But You're Beautiful To Me..

I woke up in a hospital bed, surrounded by IVs and machines. I struggle to get up, but my arms were so weak and so were my legs. What is happening? Soon enough, the memories of what happened before I blacked out flood to my mind. Gerard. The drugs. The blades. And, the blood. Before the tears slowly swelled up my eyes, a nurse walked in. She was young, with short brown hair and big, shy brown eyes.

"Hello Frank, my name is Nicole, and I'm here to help you get better so you can go home and get back to normal. But first, someone wants to see you." Nicole says in a calm voice. I look at the door, and the person that caused all of this walked in. He looked terrible, his red hair was matted, his eye makeup was smeared, and he looked like he hasn't showered or slept in a week. He was wearing a baggy sweatshirt and loose jeans. My heart clenched when I looked at him. Nicole left the room, and shut the door behind her. Gerard slowly walked further into the room, and sat on the chair.

"How long was I out?" I ask, breaking the silence. Gerard looks up, chewing on his lip.

"Three days. I haven't slept or eaten, I couldn't. Frank, I tried leaving after you, but there were no taxis or anything. I waited outside until one came, and once I got to our dorm, the way I found you, I thought you were dead. If I showed up 10 minutes later, you could've already bled out. The things you wrote and drew on your arm, I started bawling as I cleaned up your cuts just enough to keep them from bleeding out. I would let you see them, but your arms and thighs, they are so bad. You went so deep Frank." Gerard was crying now. I felt the tears come to my eyes, but anger boiled inside me. How dare he try to pin this on me? If he wasn't such a slut, this wouldn't have happened.

"You know what? We could've been snuggled up in one of our beds, smoking cigarettes and drinking your favorite starbucks coffee. We could've went to Mikey's, and watched a movie, and making out during it. Fuck, we could've climbed onto the roof of the gym, and had sex. But no, I am in a hospital gown with bloody arms and thighs because you were a slut, and had to hook up with that guy! Why did you do that?" I screamed at him. Salt water flowed from my eyes, and I could see Gerard was crying almost as hard as I was. Gerard shakily got up from the chair, and walked over to me. He softly pick up my arm and kissed every bandage. He did the same for the other, and then to my legs. Then, he kissed my lips. He kissed me so full of love, so soft, yet passionate. He pulled away, and I stayed silent as he pushed his hair out of his face.

"Frank, my love, I am not going to say it was an accident, or blame it on my being drunk. But it was a mistake. If anything, I don't deserve you, but I need you. I don't know what came across me, I wanted someone and someone was right next to me. But I don't want you, I need you. You are the best thing that has happened to me, and I can't live without you. You don't even have to forgive me, but please don't leave me. Please Frank." Gerard cried. I took a breath.

"Of course I won't leave you Gerard. I love you." I finally say. Gerard kisses me again, and as if on time, Nicole walks back in.

"Alright Frank, it will only take about 2 more days until you are able to go back to the dorm, but, please no exercising, it will open the cuts, and will hurt a lot." Nicole informs me. "Also, take a pill twice a day for the next two weeks. Including today, and tomorrow." I nod, and Nicole leaves the room. I grab the cup of water from the side table, and take one of the pills. I look back at Gerard, and realize he needs food, sleep, and a shower.

"Gerard, I know you don't want to leave, but I need you to go back to the dorms, and take a nice long shower. After, eat a big meal, and take a nap. Then, if you want, you can come back." I tell Gee. Gerard looks at me with confused eyes, for why would I want him gone.

"It is for your health baby, please." I beg. Gerard sighs in defeat, and kisses my head.

"Fine, but I'm coming back very soon." Gerard promises, as he hurried out the door. I took a nap, and in about two hours, Gerard rushes back in, looking clean, and refreshed. Soon enough, the two days were over, and I was able to go back home. Gerard walked me to the cab, and helped me inside. My cuts were healing, but they were wrapped so they could heal faster. Once we got to the college from the hospital, Gerard pulled out a tie.

"Um, Gerard? I kinda have cuts on my arms and legs, I don't know if kinky sex would be good right now." I laugh. Gerard laughs, them comes behind me and puts the tie over my eyes, blindfolding me.


"Okay, so I'm either being fake-kidnapped and then going to have great sex after, or I'm just going to be blindfolded while we have great sex." I state. Gerard just puts my hand in his and walks me, occasionally pulling me a little stronger in different directions so I don't hit a plant or something. Soon enough we stop, and I hear a door open. I get guided in, and the blindfold is taken off.

"So I wanted to get people to come but then they would want to know why you were in the hospital and that's your personal information, and I know this isn't much but I just wanted you to be happy when you got back and-" Gerard mumbles, but I cut him off with a kiss. I don't know what he is talking about, this is amazing. The whole dorm was cleaned up, and on my wall, there was about a million Black Flag, The Misfits, Green Day, Blink-182, and more posters. There was a gift with about 17 balloons around it, covering our ceiling, and a big box of chocolate donuts next to it as well. There was also a big bag, and when I say big, I mean it was huge. I walk with Gerard over the the gifts, and pick up the box first.

"Are these for me?" I ask, in a shy voice, and Gerard nods. I kiss him on the cheek, and open the box. I dig through tissue paper, and I find something that caught my breath away. It was a drawing of Gerard and I, drawn in a unique and cartoon way, with rough edges, and amazing shading, on a large canvas. On the bottom, was Gerard's famous signature.

"You drew this Gerard? It is amazing! I love it so much! Thank you, I'm putting this right on my wall next to my bed so I can see it every night." I say, my eyes sparkling. I hug the drawing, and give Gerard a big kiss on the lips.

"Open the bag!" Gerard says, maybe a little too excitedly. I throw the tissue paper out, and slowly peek inside.

Holy. Kinky. Shit.

The first thing I saw was rope, and a bunch of red ties and bandanas. Then I dug deeper, and found the sexiest lingerie, a cock ring, a plug, and more crazy toys, and makeup and more girl shit. Gerard must really like dressing as a girl I guess. I look at Gerard, almost about to laugh, and I see his face. He looked so excited.

"Fuck Gerard, when did you become so kinky?" I laughed. He playfully pulled at my hair, then shrugged his shoulders.

"I don't know, it just is really hot when you tie me up." Gerard laughed. We spent the rest of the day watching movies, cuddled, and eating the whole box of donuts. I took my second pill for the day, and soon fell asleep in the love of my life's arms.

Notes

Yay! A happy chapter! Also since you guys wanted some more kinky shit, I brought you what you wanted.

Kinky shit(or at least leading up to it.)

I promise next chapter something will happen(smut wise) so yaY! anyways, hopefully you enjoyed frerard making up and frank recovering.

Love,
Noelle <3