The Sane Abandoned Me

"Be back in a second." Donna whispered as she left the living room. I mouthed back an okay and looked at the sleeping boy on my lap.

Mikey had been missing for exactly two weeks. It was currently half term and Donna had begged me to come round for a movie night to make Gerard a little happier. Of course I agreed and now I had a sleeping Gee drooling on me. I took in his ruffled hair and the lines around his eyes; He really wasn't dealing with this very well at all. And that terrified me.

I was dragged out of my thoughts by Gerard whimpering and wriggling in his sleep. "Gerard?" I whispered, as his whimpers became louder and he was thrashing around.

"MIKEY!" Gerard screamed as his eyes flew open.

"Oh, Gee don't worry it was just a nightmare. Everything's okay." I coaxed rubbing the sweat from his forehead as he panted heavily.

"So is Mikey not missing then? And is my life not shit?"

I was taken aback by his harshness for a second and simply sat there.

"I'm sorry Daisy doll." He whispered, burying his head in my lap.

"It's fine, just please hang in there baby." I pleaded running my fingers through his matted hair.

"Hang in there."

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"Where you going Daze?" My Mum asked as I headed for the door. "To Gerard's?" She added, raising her eyebrow in that 'Mothers know best' kind of way.

"Yeah...I've made him coffee." I replied holding up the burning substance.

"You know you don't need to be there all the time."

"Yeah I know, its just I left him alone yesterday and I feel kind of bad so I'm seeing him today." I admitted.

"Okay, but be back for dinner." She said going back into the kitchen.

I walked the short distance to the Way household and saw that Donna's car was gone meaning there would be no one to answer the door, so I simply gave it a push and it opened.

"Gerard?" I called out as I shut the door behind me. No reply. He's probably in his room I thought as I began climbing the stairs when I heard a cry. Gerard? I began climbing the stairs a lot faster now until I entered Gerard's room.

I was not ready for the scene that was laid out before me. The room was trashed. And I mean trashed. All the posters had been ripped off the walls, clothes littered the place and all of his perfect perfect drawings had been shredded into millions of pieces. Gerard was curled in a ball with his head against the glass of his mirror, crying violently. I advanced towards him and noticed it. The blood.

There was so much blood; He was covered in it, his hair, his clothes, his arms. He turned his tear stained expression to face me and broke down.

"Daisy, I'm so fucking sorry."

I ran over to him and grasped his wrists up-turning his arms towards me.
"Gerard let me see." I urged my breath raspy.

"It hurts." He whispered his head falling into my chest and howling.

"Its okay Gerard." I assured him cupping his chin in my now blood stained hand. "Hear my heartbeat? Just focus on that."

After he had calmed down a bit I ran to his bathroom and found a first aid kit. I began cleaning him up as silent tears rolled down both of our cheeks.

When I had finished Gerard mumbled. "I'm so sorry that I got bad again, I hate myself and you don't deserve this. You should just leave-"

"Gerard I'm not going to leave you okay? Now come here and shut up." I ordered opening up my arms.

He nodded and crashed into me placing his head on my shoulder and me wrapping my arms securely around his torso.

"You're everything to me."

Notes

Soooo many exams and essay's coming up rn but I'm staying on top...I think