Sing It Out

"G-G-Gerard, I'm gonna g-go and t-tune Pansy. You coming Mikes?" I asked, well, rather demanded. I gave him the puppy eyes and Mikey got up to come with me, gerard didn't even bother to turn around to look at us.
"Yeah, you- just go I'm gonna chat-" he managed to get out. Fuck sake, he's such a fucking jerk. Now that he knows he's pretty, he plays at it so hard and flirts with everything that fucking moves. Fucking prick.
"Bye." I said sharply, but still he didn't flinch, nor did he when I dragged Mikey and slammed their bus door closed. Mikey tugged back and stared at me.
"I know! It's just... Him, he's just being a douche, he'll come running back as soon as he realises that you're gone." He comforted. I somehow found just that in his tone and relaxed.
"Okay, I actually have got to tune and shit so you coming with?"
"Yeah sure, let's roll!" He said as we made our way, in silence, to our equipment.

After what seemed to be forever, which was half an hour later which was also half an hour before our gig, Gerard returned all flustered and giggly.
"Hey my little Frankie!" He cooed as he walked sexily up to me. I'm not having this.
"Gerard I-" I pulled away so that he couldn't get to me and he seemed to get the idea.
"What's up Frank?" He asked with his sad eyes. Damn it, why the fuck does he have to be this damn attractive!
"I just wanted to say-"
"Hey guys! We ready for this?!" Ray shouted as he made his entrance into the room with a rather embarrassed looking Bob behind him.
"Fuck yeah!" Gerard replied with the same amount of enthusiasm.
"How was that other band? What were they? Mindless Self Indulgence?" Ray queried. Gerard just nodded his head eagerly.
"Oh they're rad as fuck! Their singer Jimmy is so cool and so is Kitty and Steven but there's also Lindsey-" he trailed. I slammed my hand hard onto the amp next to me.
"What the fu-"
"DONT you FUCKING DARE try and say you didn't take a fancy to her. Did you fuck her?!" I shouted at him. I slammed my hand into my mouth to try and swallow back the sentences I just said, but it was too late. Gerard just stared back at me, hopeless.
"She- I don't- I love YOU Frank! Why the fuck would you say that?!" He said almost in tears.
"I don't- oh what the fuck have I done...." I trailed. Today was just a major write off, it can't get any worse.
"I'm gonna leave." Gerard announced. I tried to stop him but he hit my arm out of the way and pushed me to the side.
I didn't know what to do, run after him, shout my apologies to him. No, I did neither of them.
I cried.

I sobbed until the headache came and I felt like I was going to pass out. Mikey looked down at me.
"I know you shouldn't have said that Frank and I know you're sad, but you're going to have to pull yourself together, it's been twenty minutes and were on in ten minutes." He told me. Fuck, I'm so fucking pathetic. Through my tears and runny nose, I nodded and made my way shakily to Pansy and threw her round me.
"Gerard still isn't back-"
"Yes I am, let's get this over with so I can go home." He said coldly. How could I upset him like that? My one precious flower and I've stepped all over him with my simply jealousy and assumptions.

*during the performance* Everything was going okay, I didn't move much as every step I took felt like I was going to throw up on the first row. I couldn't do that and I couldn't just leave, so I continued.
That was until Gerard came up to me and began singing next to me, I couldn't play, I just stopped. Ray picked up for me but I just stood there staring at him as a small tear trickled down my cheek. I couldn't move and the audience was shouting my name. Mikey even moved from his one spot and played next to me so he could check up.

'Frank, you okay?' I heard through my earpiece.
'Frank! Frank! Frank!'- the cry of the fans
'Frerard! Frerard! Frerard!'

The music stopped, but only to me, everything was muffled and I couldn't even hear the chants of the fans. The last thing I remember was something cold and hard hitting my face at a rather fast speed.

Notes

I'm gonna have to be a douche now and say I won't be able to regularly update soon as my final exams are coming up (kill me)
but you're looking real nice today.