Home Is Where The Heart Is

Gerard's P.O.V Time Lapse>>>>>>>>>> One month later. Home at last. "Welcome home." Everyone shouted as Dad led me in the door. I felt sick. It's too much, too soon. I rushed past them and ran to my room. I didn't stop there. I ran straight to the bathroom and threw up in the toilet. I knelt on the floor. Luckily for me, I didn't need to hold my hair back. I cut my hair yesterday and died it red. Bright red of course. I sat back against the bathroom side and rested my head back, eyes closed. I heard several footsteps advancing towards me. "Gerard?" Mikey said as he dropped to his knees infront of me. "Are you okay?" I sighed as I hugged my legs. I kept my eyes closed as I rested my chin on my knees. "I feel a little sick and dizzy." I admitted. "It's just too much, too soon. I need space. I need to lie down." "Want me to lay with you?" Kat asked. I still feel a little hurt about what she did. I saved her, nearly dying in the process. Then she left me because she thought I was too good for her? I thought she was too good for me. But I never hurt her like that. But I still love her. So I've forgiven her. I never told her this though. I don't ever intend telling her. She doesn't need to know. "I won't be very good company." I told her. "I don't mind." She said. "I just want to hold you. I missed you so much." I opened my eyes and smiled. "I missed you too." I said. "I'd love for you to join me." I slept for several hours. But I kept dreaming about what happened to Kat. What I saw when I descended the stairs. What followed. Everything. Now there's going to be a permanent reminder. The baby. Everyone thinks I was worried about the baby being inbred. It wasn't that. Truth is, I'm scared about when I have to tell him or her what happened to the Dad. What am I supposed to say? 'Your Dad was a sick fuck that raped his own sister. So I killed him.' Yeah. The Kid's gonna love me. I know she's not his sister. But he didn't know that. I slipped out of bed and went to the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it. I leaned my back against it and slid down to the floor. That familiar feeling was back. So I closed my eyes and sang. " Well, I know a thing about contrition, Because I got enough to spare. And I'll be granting your permission, 'Cause you haven't got a prayer. Well I said hey, hey hallelujah, I'm gonna come on sing the praise. And let the spirit come on through ya, We got innocence for days! Well, I think I'm gonna burn in hell, Everybody burn the house right down. And say, ha What I wanna say Tell me I'm an angel, Take this to my grave. Tell me I'm a bad man, Kick me like a stray. Tell me I'm an angel, Take this to my grave. (S-I-N, I S-I-N S-I-N, I S-I-N S-I-N, I S-I-N S-I-N, I S-I-N) You play ring around the ambulance, Well like you never gave a care. So get the choir boys around you, It's a compliment, I swear. And I said, ashes to ashes, we all fall down, I wanna hear you sing the praise, I said, ashes to ashes, we all fall down, We got innocence for days! Well, I think I'm gonna burn in hell, Everybody burn the house right down. And say, ha What I wanna say Tell me I'm an angel, Take this to my grave. Tell me I'm a bad man, Kick me like a stray. Tell me I'm an angel, Take this to my grave. You better run like the devil, 'Cause they're never gonna leave you alone! You better hide up in the alley, 'Cause they're never gonna find you a home! And as the blood runs down the walls, You see me creepin' up these halls. I've been a bad motherfucker Tell your sister I'm another Go! Go! Go! And I said, say, What I wanna say Tell me I'm an angel, Take this to my grave. Tell me I'm a bad man, Kick me like a stray. Tell me I'm an angel, Take this to my grave. Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man. Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man. Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man. Tell me I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad man. So get up! So get out! S-I-N, I S-I-N!" By the time I'd finished, I'd calmed down a little. But not enough. So I sang another. " Well I was there on the day They sold the cause for the queen, And when the lights all went out We watched our lives on the screen. I hate the ending myself, But it started with an alright scene. It was the roar of the crowd That gave me heartache to sing. It was a lie when they smiled And said, "you won't feel a thing" And as we ran from the cops We laughed so hard it would sting Yeah yeah, oh If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong) How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long) Now will it matter after I'm gone? Because you never learn a goddamned thing. You're just a sad song with nothing to say About a life long wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong, This never meant nothing to ya I spent my high school career Spit on and shoved to agree So I could watch all my heroes Sell a car on tv Bring out the old guillotine We'll show 'em what we all mean. Yeah yeah, oh If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong) How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long) Now will it matter long after I'm gone? Because you never learn a goddamned thing. You're just a sad song with nothing to say About a life long wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong, This never meant nothing to ya So go, go away, just go, run away. But where did you run to? And where did you hide? Go find another way, price you pay Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah You're just a sad song with nothing to say About a life long wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong, This never meant nothing to ya, come on You're just a sad song with nothing to say About a life long wait for a hospital stay And if you think that I'm wrong, This never meant nothing to ya At all, at all, at all, at all." I smiled as I felt better. I got up and unlocked the door. I froze when I opened it. Stood outside the door was....everyone. Mum, Dad, Mikey, Grandma Elena, Kat, Frank, Ray and Bob. "So." Ray smirked. "About that band you wanted to start."

Notes

And so the band is on the horizon. Over to my wonderful co-author.
Love as always.xxx Chapter by PartyPoisonlives4ever(Dee).