Troubled and Hurt

*POV Frank*

Even though I have troubles at home, I obviously also have troubles at school. School stresses me out and I often go insane on days we have lots of homework. I have 3 very close friends, Bob, Ray, and Pete. Bob can be very blunt and I often let him know by slightly hurting him. It works, usually. Ray is the sweetest and he can brighten my day just by being around. Pete has been held back a few times, but he’s very nice and cool. My dad has been taking on extra time at work, probably to avoid me. We used to have breakfast and dinner together, but now he usually leaves early and comes home at a very late time. Often I have opportunities to talk to him but I don’t, I don’t think I can handle that hateful stare ever again. This morning, the first day of school, Bob and I were going to walk to school together. I woke up a few minutes early so I could see my dad leave. I know he doesn’t care for me anymore, but I still love him, even after what he’s put me through. I grabbed a bagel and slipped outside, after him. I saw him open up his car door. He looked up. Our eyes had met and before I knew it I felt tears welling up. All he did was look at me for a few seconds. Then, to my great surprise, he waved and whispered, “I love you.” I didn’t hear it, but I saw his lips form the words. I smiled and waved back, forming the same words back. I saw him smile as he ducked his head and shut the door. Once he was out of the street is was completely silent. It was still dark, and I decided to just sit down on my front steps. The cool air and slight breeze felt great. All I could think was, I hope today will be okay.

LATER

I had gone back inside and was now sitting on my bed, listening to music. I hummed along as I got up and pulled on my skinny jeans. My mom knocked and told me it was time to leave if I wanted to be on time for school. I finished packing my bag and headed downstairs. I kissed my mom on the cheek, told her I loved her, and opened the door with a smile clearly visible on my face. I was happy, happier than I have been for the past few weeks, at least. Bob was waiting by the porch, whom greeted me with a side hug and a smile. We talked for a while, somehow excited for school. We realized we were already late anyway, so we took a detour to Starbucks. While we were there I mentioned the fact I hoped there would be new hot guys. Bob just laughed and said he hoped for new hot girls. We laughed as we walked to school. We had the same homeroom teacher we had last year, Mr. Biersack. He’d be so pissed at us for being 15 minutes late, and that is now. It would probably take another 5-10 minutes for us to actually get to his room. I didn’t really mind, first day of homeroom was basically introducing the new kids, and nobody tends to talk to me, so it’s not like I really care about meeting the new kids. And either way, if I would like to, I could see them any other day of the week, this first class period means absolutely nothing to me. We walked to school, drinking our beverages and talking about what we did in the summer. I had really missed my friends so I’m excited to see Ray and Pete when I actually get to class. Pretty soon we arrived at campus and starting jogging to our homeroom, but when we turned a corner, I accidentally ran into someone else, we both fell. I was just a bit shocked and my butt hurt, other than that I was fine, Bob, being his protective, rude self, immediately scolded the kid by telling him to look where he’s walking. When I looked up and my eyes met with the boy I had just run into, I couldn’t speak nor think. He seemed very fragile, but he was also extremely hot. He had long hair covering his face, so I couldn’t really see his eyes, but his lips were small, he was a bit taller than me, but seemed so much smaller just because of his frame and the fact that he was shaking. We had a small conversation and I learned that Mr. Biersack (being himself) had been an asshole towards the new boys, and the beautiful boy called Gerard had run off. His brother, whom was younger but much taller and stronger, was called Mikey, had run after Gerard. He had been holding and swaying Gerard lightly while telling the story, apparently Gerard doesn’t talk much. Mikey was now holding his hand while Gerard leaned against him as we walked to class. Mikey was really cute too, but there was something about Gerard that was so special and I couldn’t resist looking at him. He was worried Mr. Biersack would just pick up from where he had left off, but before entering the class, I had reassured that wouldn’t happen. Knowing him, he’d yell at Bob and me for the rest of the period, or at least most of it. I don’t know why, or where the hell it came from, but I winked. I felt my cheeks turn hotter right after I did it so I quickly went inside. While Mr. Biersack was talking to Bob and me, I saw Gerard and Mikey were talking to Pete and Ray. Knowing they’d be in our close circle of friends soon, I smiled. I hadn’t listened to anything Mr. Biersack had said, I was too busy thinking of Gerard and looking at the dynamics going on with my friends and my new friends. I knew Gerard didn’t talk much, I hadn’t said much to him, and I know nothing about him, but I wanted him, I wanted him so bad. But somewhere in the back of my mind I was thinking I could never get him anyway and the caring character and charming looks of Mikey would have my heart soon enough. I tried to deny that for now. I don’t even know these guys, and I can’t like both of them, it’s wrong. I decided to get to know them better before deciding anything. Even though I had the dilemma of which of the brothers I like better, I thought of what had happened this morning with my dad, and decided today really was a good day, so far.

Notes

I'M SO SORRY I HAD NO WIFI SO I COULDN'T UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!

but now, the story can continue, and I hope you guys enjoy it :-)

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