I love you for you

Gerard's POV

I jumped straight out of bed that morning hoping that i'd get to talk to frank today, because well we hadn't talked yesterday. I tried not to get to excited about it, but in the end i couldn't help myself. I contemplated on wearing my mask, because of well Frank. Did he want to see me without my mask? In some way one day i wanted to surprise people when they finally see all of my face. So i guess today the mask stays. I'm not as accepting of my face enough to go without my mask anyway. I was humming some song i had been writing called 'The Light Behind Your Eyes'. i think it may be about and or for Frank. Who was i fooling? Of course it was for and about him! I smiled stupidly in my bathroom mirror and decided to try eye liner today or as some dudes call it 'Guy-Liner'. I giggled like a little girl when i poked myself in the eye even though normally i would have been cursing like a sailor i couldn't help it. I felt so happy, so happy i probably seemed drunk. i kind of was on happiness in a way. After i figured i had done a decent job on my 'guy-liner' i finished getting dressed in my combat boots, grey skinnys, and a dressy button up black shirt with my blue jacket that had party poison on it alone with some black finger less gloves. I tugged at the top of my zipper pretty happy with my reflection and walked out to join Mikey at breakfast.


"Morning Gerard."

"Morning Mikes! How'd ya sleep?"

"As awesome as always with your shirt!" he chuckled and i quickly joined him sitting down to enjoy some oatmeal with extra butter just the way i liked it. Wow i thought i should get drunk on happiness more often maybe I'd start doing things i used to that made life more enjoyable.

"someone seems awful happy" Mikey commented and winked at me. He knew i was and exactly why. I laughed and playfully punched him while finishing off my oatmeal and grabbed our stuff.

"You ready to go Mikes?" i asked noticing that we were early on leaving, for the better i guessed.

"yeah just let me grab my stuff"

"kk Mikes i'll be here my dearest brother" He groaned happily as he figured i was going to be like i had been to him yesterday. Once we got our stuff we started off for school. Which if i may add had become more enjoyable since Frank, but i think that was obvious. I could feel my stomach knotting itself as the school came into view. I felt nervous like i was going to puke all to soon. Mikey noticed this and pulled me into a hug. This normally always calmed me, but now it wasn't and he went to the last resort. He begin rubbing my head and put my earbuds in and blasted my favorite songs. I could feel myself relax and he let me go. I pulled out my earbuds and looked back at him.

"Better now?" he asked smiling lovingly. I nodded.

"Thanks Mikes. I don't know what i'd do without you." i said pulling him into a hug. Sometimes he seemed like the older one. He didn't care about his self image out in public just as long as i was happy and to me he was the best person ever and he didn't care what other people thought. He'd just tell em 'Fuck off i'm Mikey fucking way and i'm helping my brother out. Deal. With. It.' i couldn't ask for a better brother. Once i calmed down (i hoped to god Frank hadn't seen that) we both went to our classes. When i was finally looking forward to PE the classes were dragging ass! I groaned and rubbed my face then i realized i had eye liner on and i could have possibly smudged it. I excused myself to the bathroom to check it. When i got to the bathroom i checked to see if anyone was in there and when i had made sure the coast was all clear i took off my mask revealing my ugly face. I felt so exposed without my mask. I quickly shook myself out of my thoughts and got to work on re applying and fixing my guy liner. Just when i had pulled out the pen i heard the bathroom door open and i froze. Bad idea. Good thing i had my back to them because i bolted into the nearest stall hoping and praying whoever it wasn't A) hadn't noticed me B) hadn't seen my face or D) they just didn't care. I could feel my heart going crazy and i was wasting time when i should be putting my mask back on. I snapped back to my senses and begin trying to put my mask back on whenever i heard someone clear their throat.

"Fuck" my heart could have stopped on the spot but it didn't and i hated/loved that it hadn't.

"Gerrrrrrarrrrrd? Is that you hun?" My heart fluttered and my head begin to get clouded. Mindlessly i replied.

"Uh yeah"

"Why are you hiding hun?" i knew i couldn't lie to him so i just told him the truth.

"I was fixing my eye liner and i didn't have my mask on so when i heard someone coming i freaked and ran into the nearest stall." I confessed.

"Oh Hun" He purred. "why do you wear that thing anyway? I bet you'd look just fine without it. Can i see you without it?"

My heart skipped when he asked that last question and i placed my hands on the side of my mask protecting it like he could pull it off even though i was in a stall and he was on the other side of the door.

"N......no i just don't feel comfortable with my face. I'm sorry Frank"

"Aww, well can you at least come out? I feel like i'm talking to a wall" I couldn't help it i laughed out loud.

"Uh frank? you kinda are." I pointed out. "well i'd rather talk to your face"

"Okay Okay i'm coming." I slowly unlocked the door and stepped out of the stall. I was pretty sure i had put the mask on wrong so i went straight to the mirror to fix it, not even caring Frank was in here with me. Watching my every move, and i think that was saying a lot. When i was just about done fixing it i could feel Frank had grabbed the strings and was playing with them or un doing them.

"No no Frank" I begged. "please don't take my mask off!" I begged and pleaded and held on to my mask tighter pressing it to my face. He pouted, but complied.

"thank you." I said happily.

"So what are you doing skipping class? Gerard? I thought you were a good boy?" I know he didn't mean for that last part to sound the way it did, but i couldn't help it but take it that way.

"i just told you. I was fixing my eye liner. What are you not doing in class Iero?" I daughterly said his last name for effect only managing to earn giggles from me and an amused smile from Frank.

"I just decided to bail class until PE" He admitted.

"Well i don't see why i have to learn anything else until after lunch so i guess i'll bail with you."

A smile spread across his face and he grabbed my hand and lead me to a little door thing and opened it.

"this is where i hang when i bail class. No one knows about it and no one will find it because its behind the last stall." He explained even though i could already see the location. I didn't care anyway hell this dude could teach me math and i bet i'd learn everything from him. His voice and his eyes. They made me want to better myself. Before i knew it we were in the small space and i had to admit it wast half bad. All it was, was some safe keeping for the plumbing but there was a small stereo and a couple bean bags stored in here.

"Did you bring in all this stuff yourself?"

"nah i just found it like this. Looks like someone had the same idea though." He looked at me and winked and i could feel my face getting hot so i looked down at my feet. Hoping i wasn't blushing and even if i was i hoped he couldn't tell. Either way he went and sat down on a bean bag chair and i shut the little door behind us and pulled a string and a light lit up and i settled into the chair next to him. At first it was an awkward silence until he started talking about music and comic books. My kind of topics i thought. Then i glanced at my phone to see that not only we had lost track of time, but it was time for lunch. I felt bad for rushing off so i invited Frank to sit with me and Mikey assuring him Mikey wouldn't mind and off to lunch we went!

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