And then both of our shirts were off and he was kissing up my chest and to the base of my throat; whispering seductively to me and causing me to arch up my back and tug at his hair. Tears streamed down my face as the most beautiful man in the world brought his lips to my ear to ask me if I was sure. And I didn't know if I was, but I nodded anyway.


"Just tell me if it's too much, beautiful." Gerard pushed a strand of my hair back and kissed my neck gently. I closed my eyes and let a soft gasp escape my lips. Gerard's red hair was tickling my cheeks and his hands travelled lower down my body to pull off my jeans and boxers at a pace that suggested he'd done it more than once. "G-Gee-" I whimpered. "I n-need you to l-love me."
I couldn't tell exactly what was going through my mind at that moment, but I was just stressed and feeling super deprived of love and wanting as much physical contact as I could possibly get. My hands were grabbing at every inch of Gerard they could reach and trying to get him closer, closer. Close wasn't even close enough.
Gerard was hushing me quietly, but I couldn't hear him over the heavy pounding of my torn heart. I could feel myself thrashing around a bit without registering what I was doing, and eventually my hands were pinned back down against the floor.
"Frank."
I could hear my name being called several times but I couldn't respond. I was too busy in my own head, feeling light and like I was floating. I was going to have sex with Gerard. Willingly. I was going to feel this beautiful man inside of me. The thought made me want to just close my eyes and give up all control. I wanted him to make me forget all my troubles, and about my sick mama.
"Sweetheart, I'm going to prep you now. Tug at my hair if you want me to stop." I let my eyes flicker shut and felt as Gerard pushed a finger into my entrance. The feeling was slightly uncomfortable, but I could feel my whole body start to relax after a bit. Gerard was very gentle as he slipped another finger into me and started to move them around. My breathing sped up and I squeezed my eyes shut tighter. This might end up being painful after all. His fingers grazed one spot in particular and I whimpered; letting my mouth fall open a bit.
I could practically hear the smirk in Gerard's mouth as he casually whispered "I think you're good." I slipped my hand through his and squeezed. I kept my breathing even as I could see him line up his tip at my entrance, and then push in slowly.
I let my head fall back against the carpet and I let out a quiet moan. "It h-hurts Gee." I forced myself to suck in more air into my lungs and not think about the pain. My bum felt like it was on fire, and I could feel my stomach muscles clench up. Gerard squeezed my hand tightly and gave my cheek gentle kisses and continued to slowly push inside of me.
My nails dug into his hand and I could feel sweat gather on my neck and palms as I squeezed my eyes shut tighter.
Breathe, Frank.
"You okay baby?" Gerard asked quietly and I nodded with my eyes still closed. "Frankie look at me."
I flinched a bit and slowly opened my eyes. Gerard was smiling down at me, and I swear he looked like an angel at that moment. His eyes were sparkling and he looked like he was relaxed and happy to be with me. It made me start to relieve tension in my neck and shoulders so I would feel better. "Hi beautiful. Just take a deep breath okay?"
I nodded and started slowly inhaling and exhaling with Gerard still holding my hand, and occasionally rubbing my palms with his thumb.
"Deep breath," he whispered and then started thrusting inside me.
I let out a quiet scream and dug my nails into his back; pulling him to me so there wasn't an inch separating us. Oh god... he hurt...
Gerard flipped his hair back and I wrapped an arm around the back of his neck. My mouth fell open and I was letting out quiet, desperate sqeuaks. The pain was slowly starting to fade and it was starting to feel... Good.
"Gerard please-" I moaned desperately as he hit one spot inside me that he had touched with his fingers, except this time it felt one hundred times better. "Please-"
Gerard made sure to keep hitting that spot every time he thrusted inside me and soon I was screaming and clawing harshly at his back and his head was buried in my neck and we were both sweaty, tangled messes.
"It feels so good please-" I squeaked; at this point just babbling nonsense. Nothing could drag me away from this right now, not even my mom coming back. I just wanted to be with Gerard, and doing this with him was such a magical experience. as cheesy as it sounds.
"Fuck, Gerard-" I whimpered as I could feel a knot in my stomach grow larger and larger and I curled my toes and gripped his shoulders. My entire body was shaking and it felt like it would just shatter in a million pieces so I held Gerard even tighter.
"Come for me Frankie, please," Gerard whispered; moving his lips to suck on my earlobe and I let out the loudest moan yet.
"O-okay-" I let a string of swear words and grunts slip from my mouth as I let go and came all over his chest and mine quickly. I let my eyes flicker shut and I tried to suck in deep, even breaths to calm myself down. I was panting at such a rapid speed and starting to feel dizzier and dizzier as Gerard yelled out one last "fuck-" and came inside of me.
"Frankie, you okay little boy?"
I couldn't move. My eyes were closing and a happy smile formed on my lips. I felt so high.
"Frankie?"
And with that being the last thing I heard, I passed out in the arms of my love.

Notes

Did that make up for my absence? :( I'm sorry guys...

Do any of you like Motionless in White? You should read 'Dirty Pretty' by honeyghost on wattpad bc it looks pretty good so far and I'm rlly into the band haha.

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-Franky