Never coming home

October 5th, Oxford Air Base, England

Gerard's POV.

"Hold it, Hold it, back up a little! You're telling me, Frank Iero, that you, Gerard Way, against all odds and after making a complete fool of yourself, managed to make the most beautiful woman anyone has ever seen in our miserable lives, fall in love?! WITH YOU?! HOW THE HELL IS THIS POSSIBLE?!"
"Shhh!!!" The nurse scolded him for speaking so loud in the infirmary.

We were all laughing at his face. Frank waved his arms in disbelief as I told them about me and Margaret.
"I'm sorry you feel that way Frank" I say in between laughs and wiping the tears from my eyes
"This is unbelievable. Unbelievable I tell you! How is it that you get the perfect woman after throwing up at her feet, and me, in all my charm, can't even get a girl to have a drink with me?" He says pouting.
We all start laughing again, earning us a glare from the nurse.

We're all sitting around Mikey's bed. He says he's feeling better, But I can see that he's not. He's in a lot of pain, physically and emotionally.
Earlier today, the doctor talked to him about the scars he would have in his face because of the burns. He assured him that they would heal, but he will be scared.
When the doctor was talking to him I could see his face drop and his eyes showed panic.
After the doctor left, Mikey forced me to go and find a mirror so he could look at himself. I tried to convince him otherwise but he started getting upset, so I gave in.
He broke down in tears after I turned the mirror to his face.
The whole right half of his face had scars and cuts.
After hours of trying to confort him, he finally stopped crying. When the guys appeard, he even looked happy to see them. Even now, he was laughing with us, but I knew that that wasn't his true feelings at the moment.
Mikey had always been a quiet and shy boy. Never really talked much. Growing up, he was very self conscious about himself, especially around girls. Those trades in his personality continued until adulthood. My fears now were that he would retreat further into himself out of embarrassment of his face.

"Well I'm happy for Gerard!" Ray says after he was able to control his laughter, "He finally has a reason to become more grounded and kick the nasty habbits."
"Bad choice of words dude. We're pilots. We'll never be grounded!" Bob says
We all start laughing again at his bad joke.
"Gentlmen! May I remind you that you're in a hospital!" A nurse scolds us and we all turn around to look at her. She was gazing daggers at us.
After a few "sorry's" and giggles, the nurse turns back to her work and we all start laughing again.

"But seriously man, I'm happy for you." Ray says, reaching for my hand and giving it a light squeeze.
"Thanks Ray. I'm glad to hear that." I smile at him and look to the guys. They are all smiling at me and nodding.
"Yeah Gee, she's looks like a really nice girl." Bob says
"That's an understatement..." I say to myself, thinking I wasn't saying it out loud
"What do you mean?" Mikey asks
"What do you mean, what do I mean?" I ask confused
"You said that calling her a nice girl was an understatement. Why?" Frank askes
"Because...." I try to find the right words without sounding ridiculous.mthe guys are all staring at me in expectation.
"Because she's perfect." I finally say, "If there is a God than she's one of his angels for sure. The world might me dark, in agony and despair, but she's a ray of sunlight. Not only is she beautiful, but she's smart, and kind, and devoted, and has the most honest smile I've ever seen. She's the rare type of girl that is an open book when it comes to showing emotions, but is extremely complex and difficult to understand at the same time. She puzzles me, she makes me want to be a better man! Ever since I layed eyes on her, I've been having dreams and thoughts about having a life with her, after all of this ends. I want to be there for her every day for the rest of my life. I want to hold her when she cries, to be the one that makes her laugh. Hell, I even want to be the one she gets mad at! Being away from her, feels like I've been broken in half, that part of me is missing. I've never felt this way before, about anyone! There were girls in my life, but none like her! She's.... She's the girl I want to marry... I love her."

I was was looking at the floor as I spoke. When I lifeted my eyes again, the guys were staring at me in shock, their mouths slightly ajar.
"Fucking hell..." Mikey was the first one to speak.
"Holy shit!" Frank spoke in second
Ray and Bob just stared at me wide eyed.
I felt embarrassed, having them all staring at me like that. I felt myself starting to blush, "Would you guys stop staring at me like that? It's creeping me out!"
"I'm sorry dude, it's just that..." Ray spoke, still with a surprised look on his face.
"We never thought we lived to see the day that you said something like that!" Frank completed Ray's sentence
"Why not? Is it that weird?!" I ask, feeling a bit offended
"YES!" They all answer at the same time
"This isn't just some fling!" Bob says, "You're actually in love with this girl! It's real!"

I try to make sense of their comments. Looking back in my life, it kind of makes sense. I was always the guy that never took relationships seriously. Girls would be in and out of my life, just as frequently as I changed my shirt. The only thing permanent in my life was the liquor. Come to think of it, I've never even been in love. This is a whole new feeling for me. No wonder the guys are surprised.

"Well... I do love her... I know it may sound weird for you, but it's the truth. I love her."
"We belive you Gee." Bob says, slapping my back in a comforting way
"I don't!" Frank says, "I think you might be drunk! Completely wasted! In fact, I think you might be allucinating!"
"Well, in a way... He is drunk." Mikey says
"What?! I'm not drunk!" I frown at him
"You are... You're drunk in love..." He says, smiling at me
the guys start to laugh again and I smile back at my brother,
Drunk in love.... Now there's a good title for a song...

Notes

Hi everyone! I'm sorry for this crappy chapter, but I didn't have a lot of imagination today. I might write a new chapter tonight, but I'm still not sure.
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