Mute

3rd person pov*

When Linda found Gerard asleep on the landing, she sighed sadly. Why was everything always "1 step forward, 2 steps back"?.. Why couldn't the poor kid catch a break and just be happy for once?
Shaking her head, knowing that Frank had most likely locked his door, she carefully scooped Gerard's sleeping form up into her arms and carried him to her room. She lay him in her bed and carefully tucked the blankets around him, then quietly left the room, pulling the door almost closed as she went.
Linda grabbed a spare pillow and some blankets from the airing cupboard, then went to make up the couch for herself.

Gerard's pov*

I woke up in an unfamiliar bed, in an unfamiliar room, that smelled of peaches and honeysuckle.
This must be Linda's room!.. What the Hell am I doing in here?
I remember falling asleep outside Frank's room, so I guess Linda put me here.. No point cluttering up the hallway!.. But if I'm here, where's Linda?
I'm not really sure what woke me up, it wasn't a nightmare, I know that much!
Sitting up in the bed, I look around the dark room and shiver.. I really hate the dark, it reminds me of how alone I am.
I slipped out of bed and crept quietly from the room.
I could hear soft music still playing through Frank's closed door as I headed for the stairs.
When I reached the bottom, I could hear quiet snoring, coming from the sofa.. Guess I found Linda then!
To be honest, she's been nothing but nice to me, and I don't want to hurt her, but I don't see another option now.
Silently, I opened the front door and slipped out into the night, closing the door behind me.
Street lamps lit up the area, and gave a break from the suffocating blackness.
Barefoot and shivering, I walked gingerly along the path toward the park that was located at the end of the road.
There were fewer lights there, but I was almost beyond caring now.
Now I just wanted it to all end!
I walked the narrow gravel paths through in between dead and dying bushes and trees.
Fall leaves littered the ground under my cold feet, crunching in the still silence of the night.
Rounding a corner, I found what I'd come here for.. The lake!
I'd heard rumours that bodies had been found in there.. And now there would be one more.
I can't swim!.. Never learned how, so as I waded out into the freezing water, the temperature pulling the air from my lungs, and the strength from my bones, I knew I only had minutes left in this world.
I stopped as the water reached my chest, and stared up at the cloud filled sky "Goodbye Mikey, goodbye Frank, goodbye Linda!.." I murmured, my breath shuddering out in foggy clouds ".. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better brother, lover or son!.. Have a good life without me to ruin it.. I love you all!.. Goodbye!"
A tear slid unchecked down my cold cheek as I began to walk again.. Deeper, deeper, then suddenly the ground seemed to fall away beneath my feet, and I was sinking.. drowning in the icy pool.. but I didn't struggle! I didn't fight! This was as it should be!.. My end!.. My death!.. At my hands, no one else's.
As the freezing water invaded my nose and mouth, I closed my eyes and just let the darkness take me.
To anyone who ever loved me.. I'm sorry!.. Good night!........................

Notes

Hi there chipmunks.. I'm sorry!

I never intended to end this story like this, but I've been ill lately and just want to close this fic down.
I'm sorry for ending it, and the way it ended!.. I've honestly never killed either Frank or Gerard in a story before, but I couldn't see another way out.

Anyway.. Please comment, stay safe and peace out!
<3 Love ya!


ps. My other stories should all continue, though at a painfully slow pace.. Please be patient.
pps. My co-writer MIGHT do a final chapter for this.. Frank's POV, but that's up to her.