Never coming home

October 6th, Pearl Harbor, Hawaii

Margaret's POV.

Lindsey, Jamia and Kristin won't stop yapping about how everything is so pretty around here.
I have a massive headache because I couldn't sleep on the journey here, and they wouldn't stop talking!
I love my friends, I honestly do. But right now, I just feel a very urgent need to tape their mouths.

Apart from being incredibly upset for being sent here, I'm worried about Gerard. I haven't heard from him in a while and the only news I got was that my request to transfer Mikey to Pearl Harbor was accepted and that he should arrive tomorrow.

Th girls keep talking and taking pictures of everything while we all are driven to our houses inside the military base. We're all staying together under Lindsey's request.

We arrive at the house and Jamia and Kristin jump out of the jeep and run inside laughing and calling dibs on the rooms. I was so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't notice that Lindsey stayed behind to talk to me.

"Alright Margaret, this is enough!" She says, breaking my line of thought
"Excuse me?"
"I know you're upset for being sent here and I get it. I would be too. But I can see that there's something else bothering you and I want to know what is it."
"Lins I'm fine. You must be imagining things" I give her a small smile and try to go around her, but she steps in front of me
"I've known you since high school sweety. Do you really think you can lie to me?"
"I'm not lying Lins! I'm fine, I really am. I just have a lot on my mind, that's all..."
"What's on your mind?" I'm starting to get irritated by her persistence
"Just a lot of things! My job mostly. And a few other things..."
"What other things?"
"Just... Other things I'm worried about."
"Margaret, either you tell me what's on your mind right now, or I swear to God I'm going to call Jamia and Kristin out here and we'll force it out of you!" She waves a finger in front of my nose as a threat.

I sigh. Clearly there's no getting out of this, so I might as well just tell her. In fact, I should just tell them all and be done with this.
I've been hiding my relationship with Gerard from the girls because no one can know. Technically, I'm still his teacher, and if anyone found out that I was romantically involved with one of my students, there would be problems. They would say that there would be conflict of interests, that I wouldn't be doing my job properly because I would want to protect him... Which is true, and already happened...

"Fine!" I sigh again, "I'll tell you everything. But let's get inside and I'll tell you all at the same time. I'm only telling this story once!"
Lindsey smiles like she just won a grand prize and runs to the house.
I sigh again preparing myself mentally for their reactions and endless questions, and walk inside.
"Here goes nothing..."
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I tell the girls everything.
At first, there was silence. Then, a downpour of questions,
"Why didn't you tell us?"
"How could you do this?"
"What about your job?! You could lose your job!"
"Are you sure about this?"

I just wait for them to ask everything they want. This is why I didn't want to tell them. Right now, my friends are a mixture of happiness, pride, curiousity and concern. I didn't want to worry them.

"I know about the risks. And I think Gerard knows too. But I'm sure that none of you will tell this to anyone... Will you?"
"Of course not!", "We wouldn't dream of it!", "Never!" They all answer at once
"But... Do you really love him?" Jamia askes
"I... I don't know... I guess... I'm not sure..." I stutter
"What do you mean you're not sure?" Kristin askes
"I do love him, and I want to be with him. And I know that he said that he loved me too... But he's away now, and I don't know when he's coming back... What if his feelings for me change while he's out there? What if... What if he doesn't comes back?" My voice breaks a little at the end and Kristin holds my hand,
"You can't think like that sweety. You have to think positive!"
"Yes Margaret! You can't spend your life not taking any risks! If you love him, go for it!" Says Jamia
"But what if..." I start, but I'm immediately cut off
"Sweetheart, we know what you're thinking. You're scared to death of loosing the people you love, that's why you don't let anyone close... But you can't live your life in fear! You should enjoy what you two have now!" Lindsey says, sitting next to me and placing one arm over my shoulders
"Margaret, we've known eachother since high school. In that time, you've never had a boyfriend, or a crush. Every boy that tried to come close, you push them away. You went to college, and the same thing happened... It's time you start letting people in sweety... You can't just push everyone way because you're afraid of getting hurt!" Kristin keeps holding my hand.

I sigh. I know they're right, but I can't shake the feeling that something will go wrong between me and Gerard. I love him so much I can't even describe it! But I'm terrified of losing him or getting hurt.
War time was also a very poor time for me to fall in love...

"Margaret, stop overthinking things and enjoy it!" Lindsey says shaking my shoulders.
They laugh and I smile a bit, "Alright... I'll try not to overthink things."
"That's the spirit!"Jamia shouts which makes all laugh.

Our conversation is interrupted by a knock on the door. Lindsey stands up to answer it and there's a solider at the door,
"I'm sorry to disturb you Miss, but I'm looking for Miss Margaret Williams." I stand up and walk to the door,
"I'm Miss Williams." The solider saluts me
"I'm sorry to disturb you Ma'am, but your presence is requested at headquarters immediately"
"Requested? What happened?"
"We just recived word Ma'am... London and Oxford have been bombed again."

Notes

I'm a terrible person. Not only am I late on my updates, now I leave you with a cliffhanger!

pls let me know what you think ok?
A lot of love to all of you!