What are you doing to me?

I was a nervous wreck throughout the entire movie. I kept counting down how long it would be until I confessed everything to Gerard, hopefully he won't reject me- or worse laugh at me. What if he calls me pathetic? Or what if he kicks me out of his car? What if he stops talking to me altogether?As you can tell, I've been making up bad case scenarios during the enitrity of this awful film. What's with the singing every 5 minutes? Leave it to Mikey and Ray to pick the worst movie ever.

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The movie was over almost 2 hours later, which did nothing to help my nerves, by the way. I jumped out of my seat and notice Gerard do the same, he seemed on edge too. What did he think I was going to say?
I went out of the theatre first and told Ray 'Gerard and I might be late, so you and Mikey can go ahead and order. We'll be there as soon as we can' he nodded, grabbing Mikey's hand 'good luck, man, tell me how everything goes'. He was oblivious to a very scared looking Gerard behind him. I really hope he doesn't hate me after words....

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Gerard got into the driver's seat and before I could even tell him anything or try to soothe him, he randomly blurted ' idontwantyoutodateanotherguy' ..... Did he just tell me he wanted me to be single..? His breathing started hitching and he started shaking
'woah, man, calm down and let me tell you what's been going on, okay?' he nodded and took a shaky breath. I took my own shaky breath before jumping in and telling him my feelings for him
'okay, remember in the 7th grade, when we were at Bob Bryar's birthday party and we all played truth or dare? Okay, well, remember when I said I had a crush on you? I wasn't playing. I know I lied and told you I was just trying to get out of having to go streaking throughout the corner store- but I wasn't. I was serious, I've had a crush on you since the 7th grade.. I meant to tell you during the 8th grade, but I chickened out. I've been trying since the 8th grade to let you know how I truly feel, but I always got scared to tell you- I thought you were going to hate me if I did
So, in other words, I've had this big crush on you for about 5 years and I think I might possiblybeinlovewithyou' I said the last part quickly, hoping it was quick enough for him not to understand it. He was silent for awhile before he started laughing like mad man. Just my luck. ' What the fuck's so funny? I just poured my fucking heart out to you, only for you to laugh at my face?' I looked down at my shoes, so he couldn't see the years forming in my eyes 'just forget this whole thing happened, Way'
His eyes widened and he ran his hands through his hair before shaking his head ' No, it's not like that, its just...'

Notes

Short update for you all, I decided to be evil and leave you alone with this cliff hanger. Until tomorrow that is, anyway, if you haven't already noticed- I will most likely update daily

Xo S-omeone-els-e