I'll Mess Up Everything!

The car journey home was awkward to say the least. Gerard and I did not exchange a word at all yet I'm not surprised at all. It was eerie and terrifying, and soon enough my old 'friend' decided to come back. 

This is your fault. 
You've destroyed Gerard. 
He hates you. 
Mikey hates you. 
Everyone. Hates. You. 

EVERYONE. 

I muffled my tears and rubbed my temple roughly, Gerard not noticing my trouble. But why would he care now? I'm the one He should not give a shit about right now. Many things must be running through his head. Mikey, his mom and his own conscience. 
The car chugged and churned as it slowed to a stop. I looked around nervously and took in the scene. Outside looked- normal. The sun was shining, the trees were illuminated a golden shade as the sun came down after what seemed to us as the longest day ever. People were still smiling, laughing, not us. Gerard gave a stern look at me and a half-smile. 
"Here we are." he announced shakily. 
"Where is 'here'?" I asked curiously. It seemed to be some kind of park, or public area, but there asnt a lot of people here ask nighttime was tasty approaching. 
"This- this is where we used to come when we were younger. It was like a safe haven for us. I always loved how incredible and artistic it looks at all times, nothing could ruin this place. I thought, maybe it could cheer us up? Maybe a bit of sunshine and beauty could make us feel more human." he smiled as he held my hand lightly, playing with the ring on my finger that symbolizes our ever lasting love and devotion. He lead us through paths, bridges and various other sculptures and features before he stopped at this one spot, and you could tell it was what he was looking for.

The area was perfect, it looked as if nobody had ever touched it and that it has been preserved over the years that Gerard has been visiting here. You could tell it was somewhere special. 
"I've been here when I'm at my lowest. When I went through bullying, fights, deaths. I only really remember the time when my grandma Elena died-" he choked. I held his hand in reassurance and lead him to the ground next to me for which the grass seemed to take our shape and mould to us, creating a rather comfy surface. 
"I laid here for hours, just staring up at the sky. I'll never forget her, she gave me everything. She gave me a reason to live and everything that I'm good at is because of her." he looked up briefly and then straight into my eyes. 
"But I didn't bring you here to bring more sadness, that's the last thing I want to do." he began. 
"What did you want to do?" I asked softly. 
"I wanted to give you this-" he replied as he reached in his jacket pocket. He took a deep breath and pulled out the little box. 
"Oh Gerard- what is it?" 
"This belonged to her. To my grandmother. It was given to her by her husband, my grandfather, as a gift. He gave it to her to show her how much she meant to him, but she always said 'he never just gave me a ring, he gave me years of happiness and what was meant by the gesture was more than just a ring of gold'. I never thought I would get to experience love as deep as theirs, but she gave this to me before she died and told me to give it to my one true love when I find them." his eyes shone even brighter than what they gave ever done before has he scanned my face. 
"And Frank. I think I've found him. You. So I want you to have this." he finished as he opened the box and revealeved the most beautiful ring I have ever seen. 
"Gerard I-" before I could say it, I know I can't reject it. It seems like such an important object to him, yet it is what his grandmother wanted. 
"It's beautiful." 
He placed the ring in my hand and I examined this beautiful piece. 
"What does that say?" I asked as I saw engraving on the inside.
"It says 'Iunge Corda' which means 'entwined hearts' in Latin I believe. My grandparents Were such romantics and I kind of looked up to their love in a kind of- inspiration." he breathed. 
"I love you, thank you." I said as I fitted the ring on above my wedding ring. It looked perfect. 

The immensity of the gesture was incredible. I never thought that I would get someone as good as Gerard. 
For the rest of the night, we laid there under the stars as I rested my head on Gerard as he told me stories that he and Mikey would tell each other to make them feel better. After a while, we drifted off into a peaceful silence of just enjoying the others company, that was until a voice picked up.

'Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself, 
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting'

And the moment could not have been more perfect. 

Notes

Heeellloooo! So quick update, I'm dead with all these exams, seriously fuck that shit.
oh and by the way I've changed my display name to 'VERYMUCHALIVE' because I can. Sorry if that may cause confusion but meh.