Not Enough, I'm Never Enough

For a moment, the whole world becomes eerily silent. The loud music turns into a mellow, buzzing sound in my ears. Our surroundings are a black blur, shadows blending with each other and whirling about. Nothing, absolutely nothing, is happening right now. Just Frank and I.

"F-Frank?" I croak out in utter disbelief. The area on my waist that he is hugging right now is tingling as if it's been electrocuted, causing my entire body to shake. "Y-You-"

"-Finally found you."

Holy shit. I think I just literally peed in my pants. Words can never describe the voice I've just heard. I thought it was really sexy earlier, but now when he's all drunk and speaking in slurs... I cannot take this anymore. As if to prove my point, my dick gets hard. Fuck.

"Hey," he slurs again in that husky, god-damning voice of his, leaning his head to the side and smirking slightly. "New kid that I met in the hallways. You're fuckin' cute."

This is it. I'm cumming already. My eyes blur with tears from the immense pleasure I'm receiving from his words right now. "Um... I... Uh..."

His grip on me tightens. "I mean, like, so beautiful. So, so, beautiful," he drawls, looking dazed as he stares into my eyes. "Never seen someone..." He groans out the next few words, "like you before."

Wow. Just wow. Earlier on, I had been fantasizing-fantasizing-about becoming friends with him, thinking it is something that will never happen in real life. But after hearing these words coming out of Frank himself, I am at a complete loss as to what I should probably say right now.

Finally, after what seems like an whole hour, I decide with a "Um... Okay." Lame answer, you idiot, I chastise myself inwardly while hitting myself with a prisoner's cane. That was a horrifyingly lame answer. Now he's going to think you're weirdo and won't want anything to do with you anymore. After all, what are you? Just a piece of shit that doesn't deserve attention from someone as great as Frank.

He chuckles in response. "You're too cute, Gerard. That was the first the first thing I noticed about you when I met you today."

God, can this little midget get any hotter by simply saying words?

"And then I decided," he continues with a drunken giggle, "that I would organize this party and word quickly got around. It started out as an excuse to fuck you. I knew someone would tell you about it and invite you to it."

I can only stare at him in utter shock. What? He planned this entire party for me? For me? A high school reject? A nobody? This is just too good to be true. So good, it's impossible.

Then it finally makes sense to me. I'm new to this school. Frank doesn't know about my true colors yet. My heart droops like a wilting flower almost as immediately as it rose up before.

"Okay." My voice comes out, surprisingly filled with resentment and slight anger. Not directed at him, but at myself. For giving him the wrong impression. Well, now that I have everything figured out, I will rather get out of this mess at once rather than have him break my fragile heart later on. "Well, I'm sorry, Iero, but I'm afraid I can't fuck you. I'm a virgin. I want to lose my virginity to someone who's worth it, not someone I'm going to have a simple one-night stand with."

The hurt and disbelief written on Frank's face as he processes my words is indescribable, almost breaking me into tears myself. "But... Gerard..." He whimpers softly, pressing himself to me.

I am never going to forgive myself for this. Blinking back tears, I slowly push him off me, letting him roll on his side. I stand up, straightening my shirt on impulse, and march to the entrance. I don't let anyone get in my way-people do step aside when they see my face (I think I look that scary right now)-and head out of the house, sliding out my phone to call Mikey who'll come pick me up.

All while Frank is howling from behind, in pain and in heartbreak.

Notes

Okay so this was kinda short but I hope you guys like it 'cuz it needed to be this way.

Aw, poor Frank and Gerard! Wonder what'll happen next? Keep on reading! ;)

On another note... I did something pathetic today. I voted and subscribed to my own story. I wanted to find out if it worked, and it did. I wish I can bury myself alive right now.