Sickness

"So this is it" I thought to myself as I made my way out of my parents car a backpack slung over my shoulder while both my hands carrying two abnormally large suitcases
"Don't worry hunny this does not mean that we do not love you anymore this is for your own good" I heard my mums voice from behind me as she placed her palm on my right shoulder, I looked at her hand and gave her a fake smile. I hated school as it , having forced to go to a boarding one which is miles away from where I live and the few friends I have.
I got no idea how we got here , through out the journey I kept thinking why would they do this to me, separate me from my "friends" which I had a few and from my best friend ...my brother Mikey. It's not like when every parent finds out something shocking bout their teenage boy they send him away in a boarding school.
My mum interrupts me from my thoughts by hugging me tightly, I could hear her sob quietly, I don't feel sorry for her after all she did agree with dad to send me away, so she is part of this, and I could not be bothered to hug her back right now.
I am just standing here infront of a huge ass closed gate not wanting to pass on to the other side, I already know this is going to be much worse then my normal high school.
She lets go of me and tells me good bye, she then starts to walk towards the car and in a matter of seconds I was left alone there staring up ahead like an idiot.
Should I ring the bell? Or should I just grab my stuff and maybe walk down the road, who knows what good god has left for me, if he did. I wonder if he even exists, this month has been a living nightmare to me and so my family. I let out a chuckle and shake my head at that thought, after all in god's eye's I am one of the biggest sinners that have walked on earth.
I decided to ring the bell when a female voice came out the intercom.
"Yes may I help you?"
"I'm uhm.. I got registered about 2 weeks ago to come to this school?" I said
"Name?" The women said from the other side of the intercom.
"Gerard. Gerard Arthur Way miss". I said a little bit more formal then before from her voice she didn't seem to be a grumpy old lady
"Okay Gerard I'm coming to get you and show you around campus".
I waited for her to come out, I have little patience in me and waiting seems like eternity , never in my whole life do I remember being late to something. But yeah not everyone is the same, and so I waited for a few minutes maybe 10 max? When I saw a women walking to my direction...I thought it was her, she had long blonde straight hair, her fringe covering her forehead short enough for her rectangular glasses, she was wearing normal secretary clothing, pin skirt and a coat
"Gerard way?" She said while opening the gate from her card
I nodded and made my way inside knowing that this is going to be a fresh new start, bad start.
"Okay Gerard I am Ms. Button I'm the secretary here I'll show you round campus and then I'll take you to your dorm"
We started walking still with my bags and I was getting tired holding them so I asked if we could go to the dorm only, I can't be bothered in knowing all the details in this hell hole.
She didn't look too pleased about my question, she looked at my hands and nodded agreeing.
"Well Gerard, Some of your dorm friends will show you around the place, this way" She gestured with her hand showing the way to the dorm, We made it to the boys dorm? And stopped outside
"Oh Gerard, No boys are allowed in the girls dorm, You can't be caught out of your dorm after 11 at night your room is number 66 " she said, I nodded and she started walking.
I'm still having second thoughts about this place I should have taken the other road, I made my way up the three steps and took a deep breathe , This is it! Whatever awaits me from now on I shall take it all.
I opened the door and as soon as I stepped inside I get greeted with a football coming straight to my direction, I had to let go of my stuff to try and dodge it but it was no use I got hit right in the nose, god that is surely a great way to start my year in here, I ignored the laughter, grabbed my stuff and made my way to my room...number 66 huh? Yeah that's the number I remember my parents gave me a room key before we left home today.
I finally found my room on the left hallway of the second floor, this dorm is huge compared to the ones in movies.
I should unpack my stuff and maybe get bit of rest or just sleep the whole day through that is what I did for the past few weeks.
I started to unpack as I remember the things that happened these past few weeks. Funny how my parents found out I started dating someone they immediately sent me away after all the nagging telling me I should find someone and stop being such a fuck up. It's not wrong to date someone I know but depends with who... I was actually dating a guy for the past few months and we did get along great his name was Billie.
When I finally decided to tell my parents bout me being gay my dad was pissed off and said I was a disgrace for the family, my mum she started crying and Mikey...He knew about it all along.
That's why they sent me here to get my 'Cleaned', if I don't I shall not bother to return to their house until I become "normal" that's the word they used...seems like I am not normal so now you know why's a hell hole, it's a religious fucking school I don't know how they expect me to become normal by having a cross shoved up my ass by a priest who acts like a teacher.
Finally unpacked everything all my clothes are all in one drawer on top of each other don't know which is which. Who cares anyway? I don't and my mum isn't going to be here whining bout my hygiene not that this freaking room was the best hygienically place ever.
So I'll guess I'll just pass my day sleeping or sketch some things on my sketch-book that what I'm gonna do and tomorrow I'll start having classes like normal kids do here...I wonder what their story is, why are they stuck here. But I won't find out. I am an outcast. Always was and always will be.

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