Please Don't Take This Out On Me

"So Frankie..." Gerard's words were nearly muffled by our kiss but I heard him. "Mmh?" I whimpered; still keeping him close. "Will you go down on your knees for me now?"
My legs were buckling under my weight, and the thought of what Gerard was asking me to do was certainly an influence. His tongue was slowly sliding along mine and my head was a mess, because all I wanted to do was kiss him. His warm tongue pushed back against my own and I let out a quiet, happy moan. He let me continue to tug at his hair frantically while I panted and felt his hand slide up and down my thigh. I had forgotten I was completely naked, and was starting to feel a little bit uncomfortable and exposed.
Gerard broke the kiss to push me against the wall and nip at my neck. As tempting as it was having his mouth mark me again, I took the opportunity to grip his shirt and try to pull him off. I wanted to do what I wanted. "G-Gee-"
His eyes blazed fire again as he abruptly ripped off me and gave me a stony glare. "What?" He bit down on his bottom, plump, lip and I gently kissed him, before sliding shakily down onto my knees. I looked up at him with the most innocent eyes I could manage and watch as his eyes widened with desire and need.
"Frankie, such a good boy, aren't you?" I nodded, trying to ignore the panic that came over me. To be truthful, I liked when he called me a good boy, because I wanted to be good for him. I wanted him to praise me when I cooperated, it was kind of hot.
Oh god, what has happened to me since I've come here?
Gerard raked his hands through my hair, bringing me back to the present and back to his hungry desire for me. I gave a little smirk and whispered "be patient, baby," as I finally started to feel power over him. Is this how he feels when he's in control?
i could do anything I wanted to with him right now. And I know he'd give in, with the way he's gently pulling at the black strands of hair on the front of my head, and the way he wants my head up and sucking him off. I could tease him, make him beg.
"Please Frankie-" he whimpered,and that's where I snapped.
Running my hand along the waistline of his boxers, I slowly slip them down with a soft tug. Gerard's member sprang out and I had to bite my lip to keep from moaning when I looked up at his beautiful face. His mouth was open, small noises were slipping out and he was gripping my shoulders as if his life depended on it. His eyes were shut and his head was tilted back against the wall. Fuck he is so hot.
Swallowing the nerves in my stomach, I slowly leaned forward and licked the tip of his cock lightly; watching as he mewled quietly and tightened his grip on my shoulders. He sounded so weak and powerless, like a little kitten. Satisfied with how I was making him feel, I took him in my mouth quickly and resisted the urge to groan.
Gerard's eyes stayed closed but his mouth started moaning, much louder than I'd ever heard him moan before. He wanted this. I could make him feel as good as he made me feel sometimes.
I slowly swirled my tongue around him and watched closely as he whimpered and started bucking his hips into my mouth. I took him in further and winced at how big he felt in my small mouth, but I could take it. The pain was worth it.
He was panting noisily now, hungrily even. I felt a surge of pride when I realized that I was the one doing this to him and making him feel like this. "Mmh-" Gerard whimpered and I hushed him by sucking a little bit harder.
Only a couple moments later, I gagged slightly as he hit the back of my throat and he jerked forward. "Fuck- Frankie- I'm so close baby-" My eyebrows knitted together in concentration as I sucked him off faster, and as hard as I could. His whimpers and moans became louder and he tilted his head forward so I could see his eyes were open and staring right at me.
I looked at him with the most innocent expression I could manage and rolled my tongue over his slit; watching his eyes widen and his hands make their way into my hair.
"Frankie - you're such a good boy-" Gerard got cut off as he came with a cry; shooting his load into my mouth and panting harshly, he tugged at my hair even more. Ignoring the throb in my jaw as he pulled out, I swallowed everything in my mouth and stood up to face Gerard.
His eyes were mostly filled with desire, but I could see some adoration in them as he cupped my cheek with one hand.
"Good boy, Frankie."
His lips met my cheek, then dipped down to nibble at my jaw, then back up to my forehead. I closed my eyes and stood still as I let him reward me gently with his kisses. This was the calm Gerard I liked.
"I love you," I croaked out, letting my eyes flutter open and staring up at him. "I really love you."
Gerard's lips met my neck again and I sighed happily and wrapped my arms around his neck. It was heaven. He was heaven. I loved him so much, no matter what he did to me. He could beat me bloody one day then the next just cuddle with me and I'd love him forever. God, I just wanted him. I was always told it was important to leave an abusive relationship where pressure to do certain things was an issue, but I couldn't leave Gerard, I just couldn't. I loved the way he made me feel, how my heart swelled up every time he looked my way, or how his hands were so soft and felt so good tangled in my hair. I loved how good it felt when we fucked - no - made love for the first time. I loved him.
And as he pulled away I took his hand and looked him in the eyes, all I could see now was fear.
Maybe he loved me back too, he was just too scared to say it.

Notes

Well I think I'm going to hell... Oh well as long as there's wifi there. I've had so much homework it's actually crAZY guys I am soooo sorry (my story sucks ik im just apologizing for those who actually read it)

I'm dedicating this chapter to @xofrnkxo because they left the SWEETEST comment down below about how they've been subscribed since day 1 and they love this fic. Thank you so so much, buddy, for reading this crap and saying how much you enjoy it!!! It really means a lot to me :) <3 and your comment made my day, honestly! :) It is the reason I forced myself to write an update so there you go, this is for you! Thanks for being an amazing reader!

-Franky

ps- for those of you who want more of me go read my new fic on wattpad 'Dirty Pretty' (by honeyghost) or if you like oneshots, on my account 'imaginethegay'