If you say, goodbye today

Frank pov.

One month later

I've been allowed to leave the hospital once again to go to my boyfriends funeral. "Bye Ray" I say to my new roommate, who also has schizophrenia. That's pretty much the only thing we have in common. "Bye Frank, good luck." He says giving me an encouraging smile. Ever since Gerard had....well you know, my hallucinations had gotten worse. They came around about every hour to torture me with words like "he's dead he's dead!" And "it's all your fault" "I told you! I told you!" The worst part is I believe them every time and it breaks me down even more. Mrs Way picks me up and then we head to the funeral service. I break down crying even before we get there. I keep remembering his last words, and how I'll never get to say those words back to him, never marry him or anything. It breaks me down even further. As we step into the room it's filled with familiar faces most of them probably ones that I saw at the christmas party, back when I was happy. I walk over to my boyfriends lifeless body, just laying there in a casket, dressed up like he's a doll. I hate it when they do that. They dress up the corpses to make them look alive, it doesn't help since you'll never see them again.


We sit through a long service, the priest talking about Gerard like he actually knew him. It just made me even more angry and upset than I already was. "You didn't even know him quit acting like you did!" I screamed as I left the room. As soon as I left the doors I fell on my knees and started crying. He's gone, he's really gone. This funeral only made it official. Mrs Way comes running out of the building screaming my name and I only Bury my face in my hands. "Frankie? Hey, it's gonna be ok" she says while rubbing soothing circles in my back. The voices start again and I get dizzy and vomit on the ground in front of me as I start to cry again. She just gives me a caring look and helps me off the ground. "It's better to have known him than to never of known him at all, right?" She asks. "Yeah I guess." I say wiping my nose with the back of my hand, trying to ignore all of the voices telling me to "go die" and "join Gerard." Maybe I should? No Frank, snap out of it, don't let them control you.


Once the funeral service is over, Mrs Way drives me back to the hospital. We sit in the car in silence and then she says goodbye quietly and that she'll visit me soon. That's it and then she drives away. I get back into the room, and luckily, Ray isn't there. I jump onto my bed and immediately start bawling into my pillow. "Frankie?" "Not now Ray, please leave me alone" then I realized, Ray doesn't ever call me Frankie. "It's not Ray." "Gee..?" I look up and see Gerard. "How are you here?" "I'm your new hallucination Frankie" "and you won't leave me?" "Nope, this time i'm here to stay" He said, smiling wide at me. I spent my whole life thinking hallucinations were bad, and now that Gee's here, I can't help but think they make you a little more sane.

Notes

Yayy epilogue so I may or may not do a sequel...idk yet if that would be a good idea or not. If I did, it would probably be longer than this but idk. Or...Im thinking about writing a new story too im still not sure yet :/

you can comment what you think if you have an idea that would help!