I Hate Your Mask
Unhinged...
Gerard's P.O.V
Tuesday 9:00 pm
“It's cold.” I said to myself. Why didn't I bring a sweater, it always gets cold at night, you think I'd know that by now. Why am I here again? Last time I tried forgetting things here it didn't go well, so why am I here? Oh who cares? I'll just keep writing.
Dear diary, or whatevers, so Jerry's been pretty mad at me lately. Ever since I let, more like begged, Frank to sleep over he's been more...aggressive. Why did I do that? To Frank I mean, it's the first time I let my mask slip that much. I can't let that happen again. You know, it would be great if all this was one big dream and Jerry was still with his family. Talking to Bob again reminded me that he did have a life before us. He should go back to it, I'm sure they'd be more than happy to take him back. My mom would be sad, but she'd get over it. Besides it's not like she doesn't deserve it. It would serve as punishment, for not realizing the things that guy does.
“You know she knows, right?” said a voice.
“Who-”
“Gerard, please, you know she knows.” it said more accusingly, “Hell, you're even telling yourself this. Gosh, Jerry sure has disconnected you from reality.”
“So you're me?” great just what I needed, to be crazy.
“Just look at her, she knows. Her eyes show guilt, she's absolutely disgusted by you. Not him, no, she loves him, but you, you might as well not be her son.” laughed the voice.
I could feel my breathing stop, I was out of my mind and now I couldn't even breath. I need air. Why am I not getting air. I'm trying so hard, but it's not working! I can't- can't breath. I can't see either. Oh crap, I'm passing out...
11:00 pm
I look at my phone it's eleven thirteen, I was out for two hours. I can't believe I didn't get robbed.
“So now you get panic attacks?” asked the voice. Is that what it was? “Yeah Gerard, you gave yourself a panic attack.” I laughed. Shut up. “Alright, at least now you're answering inside your head. You can be crazy without others knowing right?” I sighed.
“I'm going home.” I mumbled.
“No, let's go somewhere else.” Where?
“You have Jerry's card, let's have some fun with that.” no way! “I guess we can just go home and he can have his fun with you.
Tuesday 9:00 pm
“It's cold.” I said to myself. Why didn't I bring a sweater, it always gets cold at night, you think I'd know that by now. Why am I here again? Last time I tried forgetting things here it didn't go well, so why am I here? Oh who cares? I'll just keep writing.
Dear diary, or whatevers, so Jerry's been pretty mad at me lately. Ever since I let, more like begged, Frank to sleep over he's been more...aggressive. Why did I do that? To Frank I mean, it's the first time I let my mask slip that much. I can't let that happen again. You know, it would be great if all this was one big dream and Jerry was still with his family. Talking to Bob again reminded me that he did have a life before us. He should go back to it, I'm sure they'd be more than happy to take him back. My mom would be sad, but she'd get over it. Besides it's not like she doesn't deserve it. It would serve as punishment, for not realizing the things that guy does.
“You know she knows, right?” said a voice.
“Who-”
“Gerard, please, you know she knows.” it said more accusingly, “Hell, you're even telling yourself this. Gosh, Jerry sure has disconnected you from reality.”
“So you're me?” great just what I needed, to be crazy.
“Just look at her, she knows. Her eyes show guilt, she's absolutely disgusted by you. Not him, no, she loves him, but you, you might as well not be her son.” laughed the voice.
I could feel my breathing stop, I was out of my mind and now I couldn't even breath. I need air. Why am I not getting air. I'm trying so hard, but it's not working! I can't- can't breath. I can't see either. Oh crap, I'm passing out...
11:00 pm
I look at my phone it's eleven thirteen, I was out for two hours. I can't believe I didn't get robbed.
“So now you get panic attacks?” asked the voice. Is that what it was? “Yeah Gerard, you gave yourself a panic attack.” I laughed. Shut up. “Alright, at least now you're answering inside your head. You can be crazy without others knowing right?” I sighed.
“I'm going home.” I mumbled.
“No, let's go somewhere else.” Where?
“You have Jerry's card, let's have some fun with that.” no way! “I guess we can just go home and he can have his fun with you.
Notes
Wow, four months, I am disappointed in myself. Well here you go, a chapter that's probably not worth the wait. Well, I hope you enjoyed it at least a little, leave your comment even if it's scolding me for disappearing, and as always, take care my lovelies (^-^)
Has this been completed?
10/11/18