Death is Inevitable

Frank pov


It's like all hope is lost. I had that one little flame left in me and it's been burned out, stepped on carelessly like it was nothing, like it never even happened. It's like throwing away a lifelong friendship or the most important person in your life dying.

They're just gone like that and you have to live your life without them, whether you like it or not. It's not your choice, it's not their choice. You just have to Live with it.

That's what I feel like right now, like im the flame that got stepped on, im the one that's burned out. I have no other options as of right now so I'm stuck in this misery. I'm being forced to to do the only thing that's even slightly interesting in this room which is staring at the blank wall, and getting lost in my thoughts.
It seems like the only reasonable thing to do, since my other options could be banging my head on the door until I get a headache or thinking miserable thoughts about Gerard, and I've decided I'm going to stick to what I'm doing now.

I sit down on the bed and bury my face in my hands.

"Why?!" I shout, tears streaming down my face.

"Why me?!" I scream. "Why out of all of the people did I have to be given this horrible life!"
I start to go in denial and when I hear a sound that sounds like a camera focusing on something I look up, and see exactly what I heard.

"You're fucking spying on me?!" I yell at the camera, and get up quickly and look straight at the camera.
"You've been spying on me the whole time?" I scream again and im not even sure they can hear me so I take my fist and punch the camera. Pain shoots throughout my hand and I hold it tightly, my eyes clenched shut as I bite my lip in agony.

I look back up at the camera and with my good hand, I rip it off of the wall. There's sparks of electricity going off, and I get closer, intrigued by the sparks flying all around the now disabled camera. I reach my hand closer to the sparks, intending to electrocute myself of at least injure my hand, when i hear the door unlock and it swings open.

"Frank?!" The voice says, and I look and see its Dr. Rider.

"What are you doing?" He asks.

"Nothing." I mumble.

"Why did you disable the cameras?"

"Because I wanted my privacy, I didn't want to be spied on 24/7 is that wrong to want that?" I shout, my voice gradually getting louder with each word.

Dr. Rider just looks at the ground, fumbling with his fingers, before looking back at me and sighing.
"No it was not wrong," He says, still sighing. "It was just unnecessary."

I'm about to blurt out what I'm really saying, when I bite my tongue. I don't know what made me do that, it just happened. It would only make things worse. I don't remember the last time I did the right thing, and it's not exactly a good feeling when you know you've broke your streak of bad choices.
"Anyways, I'm not here to lecture you about taking down the cameras," He starts. "I'm here to talk to you about something different. You will get to see Gerard one last time, and then you will be prohibited from seeing him ever again."

I feel tears well up in my eyes and soon they're streaming down my face like a flooding dam.

"You can't do this!" I say, my voice shaking from the crying.

"Actually, I can and it would benefit everyone in a positive way."

I give him a glare and he gives me a smile, that is definitely not meant to be friendly.
"When will I get to see him?" I ask.

"Later today and for one hour."

One hour? Is he serious? I'll have to make my final words to him quick and meaningful.

"Ok."

"I'll have him brought over here in an hour." He says and with that he turns around leaving the room and slamming the door behind him while I think about what exactly my final words are going to be.



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"Frank?" Dr. Rider says, knocking on the door. He opens the door and I see him and Gerard walk in.
"You have one hour. That's it." He snaps and then leaves the room.
"Gerard." I whisper and run over to him, embracing him tightly. He hugs back and begins kissing the top of my head.

"I'm going to miss you so much, why do they have to do this?" He asks, tears coming down his face now too.

"I don't know Gerard, I don't know." I say closing my eyes and hugging him tighter.

"I can't believe this is the last time I'll see you."

"I can't either." I say, still hugging him so tight im surprised he can even breathe.
"So we have like forty five minutes before our time is up and we never get to see each other again." He says, tears still evident in his eyes.

"Let's not talk about that right now, let's just enjoy the time we have together left." I tell him. He nods and wipes the tears from his face.

I lean over and kiss Gerard on the lips, tasting his and my salty tears. Our lips move in sync and I can feel the love and passion behind this kiss. It's different from the other kisses we've shared, it's more meaningful not as lust driven.

We pull away and I look into his eyes. I wipe a single tear from off of his face and he smiles and leans into my touch.

"I don't know what I'll do without you." He says.

"I don't know either." I say and give him a sad smile.



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"Gerard, Frank?" Dr. Rider says as he opens the door.

"Your time is up."

I look over at Gerard and he looks at me.

"Any final words?" And with that I walk over to Gerard and take his face in my hands.
"Yes, actually," I start. "Gerard. I love you so much, you're the only reason I'm living today and that I made it this long. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me." I say, my voice breaking every few seconds.

"Frank," Gerard says. "You're the only person I've ever truly loved. I didn't even love my parents so I thank you so much for giving me the thing I lacked in life. It's changed me and Frank I love you too." He says, and we hug tightly and I give him one last kiss on his head.

"I'll miss you Gerard." And with that he closes the door, and then it gets through my mind that I'll never see him again.

Notes

There will be one chapter after this and then an epilogue. I want to thank everyone who is reading this for continuing to read it and giving me so much support its meant the world to me. Anyways I hope you enjoy the rest of the story and I'll try to have it up by tomorrow and then the epilogue in two days. :)

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