I've Gotten Better, Have You?

Frank couldn't believe that Gerard was kissing him. So many years he missed this boy and now Frank was on his bed making out with him.... Of course they were high, but hey, Frank will take what he can get when it comes to Gerard.
"F-Frank" Gerard breathed as he pulls away to breathe, confusion washing over Frank as he stares at the tears running down Gerard's face. "no no no no, baby, why are you crying, im here, its okay" Frank trys to sooth Gerard as he sobs into Franks chest.
"Y-You left me, and i loved you, and you broke my heart" Gerard blubbers as he soaks Franks shirt with tears. Frank was shocked, it felt like someone had punched him in the face. This was all his fault, he made Gerard like this, he was a monster.
"Gerard, look at me" Frank tilts Gerard head up but Gerard continues, "and i knew you were older but you m-made me feel special and when i you left me i blamed myself, i destroyed myself because of you, because i loved you and you left me" Gerard seemed to raise his voice louder and louder.
Tears were now rolling down Franks face, he couldn't believe he'd caused Gerard so much pain... He was just as confused as Gerard was when he was young, he just didn't know how to deal with his feelings.
"I'm so sorry Gerard" Franks voice crack and he looked down into Gerards eyes, shocked to see that they were no longer filled with tears, but blood red with anger. "NO!!" Gerard screamed and stood u to face frank,
"YOU DON'T FUCKING DESERVE TO CRY!!! i SHOULD HAVE WENT TO THE POLICE ABOUT YOU BUT I DID'NT BECAUSE I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO THINK I STILL LOVED YOU. BUT NOW YOU'RE HERE AND ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE BUT YOU WONT LISTEN!!" Gerard was breathing heavily and Frank had never been more afraid of a 16 year old in his life.
The drugs Gerard took were getting to his head, making him see red and the blood trapped under his finger nails seemed so real, "What the fuck did you give me Frank?" Gerard growls. Frank was still staring wide eyed at his fuming student, he couldn't form words, he felt fresh tears threaten to fall from his eyes and he tried to will them back but he couldn't and he felt himself shake with guilt that made him feel sick.
"Stop crying" Gerard growled lowly, and Frank tried to stop, but he couldn't breathe and the short hiccuppy sobs were his only source oxygen. The red was growing stronger and before Gerard could stop.....
Smack!........
The sound echoed in the room and a bright red mark formed on Franks cheek..... Gerard was horrified with himself.... Frank may be an asshole, but he was still Frank..
"o-oh my god, Frank I'm so sorry" Gerard stumbles out as he climbs back onto his bed to inspect Frank face....... with his lips. Frank felt numb..... Gerard had hit him...... and he fucking deserved it.....
"Gerard, Gerard stop!" Frank pushed Gerard off him roughly, "i know your only talking to me because your high and you feel bad for hitting me, but once these freaky drugs stop working, you're going to realize i deserved it because I'm a fucking monster who deserves any punishment necessary for the crime of destroying one of gods most beautiful creatures" Frank looks at his hands.
Frank... Stop... Stop ruining this for me, this drug is the only thing keeping you here and not out on the streets. And i like it, i loved loving you, and i wish you would just shut up and kiss me, or fuck me" Gerard states bluntly.
"Gerard" Frank sighs, "i don't know what you think you're getting from me and i don't think you know either, i may have blurred you out over those four year, and i never felt betrayed or forgotten, but you did, and that's unforgivable, I'm sorry for getting you high on a school night", and with that.... Frank got off Gerard's bed, with tears in his eyes and a Gerard shaped hand print on his face, and walked back out into the streets.
Frank always left Gerard confused and slightly turned on, but Gerard silently agreed he was right. No matter how hard Gerard tried, he would never be able to love Frank Iero the way he did when he was young.....
'Now how do i get all this blood of my walls?!?!?!?'

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