what it's like to be me

Amelia's P.O.V

"What" i said angrily.

He didn't want me, why would he i am ugly and fat i should just die, i dug my nails into my hand.
"no i just mean .." gerard started.
" no you know what , FUCK YOU" i shouted grabbing my cardigan off the sofa and running straight out of the house.
By the time i got home it was pitch black outside, i was glad it was dark so no one could see the tears streaming down my face.
i furiously wiped at my eyes and opened the door.
"Hey aunt Carla" i shouted down while jogging up the stairs.

I collapsed on my bed looking down at my bare scarred arms, i was worthless i should just die.
My hand started to shake as i started walking slowly to the the bathroom.
I started to cry while whispering to myself that i was worthless and ugly, i grabbed the razor from the shelf running my fingers lightly along the blade. This was it.
I filled the bath up and got inside with my razor and started to slowly cut deeply into my wrists and thighs while wincing in pain.

Gerard's P.O.V

God why was she so arrogant if she had just let me finish and she would have known that i just didn't want to steal her innocence.
Mikey ran down stairs after she had left and started shouting about how i should go after her and tell her i love her.
After half an hour of me screaming at Mikey telling him she would think i was stupid, i got into my car and sped down the street to her house.
I hesitated then eventually plucked up the courage and knocked, woman who didn't really look like Amelia at all answered.
"where is Amelia? " i asked politely .
" upstairs,just come in " She grumbled while making her way back to the livingroom.
I ran upstairs and started to open the doors and look for her, i got to the third door but it was locked.
I thought nothing of it and was about to walk away when i heard a muffled cry. I could tell something was wrong and quickly kicked down the wooden door.

I was met with a horrible sight and smell of blood i ran up to the tub and pulled out my lovely Amelia.

"NO NO PLEASE GOD NO" i screamed loudly while holding her broken body in my arms .
The scream got he attention of the aunt who dialed an ambulance straight away, Amelia's beautiful little eyelashes fluttered and opened slightly.
"Gee i-i" she stuttered.
"don't" i whispered and lightly kissed her small lips just as an ambulance crew burst in and pushed me out the way.

Notes

Yeah i did this instead of homework haha