What are you doing to me?

I talked to Ray and Mikey about what I should I do when it comes to that tone everyone has been telling me about. I really don't notice it at all, but apparently it's there. Anyway, they've been helping me control and deliver my emotions. It sounds like I was talking to a counselor at school 'it makes me angry that this happened because...' or 'take deep breaths before speaking to him. Calm down before anything'
I assume it's working because they talk to me like that less and less as the days go by. I'm thankful that they're helping me with this.... Issue? The last thing I want, or need for that matter, is to end up without Frank by my side.
One day I was going to rule the world with him as my husband. I swear it.

I interrupted my inner monologue to finish setting up the dinner table and cooking before Frank got home. I paid for my brothers to go out to eat this evening. I wanted it to be just Frank and I tonight.
Speaking of, he should have been here already. I didn't wanna call and annoy him, but the candles were kinda melting grossly. I blew them out and decided to turn the stove down so that way the food stays warm, but it doesn't get over cooked.

Almost half an hour later, he walked through the door. As soon as I heard the door handle jiggle, I rushed to light the candles and serve the plates of food.
"Welcome home, baby." I greeted him from the kitchen as He was walking through. He smiled.
"What's all of this? I've only been gone a week."
I shrugged, " I just missed you a whole bunch, that's all. Are you hungry? "
"Starved, actually. This looks amazing, let me put my stuff down and I'll be right with you."
"I've got that, go ahead and sit down." I took his bag before he could protest. As I took his bags I kissed his forehead lovingly.

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The whole time we were sitting there, I couldn't help myself- I kept staring at him, tracing his every feature with my eyes.
"Why on earth do you keep staring at my like that for?"
"Like what? I'm just lookin''
"I don't know how to explain it. But you're looking at me like I'm a, I don't know, diamond? There, that's it, you're looking at me like I'm a shiny rock."
I laughed, "Of everything beautiful in this world- and you compare yourself to a rock? That doesn't do you enough justice."
He blushed, "Thank you. But, tell me, what do you think about when you zone out on my face?"
"Our future, your beauty, taking over the world- the list goes on and on."
"Taking over the world, eh? That sounds like fun. I want in."
"Oh, but , of course. No one but you can rule the world beside me."
He laughed and leaned in to kiss me. Instead of it being a simple, plain kiss- or even a lust filled one- it was passionate and love filled. I pulled him closer to me, so that we were chest to chest. My heart was hammering roughly in my chest, and I could feel his doing the same thing. They beat at the same rapid pace as each other as we continued to kiss.

After the kiss was finished, we looked in each other's eyes. I say nothing but love and adoration in his amazing, golden orbs.
"I really fucking love you, Frank, I really do."
He smiled at me warmly, "I love you too, Gerard."
That set us into another passionate kiss, only this one seemed to be filled with more love than the first. I felt angry butterflies start to take off inside my stomach, taking it as a sign to wrap my arm around my waist, and the other was brought up to cup his face. One of his hands were stroking my hair, while the other was placed firmly one my waist.


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I walked Frank down the steps to our bedroom, our mouths still attached, not giving off any signal of detaching anytime soon. I laid him on his back and continued kissing him.
Somewhere on our way down here our kiss turned from passionate to lust filled. Instead of cupping his face, my hand was cupping his ass. I still held him closely to my pelvis.
He grinded up on me whilst twisting his hands in my long black hair and giving it a tug. Oh God that felt so good, I could feel his hard through his jeans, and I was sure he could feel mine.
I grinded into him, pressing him more into the mattress than he was before. He moaned loudly and started to pull my hair more, making me growl and bite his lip. I broke the kiss to rip off our shirts, his lips about as swollen as mine.
The golden orbs that were filled with love and admiration only minutes before were now blown up with lust and wanting.
Without missing a beat, he sealed our lips back together while taking off my pants with one hand. I have to admit, I was impressed. One hand?
He brought my attention back to him by biting my lip and wrapping his legs around my waist. I felt his bulge brush against my stomach, the contact pretty much making him scream out.
I was flipped onto the mattress while he snatched a condom and the lube outta the nightstand drawer. He ripped my boxers off of my body and threw them across the room before doing the same thing to his own pair.
He coated two fingers in lube and- to my surprise- started prepping himself. I watched anxiously as he scissored his hole with his fingers. I decided he was taking control, but took the opportunity to sit with my back against the head board and roll the condom onto my pulsing length. I threw the blanket and pillows off of the bed, just so we didn't have to wash any of it tomorrow.
When he was finished prepping himself, he leaped onto me, attacking my mouth with his furiously. He coated my cock in lube before aligning me with his entrance and sliding down, not even bothering to wait until he adjusted, he started rocking back and forth.

He felt amazing around me, it was like taking Ecstasy and touching someone's forearm. I placed my hands firmly on his hips and started marking up every inch of skin my mouth could reach on his torso. His moans alone were enough to drive me over the edge. They were so perfect and slutty.
I shifted a little to the left, because, if I remembered correctly, his prostate is somewhere around there. After shifting a lot more, he screamed out my name (along with various profanities) and dug his nails into my back. Which, of course, made me scream out.
I wrapped my left hand around his waist securely as my right hand reached between us to start jacking him off. He was close, and as was I. I felt my lower stomach knot, but tried to hold off. He had to get off before I did.
I rubbed my thumb over this slit and then I dug my thumb into it, driving him way over the edge. I grabbed one of his hands in my left one whilst pressing our foreheads together and watching his face as he orgasimed. His lips formed the perfect 'o' shape, his eyes rolled in the back of his head and his face was covered in sweat. He yelled my name a final time, before I cummed myself. He slumped forward and panted, trying to get his breathing under control.

I pulled out and carried him to the bathroom, grabbing a warm washcloth and cleaning off our stomachs and chests. I took off the condom and threw it in the trash. I looked over at Frank, only to see that he was way tired. I grabbed a pair of his underwear and helped him put it on, before going to make up the bed. I laid him down and went to find a pair of sweatpants to slip on.
After shutting out the lights, I crawled into bed with Frankie and snuggled up to him.
"Gee?" Frank whispered quietly.
"Yes, love?" I whispered back.
"I missed you. A lot."
"I missed you too, possibly more than you missed me."
We were silent for some time before I said, "Frankie? I'm sorry for scaring you and for being a possessive asshole. And everything else I did wrong."
"I forgive you- that's why I came home. But, please remember what I said a few nights ago."
"I will." and I did, I repeat it to myself all of the time.

"Baby?"
"Hm..?" he was already starting to fall asleep.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
I wrapped my arms around him and started playing with his hair until I heard him snore, which is around the time I fell asleep.

If I was lucky enough, this is how I would be able to go to sleep every night for the rest of my life. Next to my love.

Notes

*frat boy voice* NOICE

Happy Ace day to all of you out there!!

- xo cellabrationaf P.s. does anyone know when Ray Toro's album is going to be released??