But I Love You

I wait with Gerard and Mikey anxiously, excited to have my best friend live with me. Well, Gerard is my best friend before anyone else but Bert and Bob are second. Mikey is like my brother so that’s even closer than just friends. We told Mikey the news and he was pretty happy that he could make friends with someone else- with all drama between Gee and Bert aside. Man, I really do have a soft spot for Mikey. When he said that, I couldn’t help myself and I just pulled him into a hug. He’s just so lonely and it breaks my heart. But we’ve already talked about that I guess.
As for Gerard, he’s not so thrilled. I mean, of course he’s happy for me but he also feels miserable for himself. I can understand though. I just have to keep reminding him that he is doing a good deed. It keeps his confidence up I guess. I really hope Gerard and Bert can be civil with each other- for my sake at least. I’ve caught on that Gerard really does go through and put up with so much for me.
I mean, just the fact in general that we have a student/teacher relationship. Then add the fact that I’m pretty much illegally living with him. And another student is too. Not to mention i’m a very emotionally unstable teenager who is also extremely stubborn and introverted. The list can go on and on. That’s a lot to put up with and honestly, if I were Gerard, I would’ve given up on me months ago. This also just proves to me that he really does love me and care for me. He’s willing to risk not only his career, but himself just for a seventeen year old boy. In a way I do feel guilty, but he was the one who insisted I come and live with him.
We then all hear the doorbell ring, causing me so squeal in excitement and Gerard to groan in annoyance. I get up, going to the door and open it. There stands a very disorganized Bert. His backpack is hanging off of him, his hair is messy (more than usual), and he looks all worn out and tired. I move out of the way so he can come in and help him put his things down. He tries to go into hug me but then I gasp a little, feeling arms wrap around me from behind. I look over and see it’s Gerard. He darts his eyes to Bert, tilting his head and keeping his arms around me. I think he’s doing this because he’s just naturally over protective of me.
“What do you think I was going to do to him?” Bert asks, laughing a little.
“I don’t see why you have to hug Frankie.” Gerard replies, annoyed. Great, this is already turning out horrible.
“You guys! Please stop. I just want everyone to be civil with each other.” I bud in, sighing in sadness.
Gerard kisses me on the top of my head. “I’m sorry baby. I just don’t want to see you get hurt.” He says right above a whisper.
Bert rolls his eyes. “If I were to hurt him, I would’ve already whether you are there or not. Stop thinking you can save him from everything and everyone.”
“Bert, you shut the fuck up. Gerard, you shut the fuck up also. If you guys can’t be friendly towards each other, then just don’t talk at all. I hate seeing my best friend and my boyfriend fighting over stupid shit.” I snap, prying out of Gerard’s grip.
“There’s nothing to fight over anymore. We talked about it, made up, and now the past is in the past.” I continue, trying to prove a point.
They both look at me, surprised that I got that upset, and nodded. If I have to come off as rude, then I will. I know it’s going to be hard to get them to be at least acquaintances, but I will succeed in doing so. It’s not like Bert is going to be staying here for long either. He said he’ll leave when he gets enough money to afford an apartment or something. The longest he’d be staying here is until Graduation anyway because if Gerard and I do work out, we plan on moving away as soon as possible.
Since it was quiet, I decided to introduce Bert to Mikey. I grab Bert’s hand, knowing Gerard is probably upset by that, but pull him towards Mikey anyways. “Bert this is Gerard’s brother Mikey.” I let go of his hand so they can shake hands. Mikey shyly says hi. Not because he has an immediate crush or anything, but just because it’s in Mikey’s nature to be shy. I think it’s cute quite honestly.
“Why don’t we all watch a movie?” Gerard suggests, trying to, I guess, lesson the tension between us.
“Sure.” We all agree, going to the living room and sitting down. Gerard goes over and gets out the bin full of movies.
“Joker or Batman?” Gerard asks, of course picking a crappy nerd movie.
“Joker I guess.” I say after everyone stays silent. I mean, who doesn’t love Jack Nicholson?
Gerard puts the movie in then comes over to the couch, sitting down. He pulls me up on his lap and I giggle and kiss his cheek. I see Bert look over with a look I’ve never seen before. Jealousy? He better not be. He knows how I feel about Gerard and that he’s the one for me. Just as long as Bert doesn’t say anything about it, then we will be fine.
“Oh I wanna make popcorn.” I say, getting up and going to the kitchen.
I pull out a bag of popcorn and place it in the microwave. I get out extra butter because popcorn in bags never fucking come with enough butter. I wait there for a little while, watching the bag fill up with air. I then hear a bang in the living room along with a loud grunt. I run in, seeing that Gerard and Bert are physically fighting. Mikey is just standing there in shock just like me. I’m gone for a fucking minute and they are already trying to murder each other?!
After the shock dies down, I then proceed to go over and try to get Gerard off of Bert. He is punching Bert repeatedly in the chest. Bert is trying to get out from under him but Gerard keeps him there. I pull at Gerard’s shoulders, trying my hardest to make him stop. Being short and weak sucks when it comes to this.
“Gerard stop! Please, just calm down.” I say once I finally get him away from Bert.
“You don’t talk to my brother like that you stupid piece of shit!” He yells, ignoring what I said while trying to get out of my grip.
“Gee, please just come upstairs with me and we can talk. Hurting people only does more damage. Come on.” I insist, looking him pleadingly in the eyes. He stares back at me, looking like he’s contemplating something, then nods.
I lead him up the stairs to his room, letting him sit down on the bed. I take a seat next to him and hold his hands. “What happened?” I ask.
“He made fun of the way Mikey looks. He said he had nerd glasses and he was so skinny that he looked like a skeleton. I can handle people saying shit about me, seeing that i’m a teacher for teens, but when someone goes and hurts either Mikey or you, then I have a problem. A big one.” He explains, seeming very angry and serious.
“Okay… I understand that but don’t you think he would say things like that just to get a reaction out of you? He did it because that’s just the way he is. If he says shit like that, you can’t let him get the reaction he wants. After a while, he’ll realize you're not offended and just give up. Trust me, he does shit like that with me too.” I say while gently rubbing his hand with my thumb.
“I guess that will be hard to do, but I’ll try. I’m only doing all of this for you. I want him out as soon as possible though- we just don’t get along. But even with that, I still respect you guys being friends and I respect him for owning up to what he did to you. I have to put credit where it’s due I guess.” Gerard replies, with a defeated voice.
“I’m really proud of you, Geebear. Even if you just tried to murder him, I can tell that you're trying really hard to control your mood swings and anger. Thank you for trying.” I say with a smile, then give him a peck on the lips.
“Mhm,” He nods in approval, giving me longer kiss than before. “Only doing all this so we can be happy.”
“Why don’t we lay down for a while? I’m kinda tired and could use a nap.” I suggest, already moving so i’m laying under all the blankets without his approval.
“Well I guess my choice doesn’t matter.” We both giggle, him crawling in bed after me.
We both lay there looking at each other, both of us not feeling the need to talk. I rest my arm on his side and wrap my legs with his. I smile, snuggling into the crook of his neck.
“Everything will work out for us, right Frankie?” Gerard asks, starting to play with my hair.
“Of course, Gee. If we made it this far, we can go through a few more months.” I reassure not only him, but myself too.
“I love you.” Gerard whispers.
“Love you more.” I smile.

Notes

Hey! I know this is an extremely shitty chapter and pretty late too but I am literally so fucking sick right now. But at least I wrote something, right? I promise I'll make it up to you in the next chapter! Or I'll try my best to.

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