But You're Beautiful To Me..

Woah. My boyfriend was the best singer I have ever heard. No joke, he is amazing at everything, singing, drawing, sex, like I mean come on.

"Um guys? Stop staring, this is freaking me out." Gerard stutters. I go over to him and kiss him lightly, pulling away, still tasting the coffee and cigarettes taste that over takes his mouth. We soon realize it seems about time to head back to our college, so we thank Mikey and Aly, and head back. After the long taxi ride, we walk to our building, where our dorm is held. I soon see Erica making out with some guy against the wall, and anger boils inside me. What is she doing? And who is that guy? I walk with Gerard at my side over to her and the mystery guy, but once they notice us and pull away, the guy is no mystery.

"Oh, hey Frank, and Gee. Did you guys know that Erica and I are dating now? You were right Frank, she is really fucking hot." Alex smirks as he grabs Erica's ass, making her jump a little. I push Alex against the wall, ready to punch, but Erica grabs my hand and puts it down.

"Frank what are you doing? He is cool now, whatever you did to him and he did to you, he said he doesn't care anymore, and everything is okay." Erica says calmly. I look at her, and then Alex, then back to her in disgust. Whatever. They can make out and all they want, but if Alex hurts another one of my friends, he won't have anyone to tell me to stop. I grab Gerard roughly and kiss him passionately, my hands running up and down his body, grinding my half-hard cock against his thigh. Gerard moans, and quickly picks up the pace, following my intensity. I can hear the noises coming from Alex's throat, he wanted this. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Erica looking at me, with hurt in her eyes. She deserves this for dating the guy that abused my boyfriend, and tried to do it with me as well. I close my eyes again, and feel Gerard's cock quickly getting harder in my palm. I pull away though, and Gerard whimpers, obviously wanting more.

"Just to let you guys know, whatever you were doing, was not kissing. That was." I sneered bluntly as I grabbed Gerard's arm and shoved past them, into the boy's building. Once we get to our dorm, I push Gerard onto the bed and unbutton his pants, ripping them off. I pull off his boxers, immediately seeing how hard Gerard was.

"You little slut, look how hard you are for me already? You're mine, always will be." I growl, dragging my nails down his thigh. He moans a "yes" and also a couple swear words. I grab Gerard's hard cock in my hands, and start pumping, and running my fingers over the sensitive tip, squeezing the shaft.

"Fuck me Gerard." I demand, and he pants as he quickly throws off my pants and boxers and comes closer to me. I hiss as I feel the sharp pain from him putting two fingers in me without warning. I could tell he was as hungry for this as I was, I could tell by the way he was breathing and how he kept touching my whole body, from my hair to my legs. He reached for the lubricant under my bed, squeezing some on his hand and rubbing it onto his cock. He starts rubbing faster, and I smile. He rubs some around me, and puts his cock into me in a quick shove. I start to ride him, bouncing up and down, pushing him further into me. He gripped the bed sheets tightly, not knowing what to do exactly with his hands. An idea popped into my head, and I grinned. I reached next to me to my bedside drawer and took out two ties. Gerard raised an eyebrow at me, and I grabbed one of his hands, and used one of the ties to tie it to the bedpost. I did the same for the other. I position fully back on him, and Gerard's hips bucked further towards me, taking all of him in me. I move up in down, while kissing his chest, and nibbling around the nipple. He moans very loudly, trying to touch me, but the ties restraining him.

"Frank, let me touch you please!" He begs, I laugh and get off of him, bringing my cock towards his face. He knows what to do, and puts it in his mouth, hollowing his cheek as he sucks me. I soon orgasm and come into his mouth, and he swallows it all. I pat his head.

"Good slut. Now what are we going to do about you?" I tease, motioning towards his fully hard and throbbing cock. He whines and whimpers, trying to get out of his restraints.

"Frank, I need to come please!" Let me touch myself!" Gerard yells, and I think of an even better idea.

"Gerard, come for me untouched." I reply. He looks at me strangely, but soon enough the white liquid comes out of his cock, coating his thighs., as he moans a loud noise. I untie him and we both fall back together on the bed, warm, and holding each other. Soon, Gerard gets up and is the first one to speak.

"That was some really good sex." Gerard laughs. I nod vigorously and pick up my phone since it keeps vibrating.

From: Pete Wentz
Hey! I'm throwing another party. Frats and sororities allowed, but I doubt any are coming. You and Gerard should come.

To: Pete Wentz
Sure. I'll ask Gerard.

A party would be a good way to get everything off our minds. And, Pete's parties I guess are good luck, it is why Gerard and I are dating.

"Hey, Gee, wanna go with me to Pete's party in a couple of hours?" I ask. Gerard nods and I text Pete.

To: Pete Wentz
He's going. What's the theme?

From: Pete Wentz
Pimps and Hoes. Cya there ;)

I laughed so hard I fell off the bed.

"What is it? Was it the theme?" Gerard smirked. I took a deep breath and let out a giggle.

"Let's just say I'm going to dress like a pimp, and you're my slut like I said earlier." I tried to say in a calm tone, but burst into laughter. I expected Gerard to freak out and say how he isn't going anymore, but his eyes sparkled, and he faced me.

"I'll be the hottest damn slut at the party. Now you get ready quickly so I can make it a surprise." Gerard whispers in a sexy tone, picking up a towel from the shelf and wrapping it around himself. He waves the shower card in his hand, and I nod as he walks out the door. I pull out an old, douchebag looking, navy blue suit, and some hair gel. I throw on the suit, and keep on my black converse. I gel my hair to look half frat boy, half hipster, and do a thin line of eyeliner. Once I'm fully ready, Gerard comes back from the shower, and makes me leave the room. I don't want to stand outside my dorm for an hour, so I pull out my phone.

To: Ray Toro
Hey Ray! Are you going to Pete's party?

From: Ray Toro
Of course! Wanna come over and hang before the party? My girlfriend is getting ready with her friends.

To: Ray Toro
Same. Except, by himself. See ya soon.

I chuckled to myself as I called Gerard my girlfriend. I head over to Ray's, and see him in his pimp outfit, drinking beer and smoking a joint.

"Give me a hit." I laugh, taking the joint from him. I take a couple puffs, and breathe in the warm smoke. I grab a beer from the mini fridge, and finally realize how thirsty I was. I drink the whole beer within a matter of 2 minutes, and grab another, drinking all of it in one gulp. Ray just stares at me, and I take the joint from him again, taking 3 more hits.

"Fuck's sake dude, are you trying to forget something?" Ray asks nervously. I giggle and hiccup, and shake my head.

"No, I just had really great sex. And now I want to partayyyyyy!" I yell, throwing my hands in the air. Ray sits me down, and soon I drift off into sleep, obviously forgetting about how much I wanted to 'party'.

I wake up to the sound of my ringtone, and pick it up.

"Hello? Gerard i-is that you?" I slurred.

"Hey baby. I can tell you're drunk, which is fine, because I am kinda too. Come back to the dorm. It's time to go to Pete's party." Gerard says in a high voice.

"Well Ray, I better go. My girl is ready, and I need to go escort my hoe to the party." I laugh, and chuckle harder seeing Ray's confused face at the whole 'girl' thing. I walk back to my dorm, and knock on the door. I'm not as drunk anymore, the sleeping helped get it off plus the walk. Soon enough, the door opens. Out comes the hottest person I have ever seen. Gerard's red hair is straightened down in a messy but hot way, and he was wearing red lipstick that matched his hair, and his eyelashes were super dark, and I can see his eyeliner that made his eyes look even more golden than they were. He wore this sexy lingerie top, that had ruffles at the end, barely covering his ass. Under, he was wearing fishnet stockings, and high black boots.

"What the fuck Gerard? I thought you were the hottest person and now you're confusing me even more?" I laugh, giving him a kiss. He returns it, then grabs my hand and pulls me out of the hallway and we head to Pete's party. Once we get there, I put my arm around Gerard and walk in. I can already see the girls checking me out, and the guys checking Gerard out, probably thinking he is a really hot girl. I pull Gerard to the dance floor and he starts grinding on me, and I can see everyone around us staring, obviously wanting to be us. I take a break, and go to grab us drinks. I see Erica and Alex making out in the corner, but I try to ignore them while I pour two beers into a cup. I come back and I don't see Gerard anywhere on the dancefloor. I look around and finally see his red hair, he was sitting down. I handed him the drink and kissed him, and he kissed back. Then, he chugged the beer, and three more. I, myself, wanted a cigarette. I headed into the kitchen and sure enough saw some guy with a pack.

"Hey, want to light me up?" I ask, pulling out a stick from his pack. He nods, and lights the bottom with his black lighter.

"Hey, you're Frank Iero right? You're the one that showed up with that really hot girl, right? Sorry is she is your girlfriend, but that ass was a better ass than any of the girls I have ever dated had." The guys laughs. I take a puff, and a sip of my second beer.

"Well, she is my boyfriend, his name is Gerard. And yes, I know how hot his ass is. My dick has been inside of it." I say with no emotion. The guy looks at me with a weird face and I can tell I should leave now. I go back to the spot Gerard was at, except he isn't there anymore. I look around the whole place, until I see red hair behind a guy. They were making out, and Gerard was feeling him while the guy was grabbing onto his butt. A lump went to my throat, and my vision started to fog up. I grabbed the guy by the collar and threw him into the wall. I punched him so hard, and kept punching him until I felt my knuckles were raw and he was unconscious. Gerard kept pulling me away but I shrugged him off until I was finished. I then turned to him.

"How could you Gerard? I know you're drunk but how? You said you were mine, and you were always going to be! And after you fuck me, you go off and hook up with another guy? Who probably thought you were a girl? Well, I'm done with this if you are going to do this. Go even fuck Alex, I don't care." I cry, tears pouring down my face. Gerard stares at me, silently crying, not knowing what to say, or do. I run my hands through my hair, and walk out the door. I take gulps of fresh air, and soon enough, the crying stops. But the pain doesn't. I need something stronger than alcohol.

I get back to my dorm, and dig under all of Gerard's shit to find the small cabinet in the wall Alex made. It's where he kept all of the drugs he had, and he forgot about it, but I never did. I took out a bag of pills, and swallowed about 8. Soon, I started feeling light, but I couldn't get rid of the pain in my chest. Fuck it.

I opened my drawer, and took out my razor. I smashed it on the ground, and watched as the 3 shiny blades fell out. I picked up one, and smiled a high smile as I saw it glisten from the light coming off my phone. I held it to my skin, and dragged it up and down, across. I made letters and soon, my whole left arm was a beautiful crimson color. I put the blade in my left arm now, and while it still stung, I drew pictures on my right. I drew a heart, and then slashed it out. I wrote 'Gerard', and then an 'X' over it. Soon enough, both arms were almost unrecognizable as arms. They just looked like bloody pieces of raw flesh. I gagged at this thought, and took a sip of the half-empty bottle of who-knows-what on the floor. I moved on to my thighs, and this time, didn't even try. I just slashed and slashed, until the drugs took over and I drifted off into darkness.

Notes

OH. MY. GOD.
Okay, first off, THANK YOU FOR 1K READS OMG!!
Second, no, Frank did not die. I would never do that to you guys!
But yes, there needed to be some kinkyness, smut, and violence this chapter. Say 'I" if you want more kinky stuff, or don't say it if you don't really want that shit. Anyways, thank you guys for everything!
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Noelle <3

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