Vacation Doesn't Count

“POV Gerard”

Mikey and my mom have been trying to comfort me, even though they weren’t there when I started talking to Frank, or any time I was close to Frank. My family seemed not to give a damn about me this summer. Since Mikey was gone to a camp for half the summer, I was dragged along to this vacation. Luckily I met Matt and was accepted by his friends. I told them almost immediately about the fact I’m bi, since that’s a huge apart about myself. It was fun, drinks every night and having friends. Then one day I saw a boy, a bit younger than me, much smaller. He had long, black, messy hair and small lips. His small hands were really cute and his black skinny jeans, Rolling Stones shirt, and pale skin were undeniable. I had known immediately I had to talk to talk to him and find out about him. I had gotten another beer and was pulled into a conversation with Matt right before I was going to start talking to him. I looked around a little but could not see him anywhere. Suddenly Matt said, “oh hey Frank! Um, have you met Gerard?” Hearing my name I kind of turned, half reluctant since I didn’t find him. Shockingly, he stood right in front of me. “Um, no… not yet no. Hi… I’m Frank, nice to meet you Gerard.” He said stuttering a bit. I laughed since it was cute and responded, “Nice to meet you too, Frank.” I was shocked at myself I managed to talk to him, you see I was awestruck at how much I paid attention to the details of his face. I now saw he had a small, black lip ring on the right side of his bottom lip, and that he had relatively large eyes, which made him look cute. I mean, he was cute, but then his outfit and his voice and lip ring… made him fucking hot. Frank and I had hit it off great and walked off somewhere else, away from people, on the beach. We had talked for a bit, then fucked. It was amazing. We carried on our friendship and relationship throughout the day, and during the night we had more deep conversations and sharing of secrets, and then, well, you know… When my dad had told me were leaving I told Frank, and had been upset ever since. It was now one week before school starts, 4 weeks ago since I saw Frank. Mikey had been a great brother to me and was always there to support and protect me. He was all I could ever ask for. Apparently we had new neighbors in the house that had been empty for almost a whole year, I don’t like people, don’t like meeting them, I refused to go greet them. Mom had baked them cookies, which she really enjoys doing, she asked me to bring them over, but I said I was busy since I was still kind of sulking and honestly, I had things to do. Mikey offered to go after a bit and when he walked out the house he was practically skipping. I knew he was happy since he had asked out Elizabeth, she said yes and they were going out tomorrow afternoon. I have heard a lot about her, so I’m happy for him. I wish I had someone that makes me feel that way too, Frank. I had Frank. I went back up to my room while Mikey was walking over to the other side of the street. I looked out the window when I entered my room and thought I recognized the boy standing in the doorway, is that, Frank? No, of course not. I couldn’t get him out of my mind since the day we had met, I’m far away now, and seeing someone with the same haircut, and I’m convinced it’s him. I checked again, but the door was closed again, and I heard Mikey shut ours just as I turned away from the window again. God I need to stop thinking about him. I decided to write some lyrics, (Mikey and are planning to have a band someday), and after that I drew a little, then I read a few chapters of the new book Mikey bought for me. By the time I was done with everything, I realized it was 1:30, and since it was the first day of school tomorrow… or… later (?), I decided to sleep so I don’t look too tired.

Notes

this is going to be happier from now on :))