I could feel Mikey carrying me to the spare bedroom I had slept in the night before. I wasn't asleep but I had given up any effort to try and open my eyes and maybe even start acting like a human being.
Mikey Sat down on the edge of the bed and instead of laying me down he just held me close to him.
I felt the soft thump of his heart and the small vibrations running through his chest as he hummed to me softly. He cares so much about me and I've never known why, why me out of all people deserved to cross the path of the ways brothers and actually get the privilege to stay and be loved by them. Why did I deserve that?
Im not important. I never have been.
ive always been the guy in the back.

The random emo walking around the neighborhood.

The guy that never talked to any one and had a bad past.

The guy who always wore to much eyeshadow.

The guy who rarely left his house.

The guy who was never really important to any one.

I'm Just Frank Iero.
But somehow I still caught the eye of the one and only Gerard Way. The most perfect man in the world. With his sideways smile and nicotine stained lips.
I smiled softly at the thought of him. Fuck it had only been a few hours and I was already going insane without him.
It was like I needed him to breathe.
Maybe that's exactly how it was.
I fucking needed Gerard way in my life.
I needed to see those beautiful hazel eyes of his to keep my sanity.
but I fucked that up.
Apperently I felt that having the most perfect man in the world wasn't enough and felt the need to go fucking make out with his brother.
But maybe that's all I knew how to do. To just fuck up everything.
I was thrown out of my thoughts as I heard Mikey start to talk for the first time in hours.

"Its gonna be okay Frankie I promise." He took in a sharp breath before continuing "we're gonna get through this okay?" I felt something wet splash gently onto my cheek causing my eyes to flutter open. I looked up at Mikey ndwith found him in tears. He looked like he was in so much pain.
But why? I opened my mouth in an attempt to ask him what was wrong but before any words escaped my lips his eyes met mine. He smiled weakly wiping his years away as fast as he could.
"Hey Frankie! I didn't know you had woken up.." He mumbled slightly letting his words trail off. All I could do was nodded in response my throat refusing to let me talk.
"A-are you feeling any better?" He paused for a second allowing me to nod once more. "C-could I ask what happened?" He chewed on his lip like he was afraid of my response. I looked at him in complete shock did he really just ask that?
He was right there when it all happened! I started respond confusion taking control of my mind causing my face to be stuck just staring at him in shock. Before I could even open my mouth he just shook his head "was it he kiss? Did I remind you of Gerard or something? Did I bring back any memories is that why you got so upset?"
"Mikey what the fuck are you talking about?? Gerard fucking walked in on us and then he just left. Which I'm guessing was his way of breaking up with me. Do you really not remember?"
Mikey just looked at me completely mortified like I had just murdered a man right in front of him. I sighed softly chewing on my lip harshly tearing the skin off causing it to bleed.
Mikeys eyes were set on the floor his eyebrows bunched up in distress as he let out heavy and unsteady breaths. He glanced at me slightly seeing the blood and his face completely softened as his eyes filled with concern as he gently wiped the blood away. I continued to stare at him in confusion as I watched his eyes run up and down me entirely. He sighed heavily
"I know it's really confusing Frankie and I'm sorry." He sighed once more his eyes inally meeting mine once again "Youll understand soon okay? I just. I can't tell you right now."
I nodded slowly in response keeping eye contact with him searching his eyes for answers. No matter how hard I looked all I could see was a deep darkness and so much pain, but It gave me no hints on hway the hell was happening. I looked once more seeing a certain look in his eyes I've only seen once before from him but I couldn't pin point what it exactly was. Mikey bit his lip softly before kissing my forehead gently
"Just try to get some sleep okay? If you have any nightmares I'll be in the living room just come get me okay?" He smiled at me warmly watching me closely.
I smiled back at him nodding my head "Thank you Mikey. For everything" He chuckled softly "Theres nothing to thank me for Frank" and with that he gently laid me down kissing my head once more and started heading to the door before stopping in the doorway and looking back at me once more "sleep well Frankie" he smiled softly turning off the light and gently closing the door behind him.
I was asleep within the next fifteen minutes. Of course with the absence of Gerard the one dream I have had once before came back.
But it was different this time. I knew what was going to happen and this time I wasn't going to lose him.

Gerard and I walked hand and hand just like we did in each dream everything was the exact same. Even my ring glistened the same way. I looked up.quickly seeing the car start to speed towards us and before Gerard could even argue I pulled him onto the grass and began running in an attempt to get as far as we possibly could from the car.I wasn't going to lose him. No matter how hard I tried it seemed like we were stuck in the same place. No matter how long it felt like we had been running we didn't move an inch and before I could even blink I was pushed onto the ground once again and I heard the ear shattering thud of Gerard's body.

I woke up covered in sweat and tears like I had many times before but this time Gerard wasn't there. He couldn't convince me it was all just a dream and that everything was fine. He wasn't there to hold me in his arms and make all of my pain just disappear.
I wrapped my arms around myself trying to stop the tears from pouring out but of course I failed terribly and began sobbing hard falling onto the ground gasping for air in between sobs. I clutched onto my knees screaming into them in an attempt not to wake anyone but the next hing I knew I heard the door swing open and a pair of arms pick me up clutching me to the persons chest. I sobbed heavily into his chest slightly looking up to see Mikey staring down at me sympathetically as he rocked me back and forth whispering soothing words in an attempt to calm me. I clutched onto his shirt tightly pulling him even closer to me as I whispered out

"I couldn't save him"

Notes

Another shitty chapter whoop I should really stop writing chapters so.late at night oh well I hope you guys atleast liked It a little bit <3