Oh god you're so good at that. Keep going.” I say almost inaudibly.
I put my hands through his wet, long hair and pull at it again. I close my eyes and relax my head back, just letting him continue to suck me off. He keeps his attention on the tip of my cock while his hands jerk my actual length.
“Gonna cum!” I yell before I release into his mouth. I let arch my back and grip really tight at his hair. I don’t think I’ve ever came so hard in my life.
He comes back up and gives me a soft kiss. “What about you?” I ask.
“I already came by watching you.” He says while helping me pull my trunks back on.
I smile, feeling really happy that I didn’t really even have to do anything and he still came because of me.
“That was great.”

Notes

Hey! I hope you liked! I know I said there won't be a lot of smut and there won't be, but I felt like with all the sad feels that have been happening with this, ya'll deserve a reward lol. I feel like my smut writing has improved too so that's good.


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