He's Not Dead, He Only Looks that Way.

When Gerard walked back outside, Frank looked up at him. The two exchanged different glances, Frank was with a smile and Gerard was with a frown. Frank stared, “What’s wrong?”

Gerard stared at his beloved one before murmuring, “I .. I don’t know.” He kneeled in front of Frank and leaned in, “I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that is making me .. feel .. confused.” He added in, this time more troubled, “I get these awful images in my head that make me question who I am-”

Frank softly hushed him and grabbed his hand, “I know who you are. You’re Gerard.” He smiled a bit as he kissed Gerard’s nose, “you’re a sarcastic aggressive asshole but who also has a sweet side.”

“I don’t feel like that Gerard-”

Frank brushed Gerard’s cheek with the back of his hand, “No matter who you are or turn out to be, I’ll never stop loving you.”

Gerard felt a sense of relief, “Really?”

Frank nodded, “Of course.”

Gerard smiled as he got up, “Well fuck, that makes me feel a whole lot better.”

Frank was kind to Gerard, and meant his words. What he didn’t know is what Gerard was sealing away. And Frank gave him permission to be what Gerard wanted to be-and so Gerard unleashed himself.

A few days later, Gerard came home covered in blood. As Frank gagged with disgust, Gerard poured himself a glass of water. The others were surprised by the amount of blood that drenched Gerard’s clothes. Davy frowned at the scene, “Déjà vu .. “

Frank practically screamed, “What the fuck Gerard?!”

Gerard paused from drinking his water, “What?” Gerard seemed oblivious from his actions and the blood on his clothes.

Frank could barely make out his words, “You-blood-take a fucking shower!”

Gerard grinned as he placed his glass down, “Join me when you can.” Gerard brushed past Frank, making Frank clench his shoulder. He turned to watch as Gerard disappeared into the bathroom. Frank felt his body give up but Lindsey quickly caught him before he could fall onto the ground. She set him on the couch and fetched a clean glass of water. Frank refused the drink, “What the hell is wrong with him?”

Davy frowned, “He’s letting it get to him.”

Frank lashed, “What is that even supposed to mean?”

Lindsey rubbed his aching shoulders, “Relax first, okay?” She added in, “no need to get hostile .. do you remember what we told you? About Gerard being the worst? When we mentioned it’s not what he did before turning into a demon-it’s after?”

Frank nodded, “Yeah, I guess so.”

“This is exactly what happened. When he turned into a demon, he couldn’t control it. He became hysterical and vicious. This was all before he learned to keep it in. We all went through it.” Lindsey paused, “I’m going to get Patrick out of here. He’s not safe around Gerard right now.”

Patrick who was standing next to Frey asked, “Wait why aren’t I safe?”

Lindsey turned to Patrick, “What do you think Gerard is covered in? Animal blood? No. Human blood. I’m not letting him hurt you-” She cut herself off, letting her cheeks heat up. She murmured, “You’re not safe here, pet.”

Patrick smiled a bit, knowing that Lindsey cared. He looked at her, “Where am I going?”

Lindsey paused, “We’ll think about that on the road-”

“What? Lindsey, you can’t leave.” Frank grabbed her hand, “I don’t know what to do. You know Gerard more than anyone during this state that he’s in. I need you more than ever.”

“But Patrick-” Lindsey started but was cut off by Davy, “I’ll take him out of harm's way.”

Lindsey looked at Davy, “Really? You’d do that?”

Davy shrugged, “It’s no big deal. I rather not see Gerard commit a massacre anyway.”

Lindsey smiled, “Thank you.”

Gerard’s voice echoed from the shower, “Frankie! Get your sweet ass over here!”

Davy grabbed Patrick’s jacket and threw it to him, “Let’s get going, kid.”

Patrick frowned, “Now? We’re leaving now?” He stared at Lindsey who locked eyes with him. The two stared at one another before Lindsey jumped onto Patrick, locking her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck, “Davy will take care of you .. please do what you can to be safe.” She kissed his cheek and pecked at his lips. Patrick felt her body slowly let go of his body. Lindsey landed on her feet, they didn’t break eye contact. Lindsey turned her body but Patrick grasped onto her arm, making her face him. Patrick said, “I’m going to miss you.” He reeled her in and kissed her lips, sending shivers down her spine with excitement. He broke the kiss which made Lindsey’s excitement fade.

Patrick hesitantly followed Davy out the door.

Lindsey looked down to the floor before saying to Frank, “Be careful around Gerard.” She cleared her throat, “I’m gonna .. take a nap.” She left without a word, leaving Frank and Frey astray.

Frey frowned, “I can hear her crying.”

Frank sighed, “Should we-”

“No, leave her be.” Frey could hear the shower turn off, “Gerard can be a little rough during this state so .. be careful in bed with him. Last time, a few years back, he brought home a guy and things got .. messy-just be careful.”

Notes

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